Deconstruct

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  1. Hey guys. Any tips on how to do it right and grow some fucking balls for once in my life and ACTUALLY doing it? And why am I ALWAYS being such a pussy, god damn it. So, i went to this big weird store which were some kind of grocery store mixed with being a utility supply store. Looking for a lock for my locker room in school. Anyways... i noticed a cute girl organizing some shelves close to the cash register. I didn't think much of it cuz i didn't think i would ask her out yet. it was just a quick glimpse and saw she was cute. Then i entered the store, looking for that lock. While i were looking for the lock i noticed it wasn't a lot of people around cuz the store were about to close. Found the lock, time to get out. On my way to checkout... I saw NOBODY were at the checkout beside her and noticed EVEN MORE how cute she is! i was like... oh damn, this is a good opportunity to ask someone out. Because of how bad i am at handling social-pressure, cuz thinking people will judge me like "Don't do this afront of me please" "what the fuck are you doing?" "Haha, you got rejected". But it would be none of that this time! So i felt a bit emboldened knowing this. Thinking I HAVE TO ask her... While i was moving toward the cash register... i was thinking... what should i say and ask? and HOW you say it! Not much time left, so this will be my thought proccess. i'll be clear on my intent. look her in the eye... she will feel and know that i want her. See if she feels the same way (Happened once in my life, didn't succeed btw). Times up. I approach the register, thinking real quick... this is what i'll say "Hey, I thought you were cute. would you like to go on a date to getter for a ice cream?". Yes, this will be it, this is what i'll say! Now standing infront of her. hearing her voice "Hey", I say a good hey back. very normally, like nothing is going on. Also, her hey sounded good. I'm trying to bring my fucking eyes to meet hers but i didn't. well, i did but not in the way i wanted to. I was too fast! a quick look of the face and... i looked away. no detail of the face. can't even remember if we looked at each other. Seeing her looking down at the cash register typing on it. Thinking... fuck it! bring her attention to you somehow, til she meet me in the eye and say it! stand there couple of millisecond so that she has to look me! NOW! DO IT! ... Abort, thinking... something is wrong with my line or the way i act. walked away. now thinking, pfft, she probably gave a hint or a sign that she isn't interested that i just missed. Her by not being enthusiast about it. or she had no idea whats going on and i'm overthinking about everything. Now left wondering.. could it been something or were i dead from the start. i just can't bust through it and execute on this and say it. felt like i was 90% commited to do it like i was about to shake cuz of nervousness but the 10% killed me. A guy who is experienced and know what he is doing would have taken this opportinity with ease. it was such a golden opportunity. I'm thinking i will try it again. next time she works there. good idea or bad? i'm open to anything for your guys opinion. i'm thinking i will need some serious help with this. thinking boot-camp or looking more into advice in this forum in the dating section area, books, courses. and take those material to heart.
  2. @Realms of Wonder Yeah, I know you are right. Its just so frustrating and i lose sight, knowing i should have been more committing to fix this issue. Being harsh towards one self is not gonna be productive and just gonna create suffering. i'll be more kinder to myself. I don't know. That i'll be very crippled of a person if I don't steer myself into becoming a better man? Or the fear that you mention that i have, which you are very right about. i guess i need to do some serious introspection figuring out where that fear comes from and what is it about? i need to learn about shadow work. Yup, master the basics. Yeah... "Not feeling worthy" which Leo mentioned in his videos "How to get laid" series. yeah i'm studying to become pastry chef. which i think i would enjoy working at, aslo so i can hold a stady job too. Thae i save up some money to move into the bigger city. Sorry for taking so long to respond. havne't slept much lattely. @Raze Thanks for sharing. i'll be sure to look into it. i'll do my best!