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@Emerald Do you think there is a way for someone to realize that masculine and feminine are more than purely social constructs without using psychedelics? I have many friends who think masc and fem are only social constructs and I've been at a loss of words trying to explain to them that such a thing is not the case.

Yes in messages where Claude has to analyze a lot of data at once the message limit can be reached rather quickly. I import my journals for Claude to analyze which contains more than 100,000 words, this is pretty heavy so I can only do so much before the message limit is reached.

Vivek is Trump's minion.

@Leo Gura no financial gain? Really? Feel like you could sell a lot of copies depending how you brand Leo

@Leo Gura approximately when will the course be released?

what everyone else is saying about exercise is extremely accurate. It is the #1 most important habit for keeping the depression away. I am not diagnosed but bipolar is common within my family and I usually go through at least one depressive spell and one hypomanic episode per year. I have gotten very good at fighting the depression, ever since I found my life purpose and began the process of actualizing it along with working out 3-5x a week I pretty much never get depressed anymore, whereas before I would become suicidally depressed in my episodes when I felt no purpose in life, was not working out, and had bad routines and habits. I would be curious to know what your hypomanias are like? These are the episodes that have the potential to be harmful if you aren't aware what can trigger it and when it is coming on.

@VictorB02 Your points sound like they are coming STRAIGHT from some conservative media outlet. There's hardly any depth to anything you are saying. All of this is highly nation-centric which is a very limited perspective. I'm hearing the narrative that what you're saying is about me, my country, my nation, my people...but at the end of the day, it's not about the US, it's about the whole entire world. As the leading military power, the US has a duty to maintain peace on this Earth...it would be an abomination to not help Ukraine in this situation, who Russia wants to usurp literally just because they don't like the fact that Ukraine has become more westernized (more like the US) and has swayed from Russia's collective values. It would be extremely concerning if we simply just allowed Russia to annex Ukraine. The illegal migrant issue as well as the homeless and homeless veteran issue is a very complex and nuanced topic. Yes, all these illegal migrants and the perks they get do get mess with the balance and make life more difficult for a lot of people in the US but they come here in the first place to escape actual "nightmares of poverty"...I find it absolutely atrocious that you called the PNW a nightmare and war zone...dude I have lived there my whole life and if you call that a nightmare then you better call Mexico the absolute darkest depths of fucking hell. What we should be doing is funding and setting up more projects in Central America to help develop them so these countries are no longer shitholes that people need to flee from. I would gladly pay 2% of my income to these projects if they were set up correctly...but of course conservatives would lose their fucking minds if this happened and call it an infringement on their freedom and liberty and continue to get angry as hell when illegal migrants enter their country without ever fucking acknowledging why they came here in the first place.

@The Mystical Man If thousands of people lives are changed for the better because of Leo's teachings and 2 people commit suicide, should he take all his videos down?

This thread made me brain dead

You are right about this. I have thought about this a lot and ultimately listened to my heart when it came to the decision. The two girls that I have met are definitely not completely turquoise, but I would say they are solidly Tier 2. I go to a university with 23,000 students. 0.01% of 23,000 is 23. That would leave 11 or 12 of them being female. And there are probably less than that because college aged kids are usually younger than a fully developed human. But I don't see why it would be so shocking to meet a couple girls out of the maybe 4 or 5 or more that are solidly Tier 2 at the school. I met one of them at an outdoor yoga class, which is a place they have a good chance to be.

Why is it so hard to believe?

It's not for the most part. The separation is due to a variety of reasons.

