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I highly recommend you to do some research on Accutane. There's a lot of dangerous side effects to it. I used Isotretinoin four years ago (same as Accutane). I didn't really read about the side effects or anything, I was just desperate for a "cure", a quick fix without considering potential root causes. Compared to your pictures my case were more "severe". After taking it for 6 months I think most of it cleared up but I get smaller ones like you now again because I haven't resolved my root causes. It's hard for me to see how Isotretinoin really has affected me because I've got other stuff too that affect my body and my body has a lot of different imbalances right now. And I have no idea how Isotretinoin could affect me in the long term. Though some side effects that are quite obvious to me that I currently have: Dry skin, dry eyes. My skin seem to heal slower so basically I've got a lot of acne scars and dark spots from wounds that should've been healed sooner. I get very easily sunburned compared to before. Gut issues (this one I'm not as sure of because there's other root causes too). People react differently. There's a facebook group where you could read about other people's experiences, called - Accutane Survivors, Roaccutane, Isotretinoin Injuries & Side Effects. Sending all of my healing support to you! Patience & acceptance, my friend!

Me and a friend of mine are preparing to follow Andy Cutlers protocol for heavy metal detox. Does anyone here know if it's safe to have hardware implant, like stainless steel or titanium in the body while detoxing? And if there's any good resources where I can read about it?

@Average Investor How do I know when my body is ready for chelation? I just thought that heavy metals are one of many things that needs to be released from me in order for the healing to take place. I've also been thinking that as long as I struggle with a lot of anxiety it's useless for me to try to get rid of the over-growth with for example Rifaximin as I could fall back easily because I haven't resolved my root causes. But maybe I'm wrong about that. Right now I'm mostly focused on taking care of my feelings/myself. I've been seeing a functional nutritionist this past year with antimicrobial herbal protocol for SIBO and H.pylori (Not knowing about any heavy metals). I have a bit more energy now even though I'm still fatigued, not sure if it's the herbs or something else. I haven't seen her in a while because I felt I needed to do more research on my own. Though the biggest barrier here for me is the brain-fog, my cognition is like a sloth. I guess it might be worth seeing her again so that I get in the right direction.

@Leo Gura @Average Investor @Space Thanks for the advice! I have valid reasons for testing for heavy metals as it's possible I'm toxic from tattoo laser removal (if the ink contains heavy metals) and I want to heal from SIBO. This could be essential for my healing. I'll continue my research and look for more answers in the FB group.

@Leo Gura Thank you for your fast answer! I have read that DMSA also can affect other metals such as iron and copper (nickel?), even if it doesn't seem to affect those in the same amount as heavy metals, so I got worried it would start to corrode the hardware and maybe even cause an "overdose" of iron in the bloodstream? But that should not be a concern? Also, why is it necessary to do urine tests when a lot of heavy metals cannot be measured in the urine? If I know I have heavy metals in the body, is it a bad idea to detox without the use of urine tests, until I don't feel any negative side-effects from the detox anymore?

I've always thought that I'm a problem that needs to be fixed. When I've applied any routine or technique I've been thinking that "when I'm done with this I'll be okay, I'll be happy". Only focusing on that thing until it's done, not allowing me to do what I feel like during that time. Even trying to let go of my should's, I usually fall into thinking that I should let go of it. At the same time I forget that there's nothing wrong with moralizing. It's okay for me to be bad, punish myself and not progressing. Realized that I probably shouldn't treat this -letting go of should statements- as a project to be finished, just allow myself to moralize whenever I want and let go of my moralizing when I realize spontaneously how much I hurt myself. I think this might block me from healing my fatigue as I think this stress is one of the things that caused a burnout. I am in need of self love and lightheartedness to myself. Doing things that I feel like doing because it makes me happy. How do I realize that I am good enough just as I am, that I am not a problem that needs to be fixed? How do you show kindness towards yourself? Easy to read things about self-acceptance but it seems like you have to improve a lot to even be able to really see it. Just doing nothing and thinking that I am good enough does nothing (in regards to feeling good in my body) I am happy to receive any kind of advice (though I would be happy to read suggestions that do not require a lot of mental energy to do, as I experience severe mental fatigue)

