PureRogueQ

After ego death you don't really name label what you are, you know were well what you are, it is ego job to look for labels of what it is , is not trough experience. Eyes see, if you will lose them you will not see. Don't underestimate understanding, it is reason why you got where you are. Sure , it is all identification of some sort, just trying to figure out how it works.

Interesting, because after ego death your I becomes way larger then before, if anything I is encompassing whole experience , pushing all other experiences aside , but it is for sure not the same I that you had before, which makes me question what is real cause. Maybe word beingness is more appropriate, but it would be not quite correct too.

Peace is like non movement, I mean it is irrelevant as your ego will find problems with either one, peace or happiness, they are just feelings.

can you make them disappear , or you consider verifying believing your experience of thoughts?

Notice that you notice information that feeds your idea of why there is no free will, your organism is indeed intelligent and survival has nothing to do with it , well it can, but you might as well have no survival instincts, you are assume that experienced is pointer to no free will, when it is just experienced.

You will never be infinity in this life, this life is not infinity, it is not source , just hair of the source, you can ofc delude yourself to believe that you are something bigger then you are.

Notice how you notice and talk bullshit of what you can notice. If you really believe in no free will then all of your comments are just nonsense. Thoughts are minuscule part of your experience or huge part of it depending on how you decide to experience.

And how do you know it, that it is what it wants?

And why are you dreaming this up , your comment sound just as silly as your logic. LOGIC!!!

don't worry you will die like rest of us, if you are still in this world you are one of us, it does not even matter if you were born or not, stop confusing your self with something that is out of your comprehension.

he is just confused.

interesting I have had many states where I had no questions left, didn't work out. I mean I could just make it possible right now. No questions!!!

is no questions left some indicator ?

I never said that Enlightenment is everything, on contrary , I think it is nothing special and it being called highest truth is silly considering how much in incomplete information you can hear from them, not wrong just incomplete , like finding one part of the car and saying it is a car, when you have just a part of it. Still I do consider it important part in its own right way.

You are smarter that everyone else here! The asking wrong questions, instead of trying to prove free will they trying to prove that there are no free will and that them proving or not proving something is already predetermined anyway. Idk what someone can acquire from debating this and even worse if he actually believes in it. There can be many theories of how free will is manifested, you have not actually questioned anything, you just see one thing and think you are done.

What is important is that you are k with yourself, no matter how lost you are , such things as confidence and so on that you want to rub on others are not important.

My point was that you have mind after Enlightenment , I don't really care what else he said. I doubt that 5-MeO-DMT gives you 60 minutes of Enlightenment, would need someone who tried it before to confirm.

All I have really to say on this topic.

Tomorrow you will feel better and think that you can and should finish it, it is not you who do not want to finish it, it is just your bad mood. Now to less serious part, just talking purely rationally... you will regret not finishing, ofc there are people who find good spots even drooping out, but world don't tell you stories about other 99% of people who do and are stuck in horrible jobs , with low wages. Now , choice is yours.

Well relax, your mind is just looking for reasons to people actions and trust me, if you will get caught in it , you will look for smallest details in people face expressions, movements and make whole story out of it , which will highly vary from how you feel at the moment , your already ruminating beliefs and will be wrong 90 % of time. Spread your wing and walk like a free man.

I wouldn't say you have aversions/cravings, you still have your functions, without them you would not be able to function, you know you have to take a shit, if not you would shit yourself and if you are being given option on whatever you want to be hit with hammer on your head or not , you clearly know which is right choice. Well whatever it is change of state of consciousness is debatable, also depends on how we classify it. There is reason why you have such phrases as you are already Enlightened, or it is already in your experience because it is believed to be underlying state of your consciousness, ego and all other altered states go over it, that is also reason why some teachings suggest looking for this true self in your experience trough various techniques. What is interesting is what exactly is underlying cause of such changes to arise, it is very unclear, because if you could find cause, it would be possible to collapse it at the starting point. Well you are human, your mind still operates, so ofc you will have activity, people completely misunderstand, well thanks to Gurus contradicting them self and trying to point to different things with same words.

Well there is one thing you missed, it does not matter if you are in hell or heaven(haven), it is all layers and layers of lies upon lies, nothing of this is true, or what you are, Being in hell , or heaven(haven) makes no difference. All the thinking all the emotions you associate with yourself is just experience, you could shift in thousand different behaviours in just one day, so which one of them would be you

it's the loss of that which believed it needed to find or achieve something, whatever it is achievement or not , or how this state operates , or even if it is something that can't be actually achieved is another question, time will prove me wrong or right.

Well we have different understanding of what ego is, I did not say it is ultimate be it all, it is just that, ego death, you are still human, you still have your body and its memory, although if I would have to compare it is there , on one of top of states I have accessed and non-dual do not come even close. I have had such experiences trough meditation, I do not lump real time states with meditation experiences, you forget what you are when you sleep too.

There is actually easy way to see difference between non-dual states and real ego death, in real ego death ego is gone, in non dual states your ego is there , but you are not attached to it, it is like watching movie, but there are many of such states.