After 22 years of life and over 3 years of spiritual work, I have finally made clear my Life Purpose: Raising Humanity’s Consciousness Through Storytelling. From a young age I have always had a knack for storytelling, as I have always been one to daydream in class and imagine countless fascinating fictional scenarios. When I was 5 years old I would create little pocket books with drawings and a caption at the bottom of page that told a story as you flipped through the pages. In elementary school I won multiple awards for stories I had written…my mom told me I could be a great writer one day and that idea has never left me. I wrote some more fiction in high school (never showed anybody, it’s cringe lol), and in this past year I have written a couple short stories that have received positive praise from the people I have shown it to, one of which was a creative writing major herself. I have also from a young age filmed random skits with my friends and even worked on a couple higher production level short films with one of my friends who is studying film. And through all of this, whichever medium it may be, I am just absolutely in love with the storytelling aspect. I want to create deeply moving, consciousness tickling work that makes the reader/viewer’s jaw drop, make them think about reality in a radically different way, and/or leave them inspired to improve their lives and raise their consciousness. Some movies that gave me these feelings are: Interstellar, Annihilation, Arrival, Blade Runner 2049 Some books that left me these feelings are: Beyond Azara by Martin Ball, The Solandarian Game by Martin Ball, Beneath a Scarlett Sky by Mark Sullivan, Way of the Peaceful Warrior by Dan Millman…and I’m sure there’s more I can’t remember right now. Phase 1 of the actualization of this Life Purpose is starting a new Youtube Channel. I have already created a Youtube channel before (search "The Curious Minds") and I had solid success, amassing over 35,000 subscribers and making more than $10,000 total on that project in a 2.5 year span…so I know the ins and outs of Youtube, how the algorithm works, how to keep the viewer engaged, how to build a community. I am going to take it next level with the content I am going to create. Not just next level…but world class. Given that I already have multiple years of experience creating topic, I have confidence I can reach world class level within 1-2 years of starting this project. I’ve saved several thousand dollars already so that I can purchase high quality computer, camera, microphone, etc. I am going to weave in storytelling into my videos…short skits that are about whatever topics the video is on. For example I have an idea for a video, with tentative title “Radical Honesty - How to Transform Your Life by Telling the Truth.” The video would start with a 4 or 5 minute skit depicting how a guy puts himself into a mental prison with the lies he tells…then when the skit reaches a stopping point I would come onto the screen in a sit-down setting and talk about the concept of Radical Honesty for several more minutes…and then then story would continue again, and then at a stopping point I would talk about Radical Honesty some more. I envision each video being somewhere between 20 and 40 minutes, maybe some even up to an hour…I keep having the deep feeling of trust that If I grind and put in the work, that this channel will grow a big and loyal following. It’s not just the channel either…it’s a whole ass business. I have spent probably over 100 hours now researching one-person business models and I think I am pretty clear now on how I am going to pull this off. I am going to funnel my audience to my community online, where I will have my own website, which will contain my newsletter…as well as 1-on-1 coaching…another thing on the coaching part…I have gained some experience with therapy skills and life coaching in the past year or so (I am a psychology major) and I have loved it. So if I could pull this off…make my creative content online and also have some coaching clients on the side…fuck that would be the dream come true. Eventually I want to sell other products on my website too, I already have dozens of ideas for products that I won’t say because I don’t want anyone to steal the idea…but I will say one of them could be a Self-Actualizaton journal that is filled with prompts and practices to help one find meaning in life and move one closer towards discovering/carrying out their Life Purpose. But yeah, that is the general plan outline for Phase 1. I imagine that building this business will take up most of my waking hours for the next couple years, so I need to get ready to grind and make sure I am in peak mental fitness each and every day. As soon as I am able, my plan is to buy a plot of land with a couple friends in relative close proximity to a national park (my two friends and I have “sworn” that we will do this) and build 6-10 yurts on the land and rent out on AirBnb. If this plan goes well, these two business projects will make me a very well off person financially and give me immense freedom in life. Once I am financially free is when Phase 2 begins (I am 22 right now and realistically I think this could happen before I am 30). Phase 2 is when I dive deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep into the spiritual work, hell maybe even Leo level deep…and then with my newfound level of consciousness and my mastery in the art of storytelling I will be able to tell the most profound stories humanity has ever heard…I don’t even know if that many people would read them because the level of consciousness of humanity is so low, but I wouldn’t even care because I woud be financially free and not trying to change my stories to make a buck. Also sidenote I have been writing streams of consciousness multiple times weekly on a single document for over 5 years and this document contains several hundreds of thousands of words. Near the end of my life I plan to release the entire writings from that document that contain my most wicked, fucked up thoughts that people would hate me for but also contain the thoughts that make me a vehicle of love for humanity and I will title it something like “The Raw Human” But anyways that is the outline for my LP. The vision has been getting clearer and clearer for some time, and now it is finally crystal clear now that a busy ass quarter of college (don’t even really know why i am in college anymore lol but I’m about to graduate this year so finishing it out) is over and now that I have separated from my gf who took up a lot of my time, giving me clarity of mind to think about my next step in life (thank god), Much love everyone, just wanted to share. See you at the top! Feedback is appreciated, as well as potential blindspots that people might be able to point out.

