WelcometoReality

Doubts are ego and "I can become an even clearer awakening" is also ego. Yes, it's about this moment here and now, thoughts about past or future, becoming or not becoming are all projections of the mind.

I don't see a problem here. ? The mind creates thought. That's natural. There's just no need to engage with the questions that come from it. The fear and paranoia comes with the questions. What was life like when you were a child without these questions? You were probably playing at the playing grounds without any care whether it's real or not? The question whether reality is real or not is a smoke screen that the mind puts up and now you're trying to answer it in hope of getting relief from the fear. Question the question rather then seeking an answer and the relief will come.

I'm with you this far but I would say awakening is the waking up from the dream, that one is a separate self living on planet earth was just a figment of ones imagination. Reality goes from a believed objective reality to a subjective knowing reality which is often talked about as experience or direct experience. Also there is no sense of separation between the knower and known (oneness). There other facets but I choose to exclude those for the moment. That's a very good question. Someone should get a gold star for that one. ? When one awakens then, at first, questions seem irrelevant. Because it's seen from an absolute perspective to make no sense but as the awakening deepens the absolute perspective isn't held onto. All perspectives are relevant, even the mind of others. I wouldn't say it has anything to do with imagination for me, rather that replying seems like the natural thing to do if that makes any sense. Could this perspective be because when psychedelics is used there is seen that it's a dream but as the trip wears off you also go back to sleep? The way I see it as awakening happens you never fully go back into dreamland. No matter how caught you get by the dream state there's still the memory of the awakened view. And as awakening deepens there is less and less "buying into" happening. To be honest I don't fully resonate with "imagination" the way you use it. Maybe it's a psychedelic/non-psychedelic clash or maybe it's because I don't fully understand what's meant by it. Maybe our interpretations are just different and so the is an gap in understanding each other because of it. Maybe you can clarify this for me. ?

I see. Thank you for sharing. ?

Yeah words usually is never enough but could you please try to describe it?

What did this death feel like?

Form and formlessness, existence and non-existence are both aspects of God.

That sounds heavy. Kudos for sharing! What is it you want to get rid of?

More like prior to thinking.

Yeah, as if "outside" validation is needed. ? I did like the "splash splash... calm waters" though. It warmed my heart. ?

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To me how is irrelevant. It just makes more sense to me that the source of existance can't be existence itself. And experientially non-existence can be 'sensed' for lack of a better word but I can't describe it because it has no attributes.

To me existance as an objective permanent world makes less sense. Every thing is impermanent. It comes and goes back into non-existance, the source.

Logically you could make the argument that the source of existence can't exist because then it would be part of existence and hence not the creator of it. No that's not what it means. It means that it's prior to creation. Non-existence is the source of existence but ultimately existence and non-existence is two sides of the same coin.

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Yeah, the flaw wouldn't be "seeing it the way it is" would it. ?

@catcat69123 It feels good. ?

?. Seriously though, it's great advertisement material right there. Sure beats what Buddha said about impermanance, no-self and suffering. ?

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? So where are you in all this?

@Forza21 That's good. But don't stop there. ? What is "no one" and "I don't even exist"?

@Eonwe5 That realization can be very terrifying for some people. What is seen is that who you thought you were was in reality just thoughts and feelings. That voice is now what is causing all that disturbance for you because it has seen that it is illusiory and you still believe it somewhat or else it wouldn't disturb you. This will gradually become better with time. Before you know it you'll be perfectly fine with being unknown to yourself. ? But you're here writing this to us. ? You might not be what you thought you were and you might not be able to explain/know what you are but you do exist. I can also (just as leo said) recommend mindfulness labeling to break those thought/feeling patterns that you still identify with.

Maybe because people with mental health issues are looking for relief of suffering and turn towards spirtuality because of it. Also the dark night of the soul looks pretty much like depression from the outside.

It can be good to contemplate the implications but also a hindrance to sinking deeper into the realization. The mind makes a connection between watching the video and awakening but no matter what you did when the awakening experience happened they are not cause and effect.

Yeah thats a good point. There might be a bang or two but the real work starts afterwards. ?