Vibroverse

Yeah, it is like the idea of "it is possible, but is it relevant" kinda thing that bashar talks about, i guess.

Logic might also be an illusion, in a sense, and language might also be an illusion, etc, in a sense.

I can find myself as a cat in an alternate timeline anytime soon, haha. As a cat that has forgotten that it has ever been a human, and remembering itself, in the cat mode of remembering, as has always been a cat. I think this frickin consciousness that i am, that existence is, darn infinite. And i will probably not experience what i said, but again, who knows what is possible or not, and shit like that.

Instead of solipsism, let's call it zupdidupdiism, and then i will agree.

I appreciate it, man, your words are encouraging and wise, and hopefully true for me, haha. I feel like there is something that i'm missing, like some tiny thing that i'm missing, and when i figure it out, so to speak, i will be like "c'mon, omggggg, you gotta be kidding me" about the brialliance and magnificance of it, if you know what i mean. I mean, like sadhguru saying that he just sat and cry for like a week straight, i feel like i might just sit and laugh my ass off like for a week straight. And i feel like it has something to do with me letting go of my logical and rational mind, so to speak, and finally realizing that it is all actually just based on the intuitive mind, so to speak. I mean, realizing that reality is like a fractal within a fractal within a fractal, like a hologram within a hologram within a hologram, so to speak, that generates itself, or something like that. But, ah, i agree with you that some balance between the inner and the outer, experientially speaking, is needed. Hard to put into words what i'm trying to say, and btw, yesterday i think i had some conversation with god, or something like that, and it said things like "oh my dear, your problems and the solutions of your problems are just frickin child's play for me, but you just need to make your alignment and resonance with me your priority for me to able to show you the way that will delight you". Mhm, i think i translated that resonance field into those words in my mind, in a sense, and that it has some truth to it, i guess, when i look at it from the level of consciousness that i'm in, yet, again, i understand that it is pretty darn important for me to search for that inner resistance, even though i'm still confused about how exactly, in some regards, haha.

Yeah, the thing is i feel pretty pissed off about where i am, and feeling like source has forsaken me, in some sense. And i know that i am one with source, so it cannot really forsake me, but it feels like even source is not able to help me, for it might be even beyond source. And i understand that it is important for me to genuinely be aware of where i am without getting lost in it, and meditation and such practices seem to help me in that, like being involved with some sort of a process that is a combination of shadow work and meditation, in a sense. And i've studied the works of teachers like abraham and bashar, and such ideas basically, but, still, i feel like i am getting something wrong, or that their teaching does not help me. Then i lean more towards more nonduality teachers, and many modes of teachers, philosophers and so forth, but i still feel like something is missing. Then i feel like maybe i'm truly hopeless and in despair, and lost in feelings of guilt, anger, regret, confusion, and so forth, and that i might be just truly frickin stuck where i am. Sometimes trying to appear to be wiser than i actually am, perhaps, in an attempt to create more wellbeing for myself, or something like that, and i feel fake, in a sense, while i'm doing that. Modes of guilt, powerlessness, resistance and stress have become like my usual, in a sense, and i don't actually wanna get lost in modes of anger also, because i feel like, i don't know. I mean, i don't wanna feel like i need to be aware of every moment of mine, so to speak, because it just makes me feel frickin exhausted. I just want to allow myself to relax and let the stream of life, or whatever it is, to carry me. But then doubt and confusion, and worry, and so forth dawns on me, making me feel like, and so forth and so forth. Like, i've been taking some ssris for a while, and thoughts of doubt come about that, and also thoughts of doubt and worry about the environment where i live come, and so forth, and it's like a never ending cycle, in a sense. I mean, thoughts like "a spiritual being like you shouldn't take those pills", or thoughts like "you might be just stuck in where you are", and shit like that. And it makes me pissed off, really, because at one level of mine, i seem to understand that it all really is about my vibration and resonance, and shit like that, even when i'm in a state of complanining and throwing a tantrum, so to speak. I mean, yeah, i am all that is, and i can even say that reality is absolutely solipsistic at its deepest level, in the sense that there is only one infinite awareness, and we are all modes of that one infinite awareness. And, yes, we are all vibration and resonance, and shit like that. And i understand that even me feeling hopeless and stuck, and shit like that, might be just my current state of vibration, and i may not be really hopeless and stuck. But i think there is real value in accepting where i am vibrationally, without getting too lost in my mind, because otherwise my mind tends to make things even worse, and starts making me starts to think about darker and darker shit, and that's the tripping point of shadow work, i guess. And so, i believe that shadow work, or awareness of where you are, is very frickin important, but you need to do it in some sort of a meditative state.

