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What is the best way to store 5-MeO-DMT fumerate? Is it safe to keep in a baggie in my closet? Or would it be better in some kind of glass jar?

Jesus. 500ug? Do you need a trip sitter for that?

Generally speaking you want to do it on the come down. It can be hard to finish while you are peaking. That said, you are taking a very small dose, so it may not matter.

What @Starlight321 said

Psychedelics don't do the work for you. They just show you what you need to work on. You have to take action. This is what's called integration.

Some good advice on this thread. Take a low dose and work your way up. Eventually you will see that there is nothing to fear but you have to go through the fear in order to realize that yourself. In summary, the way out is through.

Dark night of the soul is when you see no way out. Life ie meaningless, but beyond that it's also pointless. Draw from the three characteristics in Buddhist: Lie if unsatisfactory, nothing lasts, and it's empty o f self. IF you really dive deep into these concepts and relate then to your life you may encounter dark night of the soul. Think about it, if all your hopes and dreams were shattered because you realized they have no basis in reality, where would you land? There'd be no point in doing anything. To cope, you have to figure out a way to make life worth living. That said, your ability to cope won't last. Because states are always in flux. We have no control over what comes amd goes. Hard times come and go and your needs and wishes will never be met. I can't emphasize that enough. Dark night is the fuck of all all fuck all.s There are ways to cope, but your primary focus will primarily be on your inner journery. Life will never do it for you, but pm the time at hand, you have to get clear on what's important to you. And it's important to have a reason to get od of bed. Check mate

I'm not schizophrenic but i have experienced psychosis on mushrooms a couple of times. I don't even have to take a high does so I typically stay away from them. On the other hand, LSD is safe for me. I take 1.2 grams of mush, and 250ug of LSD. Psychedelics, IMO, do a lot of good. But, they are not necessary if you are truly inquiring into who you are through meditation and contemplation. In fact, you will have the same insights, but psychedelics delivers these insights a little more efficiently and profoundly in my opinion. Overtime, though, you become less attached to insights and become more focused on living a rich and meaningful life despite the. challenges you encounter. Insights are cool but hey key is in the integration. That's the hard part. Self-actualization doesn't turn your into a rockstar where you're no longer impervious to the challenges you once faced. You need to get that out of your head. In fact, start with the assumption that nothing changes, but trust that life will shape you into the person you want to become. You have no control over this process other than to make good decisions and make sure you don't from life's challenges. Easier said than done. Our instinct is to want tru to change or become a more "spiritual" version of ourselves. This is ego., but a lot more complex topic than I care to go into right now.

You construct your identity by crafting a healthy and meaningful lifestyle. Develop good habits, make quality friends, and go after a career that you don't mind engaging with daily. A good psychologist can really help in this area. You need to get clear on what you want and make it happen This response may get lost in the haystack here but it really helps to have someone walking with you down the path to an authentic life. Your identify is a product of what I'm describing.

The scariest experience I had was also the most beautiful. I took two and a half 100ug tabs of LSD. Something was off though, I started peaking after 15 minutes. I don't know why it happened, but I suspect the tabs were stronger than advertised. Anyways, I knew I was in for a ride pretty early on. I had never experienced visuals quite like this. I began having deep existential thoughts, "Do I exist?", "Is any of this real?". Terror set in. My ideas of self and reality were being challenged. I remember saying to my friend, "This is so confusing" because I kept forgetting who I was. I knew there was no escape so I just relaxed into it. All of a sudden my mind dropped. I was the room. I was the plant. I was everything around. I was infinite. Everything was pouring out of nothing. This was amazing. I kept hugging my friend because he was me. He thought I had lost it but he was a good sport. I kept switching back and forth between infinite consciousness and ordinary consciousness. But when I'd switch back to ordinary consciousness my mind would get stuck in loops. I'd think the same thoughts over and over like, "Life is suffering. Life is suffering. Life is suffering..." Ad nauseam. These thought loops were brutal. I thought I was going to be stuck like this forever. I don't know how or when it happened but eventually I snapped out of it. I didn't sleep for two days, but I was back.

Yes, this is psychosis. Look it up. Not uncommon. Be careful, this is not stuff you need to work through, you need to re-examine your compatibility with the substance. You don't want to wind up in the looney bin. That shit does happen. Sometimes people don't snap out of that paranoia for days and freak everyone out. These days I rarely mess with mushrooms unless in very small doses. I've had psychosis twice on 2+ grams. This is not a problem I have with LSD. LSD is almost always peaceful and joyful even up to 250ug. I'm not sure if this applies to you, but be careful smoking pot on psychedelics. For a lot of people it brings on anxiety and often leads to bad trips. IMO, the combo just isn't necessary.

If you find a solution for this let me know! Haha. I love LSD, but man, is it an all day commitment. With 200ug, my usual dose, I typically peak for 3 hours or so and spend the rest of the day with an unpleasant comedown. I dose early so I can get to bed at a reasonable amount of time but sometimes it is still really hard to get to sleep.

This is not 2CB, this is tucibi. Essentially cocaine. This thread should be locked.

That's encouraging, I've been afraid to try it but wanting it simultaneously. I'm not sure where we're at on the sourcing side of things on this forum, but if I knew where to get it I would try. Wink, wink.

