OneIntoOne

You get insides - come down. You get more insides - and come down again. You get even more and more deep insides - and come down here. God is hiding because he wants to play hide and seek, but how do you become conscious of him 24/7? And when you are conscious what God is what do you do about it? You can feel like getting insane some times by not knowing what to do with this intense desire of feeling God

Thank you all for your advice help and input. It was really helpful. What i'm realizing now that this 'thing' i'm experiencing feels like an out of body experience and i am wondering if it has anything to do with it. Any thoughts? Again, if we look from a psychology or/and a DSM diagnosis perspective we can perhaps say yes its DP/DR or whatever name you wanna give it. What is the right way to look at it?

I’ll try to describe what’s happening. Sometimes when I ask my self questions like: who am I? Where am I? What is all of this? What’s reality? Etc I get quickly lost and feel like a stranger in my body, like I’m somewhere else (this is all happening very quick, like in and out) and I freak out because I think OMG what is happening to me. So I stop and try to disconnect from that thoughts and do random stuff. At that time my heart rate is going up and that makes me more and more afraid. Then I become afraid of that experience happening again so my body wouldn’t allow me to think those abstract topics which makes it me intense in a sense. That’s basically the loop. I used to be able to handle it no issue, but now I can totally fly away and feel this strange feeling. but It’s to scary so I come right back. Has anyone had any similar experience? Any inside would be appreciated. i am petrified!

@NoSelfSelf It feels i'm getting insane. Like a BAD TRIP. Have you experienced it that you tell me to allow it to happen?

I read now on the forum DP/DR is common with spiritual work. Is this something most people go true? I never ever experienced anything like that in my life its strange. I have bin doing day and night for the last year intense spiritual contemplating and non dual thinking plus lots of Leos vids.

@The0Self What do you mean?

@The0Self My body literally feels tense UP and i feel like loosing my self. Is this something to do with classic spiritual work?

SOLID! Science and (some) spirituality (coming) together They are so afraid to say out the word "GOD"

Sometimes while contemplating on hallucinogens (this time it was weed) i feel i go so deep that it kinda feels like my mind is going "into the Truth" and "out of the Truth (back into this reality)" this is happening back and fort, in and out, in and out deeper and deeper. To a point i feel my heart starts to pump faster and faster, Then, my mind gives it a stop! and comes back here. Looking at my apple watch shows my heart rate is 179 and i get afraid and stop it by trying to distract my mind with random stuff (calling someone making breakfast) not to think and let it go so deep. because when i do its scary and my heart rate jumps up. It also feels in a sense like my mind is going to split in half because it can't handle the deep thoughts. it feels like i'm going CRAZY! Then the cycle starts over again and again until it wears off. Did anyone else have the same experience? Is this my mind giving me the fear of death not to allow me to go so deep? Is this normal? (or perhaps dangerous?) Thanks guys!

@The0Self HaHaHa! yes i've hit this dead end and realized you cant stay there. and now i'm trying to see how to design my life in a way that i'm as close to god state as possible. All the time! Any light on this subject would be highly appreciated.

@The0Self YES. I never had other then shrooms. But i do ALOT of contemplating and thinking and it makes sense i should get some showings from weed just by knowing how to get there.

@The0Self This experience i had with the weed was something i never ever get. I don't know if it is because i did a lot of sober work the last 2 weeks and then took a hit and the insides that was shown to me were frightening, something i had never seen in the passed. Ot its the new stain i had took and took simply to much

@The0Self I've done shrooms. Last time it was a bad trip. i am afraid to do again. LSD or 5-Meo or ketamine i wont experience the same effects i am describing?

@OneIntoOne all i feel is a deferent state of higher conciseness access and if the dose and setting is right it can me get good insights and spiritual growth. But sometimes if i go to deep i get the reaction from above which I'm wondering what it is.

@The0Self I look at my watch and my heart beat is 179 is this the part i need to brake trough and take responsibility to brake in?

@Thought Art I appreciate your respond and especially if you were a weed smoker in the passed and understand the substance. I never look for the high THC strains only low once and mixed with CBD so i don't get stoned. Thats not what i'm looking for. I do feel i had some amazing spiritual insides and awakenings from weed. That is what i'm trying to find out if i'm only going deeper into the illusion or and its non sense or it IS some sort of Truth showing.

@Nahm Thanks for your reply. I am not sure i understand what you wrote. can you explain more?

@Thought Art How can i tell if its simple anxiety or its my mind not letting me reach the truth when i do reach it for a second?

@VioletFlame Can you share how music therapy works? It is a wonderful way to combined a persons love for music and a love for helping people and make money along the way.

I see it now. I apologize.

Whoever needs to see this: I have followed a topic today and wanted to go back and take a look at it . I could not find the topic anymore its ben removed as if it wasn't even there at all. I don't know why. If something is wrong with the topic and its against the rules and values It should be locked or something like that. not quietly sneaked out. I respect this place but this is making this site shady, self-bias, and a need for control.

How do you guys know?

Just became conscious that: Everything is (and can be) imagined. Everything is JUST whats appearing. And, its appearing to no-one. The ME will say hey, don't you see its happening to ME?! Yea, thats what appearing, "ME thinking happening to me appearing" Question that appears, if any one can answer it might appear to help. Is it possible to heal anxiety and light trauma (not PTSD) by realizing the above-like no self? I feel from one end all i have to do is keep on meeting the moment and not resist, surrender fully. No appearance or happening is nether good or bad. Like: "resistance to realize the moment appearing" "Its appearing to appear an appearance about appearing (LOL)" "anxiety about XYZ appearing" From the other hand i still wander, can something like this help someone cure anxiety, trauma, neuroses, or cognitive distortion? Without using this as an escape, because you realize right away: "Using no-self as an escape from XYZ is appearing" And you surrender right away to whats appearing like: "resisting to surrender what's happening appearing" And so goes the cycle. Its tricky. would appreciate any thought on that.

@Leo Gura So this is clear from now on: Psychedelics only show you and don't get you there. I think most people here still trip around on Psychedelics thinking they will get anywhere and fool them selfs when they see what they see thinking this is awakening, then they crave that 'state' agin so they turn to Psychedelics again it becomes kinda an addictive cycle. You should stress this more clearly. So what IS the best way to get to no-self permanent?