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@SourceCodo Very insightful response. You've added absolutely nothing to the discussion. I'm sitting at a desk in a perceived reality - are you existing in a perceived reality?

@flyingwhalee What? This is a discussion center. What do you know about my experiences? Did you bother asking what I have tried and what experiences I have had? Or perhaps did you consider why I would feel confident poking some fun at this topic in the first place?

David is well presented and articulate. A lot of what he shares requires expertise in many source texts but the concepts in their pure forms are quite lovely.

Lucid dreaming expert would be cool. Just a springboard.

Read the room... Free will means free people. It’s the people. Visualize the concept of us being nature incarnate. A step in evolution grown from unconscious, viscous animals that chose to exploit to survive. We unfortunately still carry some of those traits deep in the (idk) and we are still evolving. You don’t know what god is and you’re shouting into the void about something that you’ll have to act on if you want it to get better. Do something. god, it’s been a pleasure speaking with you.

I am so sorry for your loss and the grief is so hard to overcome... But you will be able to do it eventually, take this time for the mourning of your mother and celebrate her life. I think the most motivating thing you could do is imagine what kind of life you would want for a child of your own if you were to pass. It takes bravery but if you can manage it, that may be powerful. This is just my opinion, but It would surely be a self actualized and embracer of life. Someone who built themselves up and overcame grief and life’s obstacles to find happiness after losing a mother. Perhaps someone who is very happy but allows a range of emotions as a fact of life. If anything, Just remember she would want you to be happy. ?❤️

Ok. Here’s my advice as a starting point. I don’t have any credibility to stand on so take it with a grain of salt. I’m also just intuiting this with my bias and background experience, do your best to find something to relate to in my words. Don’t reject anything, just explore it and find empathy for why I would say that. Focus on a few self development habits and stick to them for a long time. This will build confidence in your ability to stick to things and not tread on the surface too much. This “treading on the surface behavior” is indicated by your many and shuffling interests. It’s a cool trait and allows you to explore more than most, but you’ll have to stick to something long term if you’re after a sense of purpose. Alas, Forget the purpose storyline until you’re further down the road in life. Instead focus on developing your self awareness up into the 85-95 range (self assessed). This means authentic self confidence beyond the mess of external relations. You’ll get to a point past arbitrary goal setting via grandiose life plans and find you. You. You outside of all of the noise in your life. You outside all of your attachments and addictions. The calm you that sits in reflection wondering who it was that was living before this self and how he could have imagined he would dictate the rest of the story. You’ll transform into someone entirely the same, but entirely different. ok. Once you’re here, you’re likely at a place of transcending the worlds issues and letting life be as it is. You’ve probably really gotten to know yourself and your interests and you’ve likely garnered a lot of really cool world experiences with heightened abilities to relate to people and have empathy for the things you saw while traveling and being involved in the worldly life. That’s a cool place to be. 90ish on a self awareness scale and transcendence scale (total bullshit, just trying to illustrate the idea of multiple facets of the personality needing work). I think that would be an ideal time to reflect on your values, reflect on what makes you happy and how you could help yourself or the world in a meaningful way. You’ll know yourself better and be even smarter and better equipped to make those decisions at that time. Now go meditate on detachment from the need for all of the nonsense. It’s just part of the game you’re playing right now. Transcend it for a bit and enjoy the show. Kittens, rainbows and dragons ? This could all be a rambling biased crock of shit too. I’m slowly dying and trying to take meaning with me into the big nuthouse in the sky. All while having total immersion in the experience. Why the fuck am I giving advice on the internet? Somebody get a stick and hit me in the face with it.

Samaneri Jayasara (so many recitations of epic teachers)

What is your favorite movie? What is your favorite book? What is your biggest complaint about other people? What is your biggest complaint about your own behavior? What are the biggest problems that you recognize in the world? What did you spend most of your daydream time as a youth daydreaming about? Do you want to engage with society and help build more of what we've been building or would you like a more isolated and lazy type lifestyle? Have you spent time mapping out your personality and interests? Things that make you happy, things that annoy you, etc. Who in your peer group (anyone working on something) has the coolest professions? What are the top 3? Do you expect a purpose to be everlasting and unchanging or does it flow with your own development? Rate your emotional and cognitive self awareness on a scale of 1-100 I don't know you, but if you answer these questions I’ll throw some totally random ideas at you - might trigger a thought in you that leads to something you like. Sometimes we just need to see something to unlock the gate that is creative self awareness. As life progresses, the depth of your experience will illuminate new pathways that were previously unseen. Your purpose is predestined insomuch as your thoughts are the foundation of dependent origination (as far as I can tell). Just gotta build that unwavering commitment to accomplish your goals in the face of any and every adversity. Cheers.