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@Alexop 1.) I hope that was the case, living in the 3rd world country, parents are expecting their youngsters to make up for the expenses they spend on their children, sick, and stupid traditions, I'm actually trying something different this holiday by not going home lol. 2.) Yeah I started that early this year with friends that I meet up with from time to time. Just that, they are good people to hang out with, but that is all. Only 'good'. Nothing new, no growth, nothing deep. I sometimes wonder if I'm just there as their therapist lol. Same thing when I went home to my birth town. Nothing new, just the same old town, with boring people contended with their daily boring lives. I am working on that since I've read a lot of books about services to others and creating value, I am actually working on a personal project. Just have to vent out because sometimes, you can't prevent communication with family members out of the blue, but I am making schedules now. Also, I'm working in a job. Just got lucky that I'm allowed WFH, so I have some extra free time to do my thing than spending my time in the traffic.

Hi everyone! I'm from Asia and from where I grow up, it's been a custom to never question family tradition and parent-aunt superiority just because they are your elders. Here's my question: 1.) Is it the same in the west or any part of the globe that you always need to be responsible for your parent(s)? Meaning giving them always money. 2.) Sometimes I wish was normal like most people in society, but it's not. I have tried that before and it makes me miserable. Now that I am starting to get out of my shell, people are sabotaging my success, even my mom doesn't understand what is it that I am trying to do. For context, I am actually living far from them (takes a 1hour) plane, but in the same country. It's been on my mind for a while now to migrate, but I don't want to be stuck to 9-5 job. All I want is the freedom to do whatever I can aaaahh.

I've always wanted to go to London uuhhh

I found this video today, haven't watched it, I don't think I can waste my time on this, but the comment section is hilarious lol, but no. I'd rather read a book.

Tbh I was wondering that myself. And he's 21. I dont want to judge younger kids nowadays but lol. I guess this forums attract all kinds of people per se

Internet is hard. You login and see people saying 'Fapping' is good, 'fapping' is bad. And there's the in between and everything else ugh... Can I just go off grid and live my life with animals?

@Kshantivadin Thanks mate, if you dont mind how old are you? Yeah I'm quite excited already! I may have to consult to you at times or post here when I need help!

I used to follow Brian before because of his experience with Ayahuasca and the group that I've been with promotes him.. until sometime last year. I was new to my Aya journey and initially I thought people would use it for a good cause. I totally agree that his older videos are quite nice and I used to watch his vlog updates.. but I ended up unfollowing him for sometime. I kinda forgot what was the trigger though. I think it's the Icke stuffs. After that, I became wary of who I follow.

Like Leo said, the forums is a place of community. Don't take it very seriously. You already decided what's your path though. May the force be with you!

I have this ebook on my phooone for quite a while. I dont know why I waited for this long to actually read it.

@Kshantivadin I may have to be more conscious about this in the coming days and report here. Based from my recent 1-2 weeks streak; I managed to do alot of declutter of my room. Which is one of the things I don't usually do after a relapse. I want to be on that jive again and accomplished things at a time.

You reminded me quite of my old self where I chose to close everything from within, until the time came that I allowed myself just because of an experience that I was not expecting. Of course when I say this, I allowed myself to go out of my comfort and traveling to unknown territories. I met someone whom I thought we will end up romantically but it ended up platonically. I was hoping to end it up the other way but I learned alot about myself just being on those moment. Whatever people say on this thread, it will still get filtered on your perspective. The only thing I can say why you made this thread is you want someone to talk and validate that your current chosen path is right (e.i you watch Leo's video and argue with yourself that is the only path). Take note of this kind of trap, even Leo has mentioned this many times. Nothing is absolute and not everyone takes the same path. That's just my take anyways. The purpose of this forum is mostly community so I would understand why people do what they do here. We have free will, so do whateva you have guys lol

^ Why not suggest that on the comment section of her video? Maybe she will read it.

