Hello1

So I am generally against antidepressants if unnecessary. I have been really holding back for a long time and trying without them. I really care about making the right decision! So long story short, I feel terribly behind and stuck in life, it´s hard to dig my way out of the rut. I have bad experience with therapy too, tried more of those. I am losing energy to keep fighting. Depressive, anxious, with zero game plan. This is a very long-term problem. Then I also have a short-term problem - getting myself out of an extremely toxic/addictive/manipulative relationship. This getting out has now lasted for 2 years now, is not working and I am a wreck now. My hair literally went grey from it. I cry daily and I feel completely drained and miserable. Those two problems combined - I can hardly survive. I feel like I might go crazy. Honestly, I am losing interest in living. (not that I wanna kill myself, I just really am not interested in life at all. And very often I wish I wasn´t alive. I lost interest in all my hobbies. Some days I am so depressive that I hardly walk. I cannot judge well how serious this is. I don´t wanna take anti-depressants light-heartedly. I wanna avoid them if I can. I know my problems are my fault, I lack discipline, emotional mastery and some deep work on myself. Maybe I could still try withoug antidepressants? Do lots of sports instead? But that is not enough. Moreover, fall and winter are coming and that does not help. I hardly survived last fall/winter. Only summer makes it a tiny bit better. My friends and my therapist (though I don´t consider her very good) try to convince me to take the antidepressants. My closest friend regards it as very serious. What do you think? Where is the line? Would they help my personal development right now OR would they make a disservice to it?

@Leo Gura maybe you can help me? I am sorry, maybe I am just stupid. I really tried, I re-watched the instructions more times. And also, I am very grateful for the course. And excited.

Sorry, maybe I´m stupid, but I am really, really struggling with this and it prevents me from moving on with the course. Values Assessment - Pass 05 (Value Definitions): my question n.1: definition that I am asked to come up with as a result is supposed to be my definition of the word - or my definition of embodying it? Example: is it what the word nature means to me or what embodying the value of nature means to me? my question n.2: The 3 questions that are supposed to help me figure out this definition - 1st of these questions is actually the same as coming up with the definition itself already, so I really, really do not understand. my question n.3: again, the 3 questions that are supposed to help me figure out the definition, question 2 and question 3 are identical to me, what is the difference? my question n.4: I am asked to be specific. Does that apply only to the 3 helping questions or also for the final definition itself? If it applies for the definition itself, I do not quite understand. Definitions of abstract words are usually broad and abstract, not specific. I mean examples can be specific, but not definitions. If my definition contains examples, it will be longer than 15 words! my question n.5: So am I supposed to first answer the 3 helping questions, and then forget those (that was just a warm-up?) and move on to coming up with the definition? OR should the definition contain all I came up with in the helping questions? - but then it will be very long. Also - If I have more problems with instructions, where can I ask questions without worrying about the copyright? Don´t get me wrong, this is not to criticise the course. Not at all. I am exciting that I am doing it. I am very grateful that I have it. I bought it years ago and didn´t finish back then. Now I´m doing it over again. I really, really care about getting through the course. I see the value of it. And I am not someone who can easily afford it financially but I did.

@Inliytened1 R. Spira is there

There are some very simple books on the list. Just wondering, curious...

@Miguel1 yes I notice that

Leo, what is you opinion on Eckhart Tolle's books? They didn't get to your booklist. I hope I'm not wrong but I never saw them there. Too simple? Too esoteric? Not interesting enough? I'm curious.

I'm listening to interviews with Peter Ralston, by Leo but also by other people. He says things like - "You're doing it! Just stop doing it!" - concerning negative emotions and "unnecessary suffering". From all he says it seems like I should just skip negative emotions. Isn't it the case that I should actually feel through the negative emotions and not avoid them? Isn't avoidance a negative habit that avoidant people to? Someone explain to me the difference if there is any. Many thanks

@Hojo that is exactly what I do

@Schizophonia i don't naturally like any protein

@Salvijus thanks for this info

@Natasha Tori Maru interesting, thank you for the inspiration

@jacknine119 😀😀

@Daniel Balan nice, thanks for reply, interesting. It's a bit different than me, I don't have a specific reason, I'm just indifferent

@Salvijus what I wrote doesn't apply for new year wishes, it was only about Christmas. Wondering if there are more people like that. So I won't go into whether I celebrate anything else to keep it not confusing