Dude, the problem is that i am too aware that we are creating every moment with our thoughts, it is just that there are some questions of mine and problems of mine that make me feel like us creating every moment is not gonna help. I agree with this guy, and most of the videos that you shared, but it is just that, as i said, there are some things that trip me up in my life so frickin much that i feel like even us being creator, even us being god, cannot help, in a sense. That's the despair that i'm experiencing. And you don't need to feel defensive like "take it or leave it" anytime someone responds to you. Of course people want to feel empowered and know that they are not actually desparate and shit like that. Noone comes and says that they have doubts about it because they want to annoy you.

Yeah, i think you and i are pretty like minded in our way of thinking, and i appreciate that. But regarding some subjects in my life, i feel like i'm pretty hopeless, and that, like, my vibe might be too low, in a sense, to just relax and be, you know. Something in me says "you need to be more action oriented", and another thing in me says "you don't need to be action oriented at all, just relax and we will carry you and guide you" hahah. Surely the second one sounds much better and sexier, surely, but i feel like my situation is like too fucked up that i need to change something actionwise, that just relaxing and trusting, so to speak, will not help me. But the thing is, i have no idea about wtf to do regarding those tripping points of mine, both on the theoretical and practical levels 😂

I've been into all this law of attraction stuff like for a pretty long time, and i believe that there is definitely some truth to ideas like that, to ideas like resonance and frequencies, and shit like that, but honestly i don't know how it will help me some of the problems and questions that i'm going through. I've been going through some pretty wild shit that makes me feel like i'm totally hopeless and desparate regarding my desires about those things. I cannot see how law of attraction etc can help me regarding those issues and "contrasts" that i'm going through. Maybe it is by relaxing and becoming more receptive to the frequency and mind of source, or something like that, and receive ideas and thoughts that guide me to my resolutions, and shit like that, i don't know. I'm confused on regarding i need to take action, and if yes, what action and how, and so on and so on and so on, grrrr.

Yeah, when i listen to teachers like abraham etc who are all about such ideas, what they say pretty much makes sense to me. And sometimes i get into some sort of a channeling state also, and yeah, i begin to realize that i might be torturing myself for no reason, in a sense. Really, it is pretty obvious to me that reality is some sort of a reflection of my vibration, or whatever you call it, and calling reality some sort of a resonance field of consciousness, or something like that, and seeing our feelings as some sort of a guidance etc, it all makes sense to me. However, there are still some points which i cannot wrap my mind around yet, and it might be because i've lowered my frequency for a while getting lost in this and that, and this and that. Still having some points in my life, and in that theoretical model, so to speak, that i cannot find alignment and resolution with yet.

Meh.

I'm pretty much into that woo woo stuff of everything being vibrational, or shit like that. I followed teachers like bashar and abraham pretty much, and i think they have some profound understanding going on, even though i'm still not clear regarding some points. I mean, i love the idea of reality being like a radio, or musical symphony, with its frequency and so forth. And i also find great value in the idea of law of resonance, and the importance of emotional awareness, and shit like that. But is reality really something akin to a radio system or musical symphony, or is it like just a metaphor that can be useful.

Let the guy dream what he dreams, and you dream what you dream.

Trust is finding a way of "tricking" yourself into inner stillness and alignment.

I guess, you can say he's more like a metamodernist, in line, to some extent, with ken wilber, and maybe ervin laszlo, etc, if you wanna identify where he is on that scale, so to speak.

I think it is like universe is giving you, or you giving yourself at some unconscious level, the ingredients, and then it is up to you to bake the cake and eat it.

He woke up so deep that he just disappeared into nothingness, like in the end of lucy, haha.

We might have different definitions about what submission means, perhaps.

Well, sometimes you want to resist, and then life beats you up a little bit, and then you just need to turn back to submission, haha.