I am quite certain Teal has something really wrong with her. I'd be surprised if she wasn't diagnosed as a card carrying narcissist, maybe even a sociopath. And, I'm not using the term narcissist in a light hearted fashion. I mean actually possessing 5 of the 9 criteria for it to be legit. It's really hard for me to listen to her speak because her values are so juvenile. It comes out in her speech and it's clear by how she interacts with others. Members on this forum should beware. There may be some truth in her words, she may have some insight, but there is no doubt she has and will continue to do a lot of damage. I read a really long article about her a while back. And, while it was a fascinating read, if there's any truth to it she is a really fucked up human being. If you can't see through her claims about being raised in a satanic cult (or whatever) then you really need to work on your BS detector. I understand Leo's philosophy that you can "learn from anyone", but if you are going to choose someone to learn from, choose mother fucking wisely. Learn to use discernment.

Now on Netflix:

Teal Swan is full of shit.

I remember this somewhere, but is freebase more stable than HCl?

Therapy

I'd be careful with anything that makes you feel good. The spiritual path is not about feeling good. Other mileage may vary, but the only thing I found MDMA useful for was bonding with others.

@Ninja_pig Everything you described is normal. The only solution is to keep going. Note that once you tread on this path it can be destructive. Make sure you keep your life in order and take care of it. Don't be afraid to reach out to a therapist or work with an experienced spiritual teacher. They can help you navigate this complex terrain.

Nice post!

That was a great read. Thanks for posting.

I figured out a way to meet and develop deep, meaningful relationships with others, and I wanted to share how I did it in case anyone was in a similar boat as I was. If you are like me, a fellow actualizer, you may have trouble meeting friends that you feel you can relate to. I may have a solution that may work for you. I was going through a really tough time in my life and felt pretty isolated. I had a couple close friends, but due to conflicting schedules and other life conditions we started to drift apart. The pandemic did not help matters much, I was pretty lonely there for a while. In February of last year I to started a meetup group to solve this problem. I am lucky enough to live in a part of the the US where the weather is nice year round so I planned events where we'd meet in parks. COVID was a concern, but I am a cautious organizer and screen for people who are respectful and are willing to meet safely (meetup lets you ask screening questions before you approve a new member). Also, anyone who spreads misinformation or makes people unsafe is kicked out of the group (but I only had to do that twice). At the time, I was one of the only groups that was willing to meet in person. But, I was pretty nervous about it. The fact that we met in person attracted a good deal of attention in the meetup community and we quickly racked up a good deal of members. My original idea was to create an environment that catered to deep thinkers who enjoy talking about politics, philosophy, science, health, history, spirituality, personal growth, and other deep topics. On my first event I proposed three topics for discussion: Misinformation, drug decriminalization, and octopus intelligence (lol). Eight people showed up to my first event and we had great conversation. I chose meaning and progress as the topics for the second event, which 12 people showed up to. After a while my group started to pick up steam and we'd average about 25 attendees. Once a vaccine was developed other groups started meeting in person and our attendance dropped a bit. Initially, we had a good mix of Orange and Greens (if you're into spiral dynamics). That kept things really interesting. Greens and oranges disagree on just about everything so conversations were always fresh. At this point, most of our members are green. We go with the flow, are less rigid, and really appreciate each other's company. I think the Orange's get pretty frustrated with this. Regarding the format, when I first started the group, I didn't want to have any facilitation or rules. I just wanted to throw a few topics out there and let discussion flow naturally. I learned very quickly that this was not a realistic plan. Chaos can ensue if you don't offer structure. I now firmly believe that groups and organizations need strong leaders. I didn't really have a plan, but right away groups naturally formed a big circle, which was not expected. When people meet in a circle it creates a strange social dynamic. I think bars would be a better choice, but I do not plan on hanging out indoors with people I don't know anytime soon. Anyways, we'd meet in a large circle in the park, and talk about the topics I proposed. As the group grew, the discussion got pretty sloppy and we ran into a number of problems. It was hard to hear people talk, people were having side conversations, some people would hog the floor, some would change the topic too frequently, some were disrespectful. At that point I googled "How to facilitate a discussion" and began enforcing a minimal set of rules. This was beneficial. I also make a move to break into smaller groups and get help from people that I trusted to serve as facilitators. As time went on, rather than choosing multiple topics, I only proposed one. This simplified things for me. Some of the topics were meaning, effective speech, maturity, love, truth, survival, emotional growth, death, friendship, uncertainty, and others. We have evolved quite a bit, and continue to do so. I have reflected on this a bit and have some theories as to why this was successful. First, I chose a name for the group that didn't sound too philosophical ("Meaningful Discussion" is part of the name). I also restricted the group to people under that age of 50. For those of you who have been to meetup events you may have noticed how many older people show up. It can be hard to meet people witch similar interests in the same age range. Also, at this point, I'm less interested in having super deep philosophical discussion. Most people don't want to go that deep into existential topics. Or, they like to visit them, but not very often. So instead, this group is more about bringing people together and developing a sense of community. That said, we do get some pretty deep thinkers. I've even met someone from this forum in my group, it was cool to meet another who did psychedelics and listened to Leo's talks. This has been a very challenging endeavor. I am sensitive and shy by nature and never held a leadership position. I had to learn to be assertive, decisive and have to deal with criticism. Some of these fuckers can be pretty difficult, this shit keeps my on my toes. Sometimes I worry that people won't like the topics I choose (I'm a recovering people pleaser), but people keep coming back so I must be doing something right. At this point I have 400 members, 40 or so I would consider regulars. I have made great friends and changed people's lives for the better. People thank me for the service I offer and that makes me feel pretty good. I have grown immensely in this process and it's given my life a great deal of meaning. For those of you who are looking to build a meaningful network of friends, and are interested in doing something similar, I hope you get something out of this post. It is possible to build a great community.

I wouldn't say that my experience has been frustrating as it has been futile. Reds are typically toxic and narcissistic. I have learned to avoid them all together. Blues I find boring, although they can be quite kind. Oranges I have a tendency to get frustrated with as you do with reds.