I will tell my story here.. Since I went through my first spiritual awakening I felt very few people would understand what I must go through. 6 or 7 years ago I was still in high school and I didn't have the nerve to continue going to school even though I tried to put it behind me and preserving it until I got out of there it just wouldn't happen. My mind was not living in my previous reality. Ever since that feeling of pure organic magic entered my brain I knew I had to chase enlightenment no matter the cost. I went very extreme. Through my careful planning to leave my country in search of the most hospitable natural environment I could survive I became an expert at research on all things mystical. I used to be a stoner kid, a somewhat popular high schooler with plenty of people I tried to convince. I stopped talking to everyone even my mother. Months went by I got my student loan and took off to the Australian Outback with whatever I could carry with me. I was 18 or 19 and it did not last nearly as long as I would have hoped. I ran out of money and I ended up calling relatives to help me come back. HAHA. Since then I have scoured the southern U.S. homeless. I met a lot of wierdos and got into some shitty situations. I have a felon from stealing a car, and another one from smashing into a liquor store. Aside from all my intentional community research I currently I have a place I know of and have lived where I can be alone, digging out of a couple dumpsters to survive plus lot of wildlife and getting the higiene and clothes from nearby churches. Though no other homeless person goes back as far as I do you must always be weary. Some homeless people are looking for a motive to do something horrific. I do not plan on going back there but who knows. As of now I have a good relationship with my mother and I am at a place I can freely reflect on life as long as I need. It's called go to the ER and say u have suicidal thoughts. I have had many jobs in my short life as well as one love. I also had an extreme elightenment experience which lasted weeks. It surprises me I am back to my "normal" frame of mind. I know what body exersizes are needed to attain such a mystical love. It is supernatural. Now I think I am a bit glad the chick I loved didn't know how deep I was. Please feel free to tell me your stories I would like to read them, thanks.