@Mesopotamian, based from the feedbacks here it seems like you're still young. It' quite funny each and every person here project what they think is true and right. Most do that anyways lol.. Nevertheless, it felt like you're waaay to advance or the other way around at your age. My only advice is don't totally close yourself from any life experience. As with anything else, we need relationship to grow (relationship with yourself is utmost important). If what matters to you at the moment is living by yourself and cutting connection to the people you know, then do that. It will be a moment of time you will begin to connect with others (family, friends etc). You mentioned you watched alot of Leo's video right? Most people here does, but like what Leo said himself, only take what you need at the moment. While theories are nice to hear from other 'successful people', experiment with life, that's why you're here.

@flowboy Oh thanks for seeing that. I may have to see more about this attachment thing. I saw some people here on the forums on this specific test to see and to fully understand my own.

Has things like running worked for you? I don't want to engage on any kind of sexual act myself as I dont want to form any kind of attachment to it.. I have some leads now though, but I will continue to meditate on this consciously.

What do you mean make a booty call? I think I experience something like this a few weeks ago, but I indeed up the wrong way when I touch diddy I think I transmuted it (?) the first day then I kinda wanting to do it the next day again (?) but didnt work the second time. Today though, I had some very long meditation and I kinda realize now why I am doing it. Unlike few years back, I don't get very weak after doing it, and I still have energy left at times too. Maybe I may have to research more about Tantra. but as of now I need to recuperate.

It's easier said that done dude, everyone is different. I found this video today; very enlightening. Another thing to note too from Leo's video all about awareness.

Nice thread TS! and welcome back? its nice we have threads like this that I didnt know existed before. I relapse a few days ago.. I really have to block unwanted contents at times cause its starting the trigger. Ugh. Its a constant battle, but I am improving though

^ I just remember the castration for the our male cats at home lol... Thanks TS for that video. I myself is contemplating about this for many days now. Im on my nofap journey as well but I relapse 3 days ago, but injaculation. I was trying some stuffs as well, but I didnt lose much energy as oppose to releasing semen. Which to some effect has a big toll for me, like I could really feel the loss of energy from my body feeling weak. I am treading this path because I am finding what is the best path to follow. Of course this could make it easier if I was being intentional with my meditation to like include this thing first hand. But as I realize today, I wasnt even. Just a simple meditation and just do my day like a robot. Another thing with the pandemic is that I am always at home, so the temptations is always there. After that injaculation (no porn, just lying in bed) I had if you call it some intense pressure to do it again but watching porn.. I realize that I have wet dreams for 2 consecutive days now. I guess even with my sao called relapse, it was not fully release that led to wet dreams. Today though, it lessens esp that I have now more aware about it and saw this thread.

@LfcCharlie4 Any update on your adventure so far? Would you still consider it fapping right if you touched yourself but no porn? I try not to watch it but I had some minor relapse, didnt consume energy as I ejaculating. I think I am self sabotaging myself since I know that this excess energy needs to go out in physical activities, but I dont do it. I instead play video games lol

Tacos are junk food too right? I think I get acne breakouts whenever I eat chips in general. Usually my face heals after a few weeks of break out, but I think I have lots of things to tacle when it comes to stress eating uggh.

@LfcCharlie4 Mantak Chia's method you mean? I'm on my 9-10 days now and it felt like I'm burning lol and my first wet dreams this month. Im gonna be consistent since there are so many things I want to accomplish this month! I started yoga and qi-gong last year and it really helped. I may have to rewatch the video I posted as a reminder. Problem for me is the I dont do weight training to expel the excess energy, and thats the whole reason why I relapse after few weeks or so. Hmmm.

I watched most of his videos and this one I can suggest for mens here I try it for almost a month and I can say I truly manage to do alot of things and finish 1 project at that time so fast! I think he doesnt agree with Mantak Chia's book as well as he consider it Retrogade Ejaculation, which is the same thing when you ejaculate, just that it stays on your bladder. After knowing this for a year Ive gone experimenting and seeing what works for me.