I am experiencing severe mental fatigue and headaches every day. Writing this is giving so much headache, but I feel so helpless by not getting the help that I need or knowing what to do or how to approach this feeling of complete powerlessness. I've been diagnosed by a doctor with burnout but I don't feel like they've evaluated me enough or taken me seriously, I'm currently seeking to get better help from other professionals. Before these symptoms started to appear I had very high expectations on myself about personal development and never allowed myself to rest, so I'm not surprised if that's the reason behind all this. Though I want to be sure it's not something else. I have very limited physical energy. I barely have the energy to go out for short walks in the forest, but I try to do it everyday without pushing myself. My mental fatigue is so severe. Using computer or phone is giving me headache within 2 min. I have severe sound and light sensitivity, my head aches when I'm exposed to it. I'm not even able to talk to my roommate without headache. I'm not able to think clearly. Reading is giving me headache so I'm only able to read smaller sentences without resting my head inbetween. My anxiety is sky-high, I'm struggling to sleep (though I get the sleep that I need but I'm easily woken up and it's hard sleep again). I also think that I'm getting more depressed, I've had suicidal thoughts for a long time and I don't really see the meaning with staying alive and I've been waking up every morning for the past year or so being completely anxious over the fact that I'm alive, while experiencing reality as "unreal". Also, I have IBS. I know it's playing some role in this also. Right now I'm only eating foods that feel good for my stomach, but I still feel like something is off and never quite right. I've had IBS for maybe 5 years or more. The symptoms of fatigue started last summer. I'm meditating everyday. Also as I have a tendency to moralize a lot, so right now I'm focusing on being aware of that tendency. Taking cold showers and running have given me some energy/clarity of mind but I've let those practices go as I put too much on myself. I'm trying to let go of as much pressure on me as possible while still giving the body what it needs. Anyone here with the knowledge/experience of what would be the best to do in this situation with these symptoms? Any practices or treatments that is good to release stagnant energy in the body? Or just some loving support? ... Thank you for your kindness

@mandyjw I rarely eat processed meat. I went to an eye doctor not long ago. The last months I've been practicing my eye sight by reading blurry for ten minutes, then resting using my glasses/contact lenses for 20 min and so on. Though I am getting the same kind of headache when I have my glasses/contact lenses on. But this headache started to happen more often & daily after I started practicing my eyesight, so I will take a break from it for a while and see if it affects me somehow. I also get the headache when I have to think "too hard", when I listen to music, when I listen to someone talking and even when I talk. So it's not only the visual. I have a very hard time relaxing during meditation as I'm being aware of my breath. Even when I end the meditation I'm tense.. I switched to being aware of tensions in my body during meditation when I read what you said, still tense but it's easier to relax. I've also explored the question "What is the most loving thing to do now"? I feel like it gives me good guidence when not knowing what to do. @Michael569 I will send you a message.

I am!

When I've been doing intense yogic breath I've first filled my belly and then filled my chest, naturally for me the belly sinks in as soon as I breathe into the chest. Not really sure if I'm breathing into the chest in the right way. And on the outbreath I've just relaxed and therefore the outbreath is shorter than the inbreath. Maybe this affects my breathing negatively. Haven't watched the videos yet though, thank you.

I've been trying out different kinds of breathwork for maybe 2 years. Mostly shamanic breathing and strong yogic breath/wim hof. I've also done breathwork in groups with people a few times. When I do it alone, most of the time, I don't feel any effects at all and I don't feel that I get any "results" from it afterwards. Except for maybe a few times where it just clicked for some reason. With results I mean, at least becoming calmer and more relaxed in the body during the day compared to the levels of anxiety that I usually feel. When I've done it with a group of people it always works, usually I've been crying for almost the whole session as I've released a lot of emotions. Doing a slower full body breathing works great for me, but the problem is with the more intense and circular breathing techniques. I've tried to breathe in different ways, I've tried to relax, trying to be softer and finally the last month or so I've just tried to breathe despite feeling as if I'm breathing in the "wrong" way, just going with it. At first I thought that I have a hard time relaxing, which is true, but I can also see that I'm too much in my thoughts, thinking of how I Should breathe and being super critical. I'm an extreme perfectionist and I'm pushing myself too much. I've tried to just let it be and be mindful, but I wonder for how long I should keep on practicing with no results? Maybe I should just keep on and surrender to the anxiety of No results. I can also see that when I've done it in a group of people it's been easier to find a rythm and to enter a flow. Somehow in a group it's easier to surrender and trust. I've had a strong urge to take a break from it and just focus on slower breathing techniques and yoga, thinking that maybe that's what my body needs. But I can see that there is a lot of experienced breathers in here and I would like to see if someone can enlighten me with some breath-wisdom or share your own breathwork journey. Maybe a new perspective can support the shift in my journey. Thank you.

Thank you. Yeah I'm having all that in mind. The fatigue is most likely because I've been pushing myself too hard for a long period.

:') Do you know someone good? Feels like it would be better for me to meet someone physically though.

Hi! I struggle with a lot of anxiety daily, fatigue, brainfog and just generally very unstable during the day for a long time now. I'm just longing for a release. To feel more grounded, peaceful, more energy in general and the ability to think clearly. I don't really know how I can become conscious of what I need to face in this situation. But yes, the energy is stuck and this has happened in all my practices lately, not only breathwork, and I always tend to keep on doing one practice without any positive progress thinking that I'm a failure if I move on to something that actually feels good and works better (in this case slower breathing or yoga). I've thought that I'm just doing the practice wrong and I need to keep on for months until I figure it out. I feel like it's hard to become conscious of what I need when something doesn't work for me, I've only listened to what works for other people or what they need, thinking that I work in the same way as them and that I should live up to it. Maybe it's necessary to listen more to what one individually need in spiritual practice? And that maybe what I need is something I resist or fear doing. Thank you, your words were helpful!