Huegeleisen

Day 15-08.05.2021 Because of bad time management I‘ll write tomorrow about things I could do better. Today I read mastery by Robert Greene.

Day 139-08.05.2021 I’m still in social media detox. Today was a day full of procrastination because I didn’t want to do maths. But I bought the book mastery and started to read it. It’s awesome . After reading I wrote out my favourite ideaI want to implement: 1. Watching the environment. Try to observate as much about the Social Dynamics of your environment. Then I wrote out the things I could master because I‘m interested in: 1. Science and mathematics 2. Soccer 3. YouTube (Gaming Content or other entertainment) Tomorrow I want to take time to just write for 2 hours. Then I want to study for school (1-2hours). After that I can read books and reflect on them. See you tomorrow ?? Peace❤️❤️❤️

Day 14-07.05.2021 Failed. ❌ Today I just procrastinated a lot by pretending of studying. But I studied geography for some time too. Tomorrow I’ll get things that I can do better.

Day 138-07.05.2021 Still in social media detox. Today we had school again and I realised that I’m an incel because I’m lacking social skills. Here I want to define incel so we speak about the same thing. In my context an incel is a person that is completely ignored by women (especially the hot ones). Also he lacks social skills so he can’t do a conversation and he doesn’t know what to talk with people about. Then he gets into a victim’s mindset and gets often depressed. (I don’t engage in incel’s communities but I bring incels statements because I find them funny (and it’s also funny because I’m speaking of incels as them even I’m an incel right now)?). There are people that changed so I can change too. I first need time to study about the problem and try to understand it Tomorrow I could start after finishing school. See you tomorrow ?????????????????????❤️? Peace??????❤️????❤️??????????????????????❤️???????????❤️

Day 13-06.05.2021 Still in. Today I studied Geography and religion.

Day 137 06.05.2021 Still in social media detox and studying?. Today I ran for 10min again but my leg hurted. Also I implemented the new principle. I was a lot more efficient but I procrastinated a lot too. I think I’ll need a solution against procrastination. Maybe I could try the Sedona method or brainstorm for beliefs. First I’ll try out the Sedona method tomorrow. Then I can try to research other mindsets about procrastination. Tomorrow is school again so I’m a bit excited because there will be social interaction again. But why be feared if there’s a way to have good interactions and if I can’t change the situation I shouldn’t be feared of it because I’ll just hurt myself. So take it easy. See you tomorrow ?????????????????? Peace❤️????????❤️

Day12-05.05.2021 I studied today again. This time I studied about history. It’ really fun?.

Day 136-05.05.2021 Still in. Today it was very easy to resist. Also I’m impressed of myself that I did school, studied for 3 hours maths and had enough energy to continue studying. The problem is that my actions aren’t really strategic. I think I have to spend more time on thinking in big picture and clearly put a barrier to deep work. Apropos Deep work, I’d like to take another mindset into my actions. It’s about being slow to be fast. So do the things mindful. Make mini tasks of the big tasks and just do it slow, deliberate and mindful. Easier said chill in your head while working. Because I did my running record yesterday everything hurts so I didn’t train today:(. Hopefully it’ll get tomorrow better but I can’t change it right now so don’t worry. Another interesting thing of today is that I collected quotes for a vision board and it made rally fun :). See you tomorrow??????????????????????????????????? Peace ❤️❤️❤️❤️??????????❤️?????????????❤️????????❤️???????❤️

Day 11-04.05.2021 Still in. Today I studied history and chemistry.

Day 135-04.05.2021 Still in social media detox. Today I’m feeling A LOT better even if I was depressed at morning. So it’s an obstacle with maths but I think I can make it if I strategise my resources better. First I’ll need better sleep because I was really tired today. An important Ressource is Sport because it’s giving me momentum and energy. Apropos Momentum it will be important to build micro momentum throughout the day. These are the first resources coming into my mind. My lower strategic intends are getting back into soccer, starting an own YouTube channel, getting better (needs to be more detailed) grades at school and getting a side job. Today I first ran for 30min. That was a goal of me since February and it’s a big new record because my last record was by running seven minutes straight so yaaaaay?! Now can try to get faster and getting comfortable with running. Just awesome!!!!! I’m realising that I am really tired ?. So don’t fap before sleeping. I think that’s why I slept so good last week. See you tomorrow? Peace❤️??????

Day 10-03.05.2021 Still in. I’m changing the rule to:”I study for an hour around the time of 5pm” Because it’s right now just impossible for me to start EXACTLY at 5pm. Today I studied on how to deal with suicidal thoughts, Christianity and maths. ?❤️?????????❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️?