I have also learned there a lot of Green women who talk Turquoise but are really just dogmatic new-age spiritualists. Be aware of this trap.

Interesting perspective. You might be right on this. I just dumped a Green/Yellow woman...sometimes I wonder if I will ever find anyone better. I have met a couple solidly Tier 2 women (with a good amount of Turquoise) over the past couple years and I got to say I want to have the attitude where I won't settle for anything less than someone like them. In both cases when I met these women they were already in a relationship and/or I was in one too, but I still remain friends with one of them and she is dating a yoga guy who is like 10 years older than her. But damn...love talking with these women, even if it is just sexually neutral friendly conversations. The Tier 2 women are out there, but yeah they rare as fuck.

@Pharion Glad to hear from you. Wow, it does sound like we have a lot of similarities with our creative minds. And good job on almost finishing your first novel! What is it about? Yeah, that was my main concern about going straight into writing novels...it is so hard to make a living off it. Most people don't realize how extraordinarily difficult it is to make it as an author. Making it as an author has got to be one of the lowest success rates of any other professional endeavor. The thing with my work is that I want to be able to write completely freely and not care if my work makes it to the New York Times Bestseller list or not. Two books that moved me extremely deeply (mentioned in original post) were Beyond Azara and The Solandarian Game by Martin Ball. I doubt those books have even sold 2,000 copies, and the everyday person would not understand its spiritual themes at all. But those books are fucking masterpieces, and I want to create work like that. I don't want to change my ideas and cater to the masses just so I can survive, which is why I believe this business is necessary for me to create first.

@axiom Thank you for your response, Axiom. Your words do ground me a bit. It has been a theme in my life that I believe I can do too much in a too short period of time and then I get disappointed that I don't end up doing all the things I had planned. I don't want that theme to occur in my LP. I will contemplate more and listen to my intuition on what the heart feeling is, do I want to jump straight into storytelling? Or is this self-help/spiritual business (that does weave in storytelling heavily) a better way to go?...I've had success online in the past, really enjoyed doing it and was fulfilled by it, and know that I can be much higher quality than I was before...my initial feeling tells me this route will lead me to more freedom later on. The way I see it is that even if I don't start taking writing novels seriously until I am 35, I'll still have 40-50+ years to go all in on the craft. I don't view my current business plan as a type of fulfillment-avoidance...the prospect of jumping into it deeply excites me, but you're right in that it has a potential to become a prison that makes it hard to escape from. Don't want to get trapped. Will contemplate this more. As for the glamping site project, I don't view that as the means to become wealthy...perhaps I should have specified that more in my original post. I'm not trying to build an AirBnb empire here. I would expect to make far more money from the business. Like you said, that project is something I see as paying for the bulk of my living expenses. I live a fairly frugal lifestyle now and I don't expect that to really change all that much as I accumulate more $...I view it as the more money I make, the more money I can save and/or invest in my projects. I don't think it is unrealistic to expect that I would be occupied with glamping site maintenance (given that there are a couple other friends on the project as well) for about 8-10 hours per week, leaving lots and lots of time to work on the business. I am also glad you brought up other life events that would effect my ability to work on these projects. I know I definitely do not want kids until I am at least 35 or 40, and there's quite a good chance I decide to never have kids. But romantic relationships will be a factor along the path the entire time, as for the time being I see myself being single for awhile, but it is very likely the desire to have a partner there will come into play, which could change things. Lots to think about! Thank you for your thoughts Axiom

