WelcometoReality

@WelcometoReality In a sense stuckness is all there is. Allow oneself to get totally stuck might open things up.

??? Believing that you're stuck makes you stuck and any expectations for something to happen is also something to let go. Sit with those dense feelings and let go of any desire for them to go away. Every attempt to manipulate, resist, grasp the present moment is from the illusiory sense of self.

The present moment is the doorway. Recognize the stillness between two thoughts. This might seem like a small realization at first but as you keep focusing on this stillness it will grow. It will then be a stillness thats there even when thought occurs and later all off life will occur within this stillness. Questions might arise from mind but stems from negative feelings in the body. Become aware of the feeling and let go of any attempts to do anything about it. The feeling will dissolve and with that the question. As you do this negative feelings stop coming up and positive feelings start arise more and more frequently. Love starts to appear which start to be ever present which is unconditional love. Let go into this moment, every moment. No more knowledge is needed. Everything you need to know in a spiritual sense is right here and now.

@OneIntoOne the doorway to the absolute is through the fear. You don't need to push through though you'll be able to meet it when you are ready for it.

@BipolarGrowth The question is a rock in the stream the answer might be further down.

You can start doing daily meditation. Start with 10-20 minutes a day. Doing it consistently 10mins everyday is better than doing it sporadically for an hour. Also go for simplicity. Just sit in silence with eyes closed and see what happens. You can also do mindfulness practice outside meditation. Be aware that you are aware. You will catch yourself getting lost in thought then just be aware that it has happened and go back to being aware of being aware.

Yes you describe it well. The water is meant to carry us along. I just wanted to remove a rock that might've held you in place. Your point of view will be different further down the stream.

But saying "fully enlightened" has an ending quality to it. ? Like having arrived at the end of a journey. It's more like an unending journey without a knower arriving at a destination and even the destination is unknown. The witness to the impermanence also falls away. Yes and that might be your interpretation of it today. Just don't cling to that interpretation, it might change over time. Any finality is an illusion. ?

What has this capability though? ? Yes that's a good pointer. Fully enlightened though, what does that mean?

The fighting with yourself is the noise. What if there wasnt any fighting and you just went to your job? ?

@BipolarGrowth Believing that one is enlightened or not doesn't make that the experience for most people. There are levels of consciousness which people are operating from and even levels of enlightenment. Check out David R Hawkins book Power vs Force for a map of consciousness levels. What you are pointing to is your perspective right now. Which is fine but was that your experience a year ago?

@Javfly33 You making sense of your experience through reason and the context of the scientific paradigm which you are moving from into a spiritual paradigm and love. Maybe it could be useful to see leos video about deconstructing science again? ??

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@Javfly33 The drugs just removes the i so that truth is revealed. Like when clouds dissolve the sun can shine through. The sun is always there it just wasn't visible.

It's not as much what you do to integrate but what you do to resist integration from happening imo.

God's will is what is, stillness. Egoic will is what that tries to change what is, noise.

@Giulio Bevilacqua Guilt and regret for what? You did what you thought was the best action to make at the time. Maybe this kundalini activation will be the best thing that ever happened in your life and you'll laugh at this when it's over?

The paradox is only in your mind. It can't grasp what reality is since it is only a part of it. ?

Your Self image and world view is based on your feelings. Positive feelings will bring a positive self image. ?

You'll move up to, for example, courage, acceptance, love and peace.

Yes, exactly. Except building an image is counterproductive to dissolving an image so it's best to choose between the two. By dissolving the negative feelings you will automatically move up to positive feeling states which can then lead to total self transcendence.

You can call both ego if that is how you want to define it. You are exploring what you are experiencing and you can define the parts in a way that makes sense to you. The words are simply pointers to parts of experience. If the observer watches something is it actually part of the thing it watches? Perhaps for claritys sake it's better to give them different names. Can you describe the nature of the observer?

What feeling is behind the judging and how does judging yourself make you feel? When the feeling of guilt comes up can you sit with it until it dissappears?

That's a complex question that I'm not sure I can answer. What I can say is that there is a field of "knowing" that reality is made of and that field is shared by all things. Person A is not directly aware of Person B:s thought but the information is "shared" in some way. You can test this by sending loving thoughts to a person everyday and see how this changes your relationship with him/her. I've tested this myself with drastic results. And how would that make sense unless the field was shared by everyone?

Yeah that's quite common. They go to retreats or meditate for an hour. They are waiting for a random moment where they get enlightened and when that doesn't happen they think maybe next retreat or next meditation I'll get it it. Then they go back to there normal lives and act through ego again and all the dissolving that the meditation had done is undone. So it takes them decades, if they do it at all, to awaken. Each moment is a possibility to see through and let go of identification to thought and feelings. All that's needed is the willingness to do so. It's not hard but few are willing to do so.