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@thisintegrated What makes you say that?

@Roy

Firstly, this is a really cool way of looking at it. Secondly, I found your call for help, and I am here to help you get out of this file

Is that $20,000+ altogether over 25+ years?

Look at @Raze’s profile. He does it all the time but he actually provides value, so I think it’s great. It’d be nice if he could embed the links though. I’m pretty sure this forum does it by default.

@thisintegrated Why and how? What makes you think this? @Soulbass In what ways does that link to mental health issues? Which guys? Gen Z?

Day 6 and Day 7: I relapsed on both of these days. I am experiencing a backlash. I am getting thoughts like "What is wrong with me?" I don't care as much about this as I did when I first started. Where to from here... I don't know what to do. I keep relapsing. The exercises don't seem to make my urges go away. Maybe I need to try harder at the exercises.

@Heart of Space How do I do that? That sounds about right. Does praying to the Universe work? It doesn't feel like I truly have anyone like that.

Hey @Kazman What medication did you try? @Heart of Space Why?

@Gabith How do I do that? I still want to entertain the idea that happiness is a choice, but if it was, I don’t know why anhedonia and emotional numbness exists. I wish I could just choose to feel emotions but I feel little to nothing.

It’s been a while since I’ve done an elimination diet. This time, I’m finding it very difficult to stick to one. I’m wanting to try a liquid-only diet or a carnivore diet again, but I keep slipping off the diet. The reason why I’m wanting to do it is to try to find a solution to my health issues. I also have exams coming up so I need to get any benefit I can. How do I stick to it?

@Eyowey Did you cure it? What cured it for you? @Average Investor I think I have 70% clean diet. I tried carnivore before but I didn't get much results. How long did it take for you to see results with Low FODMAP? It's been a year since I did that.

@Giulio Bevilacqua Could you give a link? Thanks.

I solve my health problems.

@Leo Gura Yes Leo I had SIBO. But now I get a completely flat breath test, which is abnormal. I don't know what else to do now. It takes me that long because I need stimulation. I switch from one page to another page because something wasn't good enough. I'll come across something and think "No this is not how I like it" and then I switch to something else so that I can finally have a satisfactory ejaculation, which takes time. All of that time only for like 3 seconds of pleasure. When I try to jerk off in 10 minutes or less it doesn't feel satisfactory. You see how much of a problem this is? I've never been on illegal drugs before but masturbation is probably the closest thing to it, or it's the most "natural" unhealthy drug that exists. I wish I never found about masturbating and I wish I never masturbated for the first time.

@Breakingthewall I used to meditate daily before my health problems started. Now I have tried so many times to rebuild the habit but I keep falling off. Before, I used to be able to stick to my meditation practice because I could connect it to my goals and vision of who I want to be. But with anhedonia + apathy I don't care about my goals and vision at all anymore, so it's much harder to get myself to meditate because I'm doing it without much of an emotionally charged point. Like, "What's the point?" I've tried to rebuild the habit 4 times over the last 2 years, but I keep falling off after a few weeks. Even with habit trackers and all of the techniques of starting small still don't work for me. I used to be able to build momentum, where it gets easier with each day. That doesn't happen for me anymore and it's so frustrating.

Day 5: I relapsed. I may have lost today’s battle, but I haven’t lost the war. Interestingly, this video came at the right time. “It’s not about getting hit and staying on the ground, it’s about how long you will stay like that. You didn’t relapse, you didn’t lose, you just got injured. This battle is not over until you win.” I’m not sure what how to title my days for the rest of this journal now. Do I continue with “Day 6” or do I restart to “Day 1”?

Is it because when you awaken, you realise you’re the only person who can be God-Realized? And that others are a figment of your imagination, so “they” couldn’t possibly be God-Realized?

That might be true, but how do you know that?

The Power of Now? @StarStruck

Looking for some too

@EmptyInside How is your anhedonia now? Do you still have it?

Day 4: Not much to say for today. Tried to study for hours and my mind just feels completely shut down. Brain fog is so debilitating. I keep wishing I never found out masturbating existed, or ever tried it, then I wouldn’t have needed to go through this unwiring process in the first place. Everything just feels so dead. I wish I could enjoy my hobbies and interests, but they feel completely dead too. I haven’t spelt any joy in so long I’m forgetting what it feels like as time passes.