@Leo Gura Glad to hear from you Leo. Thank you My highest priority is being of service to humanity and helping people raise their consciousness…and I believe given my unique mind and skillset I can best do this through storytelling. The way I see it is that I need to have complete financial independence and freedom so that I can have the time to do the spiritual work that would yield the highest consciousness insights in the stories (most likely a book, maybe a film). Going straight into writing a book or creating short films and posting them on Youtube or even creating a business around storytelling (perhaps this is something I can ponder more) seems much more high risk than creating a Youtube Channel and business that blends storytelling into Self-Help Spirituality. I have already had success on Youtube before, and I know I can create wayyyy higher quality content than what I created before, and I really enjoyed doing it!…so this feels like the naturally thing to follow. Yes, I love storytelling and see that as my Grand Life Purpose, but I also love self-help/spirituality too, and in the experience I had with coaching in this past year, I really enjoyed it and the people I worked with made solid improvement and enjoyed me as a mentor…so I believe I can have the best of both worlds. Create the business that is already centered around things I enjoy that includes storytelling, which will eventually lead me to Phase 2 of my LP which will be my greatest life’s work.

Yeah I get that, I feel the same way. There's no way I'm going my whole life and not doing psychedelics with a romantic partner and experiencing levels of intimacy far beyond what you can experience in ordinary waking consciousness. Part of the reason for my decision to break up with this girl. And I would say trust your thoughts man, sober or edibles or psychedelics, but always give it time to think over. Weed played a role in helping me get back in touch with my emotions that ultimately lead me to the realization I need to end it with this girl. Busy life makes me emotionally numb, and it was weed that would help me sort out all the feelings and thoughts after a long and stressful stretch.

For a long-term girlfriend with the assumption that you very well may be get married and spend the rest of your life with the person, it definitely mattered for me. I was dating a girl who I would say is a good mix of Green/Yellow, at the beginning of the relationship it was great, I felt like I finally met a conscious woman and that I would have my "dream relationship"...1 year in and I was ready to push myself stronger into Turquoise. It was hard because she did not understand these advanced spiritual topics and even though I would talk to her about my spiritual path, she just does not really understand it nor express interest herself in doing meditation, yoga, psychedelics, or even reading much into these topics. I realized that if I am going to have another committed monogamous relationship again, I want the girl to be more strongly Turquoise, since that is the realm of consciousness I am gradually moving into. Due to this, I longer feel me and this girl are a good match and now the relationship is going to end (it is not officially over yet, we are taking a no contact break to think over things, but at this point I think my mind is made up and I will choose to no longer continue the relationship). I think this issue is also very dependent on where one is at in life too. I am 22 years old, fairly attractive, and know in my heart that if I stay true to my path that the right girl will come along if the universe deems it so. I don't feel like I have a lot to lose even though this girl is better than 99.8% of others out there. However, if I was 40 things might be a different story...if I was 40 my prime years would be behind me and it might be my best option to stay with this girl. Take with that what you will, but if you want to really use your intimate relationships as a way to alchemize your growth in life, it definitely matters that you share a similar level of consciousness!

Was wondering what love-making looks like to people on this forum, or people into tantra, or some other way of having sex that is more high consciousness and is not simply focused on obtaining pleasure. I am curious because most of my life since I have hit puberty I have been addicted to PMO which makes it much harder for me to have these deeper spiritual love-making experiences. I have had a few moments with my girlfriend where it truly did feel like we were making love and I felt One one with her and the main focus during the sex was our connection, rather than me getting my ejaculation, those moments are rare and probably 95% of the time or more the main focus is on the pleasure aspect.