134-03.05.2021 Still in detox. It wasn’t hard to not to be on social media or porn. But I had A LOT suicidal thoughts today. I really felt emotional pain. It was really hard but I am at some low percent a Christian and the thought that I probably could go to hell because of suicide pulled me always towards distancing me from this thoughts. Also I don’t like the idea to give up because it’s getting hard and to bring this emotional pain to all the people I loved. After hours of strong depressing feelings I prayed to god for the first time since to years and after that I felt like I’m a super hero. Then I topped my record from 15 push ups and did for the first time since October 20 push ups. Why did I feel so bad? It’s because my parents are pulling me into competitive mathematics (I like mathematics but I hate this competitive stuff) with high pressure so I’d spend my whole time after school doing these mathematics where I’m not even learning things. I would rather study with my own sources and not just to get high points. So I feared that they could make me wasting my school time and pressure me into becoming an engineer even if I don’t want that. But it’s just victim mentality (I’m feeling guilty by writing this because I suffered so much on this). First I need to improve my strategy. I can do that by starting walking in the park again. There I’ll get a free mind. Then I need to do the basics at first and not get caught up in distractions. See you tomorrow❤️❤️❤️❤️? Peace?????❤️???

Day 8-01.05.2021 Still in. It’s eashy to start learning but need to let my thoughts be without distracting them and me.

Day 133-01.05.2021 Yesterday I failed Nofap but I’m still noporn because of social media detox. It was very hard but it helped me to just observe my thoughts and feelings. I learned that it isn’t so easy as I thought it would be. Also I send two resumes for side jobs yesterday. Since I started the social media detox my work ethic started to come back. Today I studied a lot of maths and about good exercises for my back. I learned that I don’t really need free time without electronic distraction so I’m a bit of a workaholic right now. Lol. SO GET EFFICIENT! For tomorrow the same principle: Choose one task (if needed for a set amount of time). Then there is just this task in reality. There are complains and distractions but they can be here but they can be while I’m focused on the task. Some other principles: It’s not really nice to plan with time. Better make a to do list to be more flexible. See you tomorrow ? Peace❤️

Day 6 Still in. Today I studied chemistry but like the schools want you to study it. Just remembering and recalling because our chemistry teacher wants to test us about “chemistry vocabulary”. It was fun because I learned with Anki for the first time. Also I studied about how to relief shoulder pain and it helped me.

Day 131-29.04.2021 I’m still in the social media detox. It was really easy today. Maybe it’s because I had to watch a YouTube video because my teacher told us to do it. But it’s allowed. Today the school day was almost easy. I just failed to be concentrated towards the end so I needed quite long for the last assignment. Because it didn’t fit in my schedule I didn’t go for a walk today but it’s okay. Also I could have used my free time more efficiently (this is optional because there are just 5 things on my schedule). But how? I think the first step is to just play yu gi oh and relax my muscles because they are a bit cramped by sitting. Then I need to do mental training and then I can practice vocabulary. And as always: Don’t overthink at first. Just choose one thing and a set amount of time if needed and do just this task. No What’s App no complains because I am fault for the feelings I have about this situation. Treat it like a meditation. And if I have strong fap urges, think like this: I am fault because I fapped a lot. But wait that’s just a feeling in my body! I’m not that! Wow I can just feel and observe it. I don’t have to do anything. I can just watch this feeling and treat it like thoughts at meditation. Treat it like Leo told he treated the urge to eat unhealthy food in his video about addiction! See you tomorrow? Peace❤️

Day 5 I’m still in. I want to introduce a principle for studying more efficiently: First I choose a topic I want to study. Then I choose a set amount of time for studying. During this time I just focuse on the topic and treat it likes meditation. I let thoughts and complains be while researching. Another mindset for personal problems while studying: It’s my fault that I have the problem. I caused it and I can learn knowledge to change it.

Day 130-28.04.2021 Today it was a lot easier with school. I was for almost every subject focused and I had a lot more free time. I just failed at geographics. It’s the same principle: focus just on this task like in a meditation. Then I did a nice walk outside but after that I was really inefficient because I was a lot distracted. So maybe at studying the same principle: focus on just one thing until it’s done, no distractions and no complaining. Also I had difficulties with dealing with the free time. I should structure that too. If I have free time I could play 1 round you gi oh then do mental training then excircises and if I want I can start focused studying then. See you tomorrow? Peace❤️

Day 4 Still in but inefficient. I studied chemistry today and I would like to continue tomorrow but just focusing on THIS topic.

