Preetom

but...but I was promised a personal paradise where dozens of hoes are waiting for me

The conventional idea of death is a folly. What is it that really dies? The body? But isn't this flesh doll already dead? What is conventionally regarded as death ain't death at all. The only way to understand the full import of the word death is to wake up.

''Sometimes I sits and thinks. Sometimes I just sits''

The cancer of orange materialism probably won't banish without a serious physical/psychological mass crisis. Just like it took world wars to grow out of red and blue.

They consciously/unconsciously separated themselves out as individual subjects and thus started to know a distinct object for the first time. That was the first fall. Adam and Eve are literally the parents of all egos aka objective knowledge! Mind=blown

Notice how you framed this. A confusion is here because you are still seeing a distinction between us and ''your consciousness''. As long as there is consciousness ''of something'', so long this nagging paradox will seem unresolvable. Notice that there is no 'something' you can separate out and point towards.

Recognizing and establishing the primacy of Awareness

The battle of psychics

are you a psychic?

Yes it is! I'm awe-inspired again and again how things come into pieces from all angles in this direct path. Surrender(Real bhakti yoga) and Self-Inquiry(Jnana yoga) are 2 names for the same 'practice' of being. The Prema (Dissolution into absolute love) you get from surrender and the Jnana(self-realization) you get from self-inquiry are one and the same outcome. Self-inquiry chases that knowledge with which everything is known to the Source. That Jnana itself is refracted through the ego as subject-object dualistic knowledge. While Bhakti is unconditional surrender that takes us to the Source of that unquestionable love we have for our own self, the bliss of our Self. That Love itself is similarly refracted through the ego as our constant sense of lack and subsequent search of happiness outside of ourselves.

Where is my cookie?

@MM1988 One is surrendering oneself to a higher entity but yet can't surrender the silly stuff they can asking/begging? That's like the ego has come back through the back door lol The true Bhakti yoga is not adoration for an external entity but to inquire into the unquestionable, primal love one feels for oneself. It's about following that self-love to it's source. Asking for stuff to God is spiritual materialism. The first rule of Bhakti yoga is to cut that shit. There is no bhakti yoga before that. Just like there is no Jnana Yoga(self-inquiry) until one isn't open to investigate the possibility that he/she might not be the body-mind. By this point, prayer and meditation are merged without any distinction whatsoever. The highest prayer=The highest meditation=Being aware of being aware=Being=I AM

The unfortunate irony of these studies and models is that they don't recognize the futility of trying to explain a 1st order reality with a 2nd order reality. It's like my character in my dream (let's name him Joe) frantically searching for the place and time of origin of the world he finds himself in; without realizing that the very concepts of time and space are 2nd order of projections of his own overmind. 1) Scientists study brain waves and deludes themselves into thinking that they are studying Consciousness 2) Scientists studying and building amotic models and thinks that they are discovering the TRUTH of Existence 3) People see how 'enlightened' people behave or seem to act and correlate that with actual Truth-realization is it surprising that so much misconception exist in this field?

@Enlightenment 1) Reduction in self referential thoughts 2) Change in the sense of self/expansion beyond the head 3) Being one with with visual and auditory field 4) Loss of sense of agency 5) Severe memory deficit 6) inability to make decisions so on and so forth... You are nitpicking on the symptoms of the disease man! But what is the DISEASE?? There could be dozens of other diseases that share these symptoms mutually. But what is THE DISEASE? Something that comes or something that is newly acquired is sure to get lost eventually

HERE WE GO (02-03-2019)

Oh thanks for writing this one. This cracked me up big time I think almost all the misconceptions about enlightenment has come from misinterpretations and undervaluing of what that term really means. More than 99% would consider a glorious meditation sit, a runner's high, an ejaculative dream, an intimate bonding with a partner/pet, accomplishing of some goal redeemed impossible at first, reading and agreeing with some spiritual/philosophical text/theory or even a good night's sleep as a moment of enlightenment lol. In that sense, you can have millions of people getting enlightened every single hour The way I see Enlightenment, how it was originally explored and proposed, is a 'state' of Truth- that which is. It's an irreversible breakthrough after which an ego can never arise again with it's objective identification mechanism. That absolute truth realization must alone prevail. No buts or exceptions can remain after that. It's literally the end of the game. Done means done. If not, then you're not done yet oh enlightened master/mistress. Seeing from this standard, we can easily see how the number of 'enlightened' people would probably never rise above few hundreds; not billions of every other average joe who has read the power of now or snorted some powder and feels him/her as the 2nd coming of buddha or whatever

He has no propaganda against psychedelics or anything. But the direct path he advocates doesn't consider any particular tradition, substance, process, belief, meditation etc. as particularly necessary to know and be what one actually is. Just like you don't necessarily 'need' a royal comfy bed, a fancy headphone with exotic music playing, people pampering your limbs in order to fall asleep and have a good night sleep. We all can sleep happily and naturally as it is one of our inherent nature as biological units.

Leo might be going through heavy existential crisis. what he envisioned exactly 3 years ago might be hitting him hard big time But I'm sure he'll be back out of ashes, reborn and liberated.

Will Science Ever be able to explain Consciousness? No. The explanation of Consciousness is not in itself Consciousness.

@Viking This is really an existential issue and no 'one trick pony' will cross us over the sea at one go. The 'suck it up' approach does have it's place and function, especially for those stuck in a rut for a long time. But if it's the only strategy, then congratulations are forthcoming on being pregnant with 100s of neuroses in the following years!! This right here really needs some looking. If you really want to pursue something, then why do you have to fight against the currents of your own self? What is actually going on here? I remember a quote from Nathaniel Branden ''Humans are the only species that can formulate a set of values and pursue the completely opposite of that'' ''As humans, we are given with an extraordinary responsibility from nature. We can either brighten or dim the light of consciousness. No other species have this burden'' So it is a consciousness issue. Maybe the desires/values are inauthentic. Maybe an illusory, parasitic entity living on this internal conflict. Whatever the issue is, it is always a search for a release. What is this release and what are the conditions we want release from

I will surrender peacefully only when I win!! - ego 2k19

what is your definition of a successfully lived life? An absence of self referential thoughts that evaluate life

and you experienced all of it only through yourself(awareness), the only common thread