Title. Just let my thoughts run here and they are kind of jumbled. Responses are appreciated. Much love everyone. Got into a relationship with my current gf about a year ago. She seemed like the perfect person for me at the time, very intelligent, feminine, cares strongly about the world, perhaps I might have even put her on a pedestal because I thought she was Spiral Dynamics Tier 2 and people like that are so rare. After being in a relationship with her for over a year, I want out. I have realized she is very codependent. This has been very emotionally draining for me. She cries when I don’t spend enough time with her (I am an extremely busy person and spend time with her as much as I can, we still see each other in some capacity every day even if it just sleeping over) and she also says she feels guilty that she feels this way because I am busy and she knows she is not entitled to my attention all the time, but still nonetheless it plays a major role in our relationship. I just feel like I am constantly attending to her and her emotions that I have become so emotionally numb and can barely feel any emotions anymore unless I use weed. My extremely busy schedule is also contributing to my emotional numbness, not just her, but still it sucks to feel this way. She definitely has a diagnosable anxiety disorder, sometimes it gets to the point where she gets sick and throws up…all of it just so much to attend to and I feel drained. But more than anything she does not value spirituality and awakening as much as I do. I tell her about my spirituality and awakenings and she understands them as best as she can on a conceptual level, and does not seem very interested in the subject as a whole. I don’t think she truly understands how serious this stuff is to me, my entire Life Purpose revolves around this spirituality, and my partner does not even really understand it? That does not feel good. I tried to get her into meditation but she is not really interested, and her body is extremely sensitive to any substances so doing psychedelics for her is off the table. She literally gets sick for 3 days from having one shot of alcohol, and literally throws up if she has even a 5mg weed edible. I just wish she was more low maintenance and less codependent and we shared more of a similar spirituality. I don’t want to act like there are not positives to the relationship. I’m just spewing the negative things off the top of my head. I first fell in love with her because of her radical honesty and beauty and intelligence. She studied religious studies, psychology, and ethnic studies and I have learned quite a bit from her about those topics that I have grown from and incorporated into my worldview. She also values honesty extremely highly which was a value I deemed most important to a relationship, but I later realized there was baggage to this value because her anxiety and guilt complex are so strong that she will literally get sick if she lies too much. Like something about that doesn’t seem right to me, it’s like she isn’t honest for the sake of honesty, but rather to keep the guilt away? Idk I’ve always been confused on my thoughts about it. But at the end of the day obviously I am grateful that she is extremely honest, it has resulted in our relationship having A+ communication, at least it has been A+ up to the point now where I want to break up with her but can’t bring myself to do it. We also want to live similar lifestyles when we are older, we want to buy land and live in a foresty area and be really creative with what we build on the land, we have several page long ideas of what we want to do on the land (I won’t get into it much here, but the point is we have similar visions for where we want to be and how we want to live in the future). Oh, and our sexual chemistry is good as well…lots of positives to the relationship but I feel the negatives are starting to outweigh. For context I am in my final year of college and she graduated last year. She stayed in town so we could continue to be together (we do not live together) but now I just feel so insanely terrible to break her heart and end things. She cares so strongly about me, I know she sees me as the one she will be with for the rest of her life, and to just end all that and hurt her pains me so deeply, but it’s also slowly eating away at me to stay in a relationship my heart tells me is not right. I have nothing but respect and love for her, I wish her the best. But man I am hurting right now thinking about how she will be hurt. Fuck. I don’t know if I have the capacity to make someone suffer like that. In my head it seems impossible to do.

@ThermalTide Thank you. I do think having an open conversation about how I've been feeling is the course of best action, especially considering our relationship was founded upon honesty and open communication.

@LordFall It's my first real adult relationship, I guess. I had a couple relationships in high school but I was just a dumb teenager at the time, but still did learn quite a bit about relationships. In both of those high school relationships I was the one that got my heart broken, so that makes it all the more difficult for me to break it off with her because I know how terrible heartbreak feels. It completely broke me for months after, although it was one of the most defining experiences of my life that I am grateful for. But putting someone through that immense suffering is a lot, it's so hard to do.

@integral Maybe that is the issue. I'm not sure. I don't have a problem attending to her when I have the time. It's when school and work get extremely busy (which happens a lot) that I just want to relax at the end of the day and not deal with her anxiety and negative emotions. And given that my near future and LP will require me to be extremely busy for the next several years I don't envision myself always having the energy do deal with this all the time. We've had conversations before about her codependency and she kind of realizes that she is a little codependent and has said she is trying to center herself more in life. It's been all talk and not really any action on her part so far though. Maybe I should get more serious about it