Yeah, of course, from the level of god, you are all knowing, so you are a master of basketball, haha. You know everything because you are knowledge itself, you can tune to any version of yourself amongst your infinite possible versions, so to speak. That's what i believe, that you are some sort of a radio receiver that can access endless channels, to the degree that they are meaningful for you, if you know what i mean. And, yeah, i also believe that your higher self, or inner being, so to speak, is already aware of all the dreams that you wanna have, and all the experiences that you wanna have, and guiding you to those experiences through your emotions, intuitions and what you call "reason", and the more you surrender to the stillness, with awareness of where you are, the more you are in alignment.

Yeah, i'm aware of the work of most of those guys, including that lady, to some extent. And yeah, as i said, i find value in that. I'm a sufi sometimes, and a vedantin sometimes, and a new ager sometimes, in a sense, haha. To me, they are different reflections of myself, in the form of appearing space and time, so to speak, and so i find value in each of them from time to time, depending on what i need in the moment, you see. So, i still have my worries and doubts, and things i work on, and things i need to work on, because i am still in this human form, i don't need to behave like i have found all the answers etc.

You guys need to relax, there is value in all of that. That's why sometimes i talk like a hardcore nondualist, sometimes like a new agey type, someone like a philosopher who is critical of all of that, and so on. There's value and a kernel of truth in all of that if you can be wise enough and aware enough to see. You are functioning at the "it is this or that" mentally, most of you, and that makes you rigid and unable to move through the maneuvers. Being so rigid about your socalled truths make you unable to surf with the flow, and then you become addicted to a linguistic and mental frame, like the unaware normies.

An improvement in feeling might be a byproduct of awareness, but don't get so lost in trying to improve your feeling or things like that. Simply let yourself turn back to inner stillness, to the nondoership. And it is true that reality is like a reflection that reflects your state of consciousness, or your vibrational frequency to you, and in that sense reality is totally empty and meaningless. But, if you are in a state of fear or discomfort, don't try to rationalize your way, or even mysticize your way, out of that. Be genuine within yourself, accept how you are feeling, accept that you are feeling anxious or whatever. Perhaps you might say that feeling and intuition, or to say it better, stillness or peace, might be seen as the ground from which reasoning and thinking emanates, so to speak. Don't get so lost in philosophies and rational arguments, and i'm saying this to you as some sort of a philosopher myself, haha. Allow yourself to slowly quiet your mind and let your level of awareness increase. It is true that reality is infinite possibilities and you are that which is the translogical, however it is true that you need to feel your way here, in a sense. I mean, you can say that feeling is subtler than thinking, and by feeling you can touch deeper levels of the psyche and understanding, however when you become too feeling or intuition oriented, you again might be, without knowing, furthering yourself from you, if you know what i mean. I mean, this world is a dream of the one, or you might say that this world is the reflection of the one to itself, and you can see your feeling and subtle intuitions as some sort of a navigational system from your infinite self, and that self of yours is absolutely nonresistant, so it is kinda impossible for you to be on that level while you're in your physical form. But, you can take the bounce, or the pass, in a sense, from your infinite inner intelligence, and perceive it in a way that makes more sense to you, and in that process it is kinda like you perceiving the noumenal on an intuitive level, as you might agree, but translating and perceiving it, in a sense, as a form, or as a process, in a sense, that is meaningful and increasingly more satisfying for you.

I think, don't mind if free will is real or not, or such socalled philosophical questions, but just do your meditative shadow work, just allow yourself to be the silent awareness and just relax into your pain, so to speak. And don't see yourself as the controller of your body and mind, in that sense, but simply do the inner vibrational work, so to speak, and let the life force, as like a white hole, suck you in.

This question of whether free will exists or not is not something we can prove or disprove, in my opinion, because no matter which arguments you come with, i can come with a counterargument by tweaking some aspect of your thinking, i hope you are seeing that. There is always a possibility that even these thoughts of yours and you writing these here are a part of the preprogram, you can never disprove that, and check the antinomies of kant, they are mostly about this idea. Kinda like the idea of last thursdayism, you know, no matter which arguments i produce against it, you can say that even those arguments have been created last thursday, and things like that, you see. So, i think discovering whether there is free will or not, whether i am the writer of these words or just writing happening, and such ideas, i think it is about a realization that is transrational, like a direct experience that transcends language and reason, in a sense. So, for now, whether we like it or not, we are having the experience of having some sort of a free will, whether it is really real or not, and thoughts going in the mind that questions whether it is really real or not.