mafez

Hi I am 23 years old and I am new to the forum, been doing Self-actualisation for more than 3 years and I had some amazing results from Leo teachings, I just want to debate a problem about the relationship, I am in a relationship with somebody that is 12 years older than me and been together for 4 years and we do have a boy together somewhere along the line back in days I thought that this thing will satisfy me, fulfil me, I've got in this relationship naively from a place of needles she had 2 more kids with I am fine with them and I love them but I want some private time they are everywhere, i am at the point where I just wanna pack my bag and leave but I love my son to much for doing this I love him she does not seem to care about me, my study, work outside for what she needs , i want to make some friends i know the importance of my age , this may sound selfish but i am fine with it , i want to start leaving my life different dysfunctional since childhood had somewhere head and forgive myself for not knowing better , but now its this problem that if i leave her she will broken , the kids also and if i stay i am so miserable that i cant leave with myself she is 35 she has leaved her youth but i dont see importance of being here anymore just for my son but as 2 more and her are in here i feel miserable for not having much time for myself , i am in pain and struggling a lot for the past 2 moths , i am looking for kid and conscious advice from somebody that may have been in the same situation before .

nowadays you can BS your way into a system easily for a matter of time just get anything, for now, make a resume that does exceed your current status bs your way into it you need some money to live with so do that but don't put all your eggs in one basket if you know what I mean, you are responsible for your action.