Day 129-27.04.2021 Still in social media detox and nofap. It’s awesome. There’s so much free time. The next step is to use this time more efficient because I think I’m wasting a lot of time by doing things unfocused. So I want to compare my planned schedule with my done schedule and try to find learnings for planing and doing. First I woke up at 7am and everything worked perfectly until 8am. Then the school started. I think I’m very inefficient at school because a lot of tasks take me so much longer than they should. At history everything worked well until I started to write an essay: then I got distracted a lot and it was stressful. I wasn’t finished as the chemistry conference started. The chemistry conference was a desaster because I haven’t done the homework and everything in the conference was about the homework. But the teacher didn’t realised that I haven’t done it. After that we had a German conference and I couldn’t really participate because I’m not really good at analysing poems. After the conference I finished history but I just couldn’t finish the German task. So I did school till 2:40pm (I think I did a 30min break at 1pm because I was exhausted). Then I went to my physiotherapist and went for a walk. It was perfect. Then I played a board game with my family and we had a dispute. That costed me energy from my study session so I was inefficient there too. I just learned a bit for chemistry and half finished the German task. And now I’m here writing. My lessons from today: I need rules for studying and school. The first rule is make a to do list of tasks you have to do. Then choose JUST ONE exercise and just focus on that. Don’t complain, don’t try to speed up, don’t choose other topics to read. If you get finished during the 90min choose ONE next task. Don’t complain and don’t switch subjects unless it’s a creative exercise and you have a block. The same for conferences: there’s just this conference and nothing else. Treat it like a meditation focus on your breathing, let the thoughts be, think of the task and build up momentum. The same for the study session: choose a topic and a set amount of time and just focus on that and not on the distraction. That’s it at first. I’ll do it tomorrow like that and then I can collect new learnings. See you tomorrow? Peace❤️

Day 128-26.04.2021 I‘m still in my detox. It feels quite well but I often have some urges to get back. I have a lot time to study right now. I’ve been able to learn for school and to read a book the whole evening. It feels relaxed. But I also had urges for porn and fapping. That was a great opportunity to try out the swish-technique from tony Robbins. It worked really well:Every time I have the urge to fap I get the image in mind of what I could accomplish through nofap. And then the urge stops or gets much much weaker and I have energy to continue doing what I wanted to do. Now I want to plan for tomorrow (exercise about leisure from Digital Minimalism): 7am-get up 7am-7:40am do morning stuff like showering 7:40am meditation and breathing exercise 8:00am start school, work a 90min-15min rythm with a goal for each session plan what to accomplish 12am eat lunch 1pm continue studying (if time do sports) 1:30pm do a break 2pm-2:40pm summarise what you’ve learned 2:40pm drive to physiotherapist 3:50pm do a walk and have free time 5pm-7:00pm study (school or read books) ( break for dinner) 7pm-7:30pm mental training 7:30pm-8:30pm free time (read a book, tidy up the room, play a board game and do stretching) 8:30pm-10pm write Journal and meditate 10pm go to bed

Day 3-26.04.2021 It works well. I‘m reading Digital Minimalism and a book from Tony Robbins. I‘ve also learned for french exam today.

Day 2-25.04.2021 On the last two days I followed the habit of studying. I read the book Digital Minimalism and I started a Digital Decluttering process

Day 127-25.04.2021 Today I started a 30 day social media declutterring challenge with the goal to minimize my social media use to having more time, willpower and attention for following the habits I have after reducing my schedule (see Day 125). Now I want to list the things I’m not allowed to use and the things I’m allowed to use; I’m not allowed to use: •YouTube (except of exceptions) •Instagram, Facebook and this stuff •Netflix •video games •porn •entertainment books •music apps •television Exceptions I’m allowed to use: •websites for school •ebook for self help books •vocabulary apps •actualized.org but JUST for the journal •YouTube videos for school or for watching videos where world class athletes perform (to use a technique from Tony Robbins) The first day was easy but I had cravings to watch YouTube. Tomorrow I want to read further in the book of Cal Newport. See you tomorrow? Peace❤️

Day 4-23.04.2021 I studied today but I didn’t study at 5am because I wanted to play a video game. It would be ok if I did it for a better reason but I didn’t it.And I was very distracted. So tomorrow I will start from day 1 again. ❌ Today I read the book from Cal Newport about Digital Minimalism. Here’s what I learned: •I’m addicted to my phone not because I’m just lazy •I’m addicted because there are high paid ingeneers that invent highly effective strategies to hold me on my phone as long as possible •they are really good at it because they’ve studied a lot about that and they do it for a living • I was unconscious about this fact and I didn’t strategised agains their strategy