uronlydreaming

Well, you believe it. That's nice. And your post count, it's indicative of how much chatter there's been and can be measured against what you've come to understand. At the last exchange, it was just someone believing something and not offering anything up for sacrifice so the new could enter.

It's just a quote. What makes you think you understand it?

13,874 posts and this is your understanding? It looks as if you are just wandering around aimlessly. In your thinking, you have made a distinction between material needs and spirituality. Tending to non imaginary physical needs is spiritual. What ought to be of concern to you is whether or not you are identified. I would bet almost anything right now, that you are the words on the screen.

@Barbara I've been the target of many weak people who thought pleasing me would get me to love them. But, with wrong imagination as my accomplice, I am incapable of loving anybody, because love is a matter of understanding. How can I love you if I don't understand you. Sometimes, understanding someone means leaving them alone even if they would accept your advances... because they might also be weak and unable to say no. But if they did not have their feature (defect), they would understand that you are suffering from your feature and they wouldn't let you impale yourself on the barbed wire that surrounds their heart. If you were to play your people pleasing wares on me, for example, there's a chance I would accept, and use you up as completely as possible. And, for quite some time, you might even feel good about it... validated to the core. But when the fix wore off, you would have to do it all over again. And after a while, it wouldn't have the same effect and you'd have to double your efforts to get off on it. And I might go for that because the same old same old might wear thin and leave me bored and I'd need you to double down on whatever it is... or else I'd have to go look for it somewhere else. And I would. Inevitably, you'd end up going through the stages of grief: bargaining, anger, acceptance, grief.. You'd end up sad and depressed because you wouldn't understand what happened, what went wrong, and so you wouldn't get a handle on it; and, until you could find another target, you'd have to blame some innocent person, place or thing. Sleep is wicked. But if you embrace your helplessness, your lack of self control, you can begin to be free... and even the slightest taste of freedom develops a taste for more.

Don't do it without a teacher. Certainly, you can try but im confident it will yield no useful results. There's plenty of material for you to study as you are right now.