Hulia

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  1. @seeking_brilliance I bet, the majority of Trump voters belong to those who rely on their intuition This is how propaganda works. I cannot beleive, I don´t have this mechanismus in my brain. Whether I know that something is true or I assume that something might be true. This assumption is probably what you call intuition. But it´s not a beleive it´s an assumption.
  2. @seeking_brilliance :))))))) I try to be open-minded. But I still prefer a scientific approach over blind faith. Faith is always blind, it´s a definition of faith
  3. @Himalaya I guess this decent woman shared with you what body working is before doing that nice exercises.
  4. I hope, you meant it ironically. Because exactly this is a reason, why knowledge is better than ignorance. Otherwise how do you know , that you are moving in right direction, that your mind/ your ego is not playing games on you. Please tell me nothing abou intuition. It´s so widely misunderstood, almost as bad as the god.
  5. @Mindfang413 I just opened youtube and entered "Leo Gura" Et voila! THe 5th video in my list was this one. I just watched it myself. It was exactly the right video in the right moment. I recommend it very much
  6. Maybe it wouldn´t. Maybe! But maybe it would. But you´ve predefined already everything. Exactly like my mother...
  7. No. No physyical, no metaphysical or whatsoever. Nobody´s there. The awareness which is aware of itself. It´s more accurate. Since you are right, the awareness and the appearences are the same.
  8. There is this popular example with the cinema. Imagine, you are in the cinema and watching the movie. You see people, cars, trees. But they are just the projection on the screen. And now go further. There is no projector, no screen, no spectator. The pictures (nor sure, this is the right word) come from nowhere to nowhere for nobody. In nothingness. I hope, I wasn´t inaccurate in the explanation, since I haven´t had direct experience.
  9. @Jay Ray I think you should do it, no matter what your reasons are. What is really important: Don´t await a gratitude.
  10. Do you know, what I do if a thought of him emerges (they still do!). I imagine that I have 1 Mio $ on my bank account and register that its just a thought that strikes an emotion, not the realitiy. The same with the thoughts about him (so absurd). If I think something of the kind "He loves me"- Bang! An imaginary debit on imaginary account in an imaginary bank. If I think something of the kind "He doesn´t love me, he never did. Nobody ever did" - Bang! An imaginary credit on imaginary account in an imaginary bank. And then it makes no sense. Love cannot be portioned on accounts. There are no banks for it. No sense to earn and save imaginary dollars for imaginary bills to come. With this method I can keep my thoughts out, just a milimeter away from my forehead. But they are still there, like a swam of bees, ready to attack every moment and sting the chest and the stomach with emotions.
  11. "Transference (German: Übertragung) is a phenomenon within psychotherapy in which the feelings a person has about their parents, as one example, are unconsciously redirected or transferred onto the therapist. It usually concerns feelings from a primary relationship during childhood." Wikipedia Was she your therapist? I had once an amazing dream. Later on we married (not a dream). Each of us. One night I suddenly found myself in his flat in the living room. He lied down on the sofa. I joined him. The sofa was narrow as they are, there wasn´t enough place for me so I shifted down and laid my head on his hip. We both were quiet didn´t exchange a word just were enjoying the presence of each other. And fell asleep. We were waken up by his wife. She entered the living room and switched on the light. She tore us out of sleep abruptly. What a strange situation, how could I get into this? What to say to her, how to explain? But she didn´t even look at me. She spoke and spoke and spoke. He gave her tired and short answers. She was annoyed but not because of me. What struck me suddenly: she doesn´t see me! Even my friend seemed to forget that I am here and neglected me completely. Such a strange experience. I went past them, nobody taking a notice of me, through the living room into the corridor and out of the flat. I went downstairs into the yard. It was early morning, the light was grey, the yard was empty, I didn´t know what to do and where to go. I just wandered in the yard and looked at everything. It was one of that 3-dimentional and very real dreams. I am almost sure I was really there - in that flat and in that yard.
  12. I don´t like this word "god" in the lectures of Leo. Because god he speaks about has nothing to do with the commonly understood idea of god. 99% of religious people, I know, misunderstand god so deeply so that, I think, they have even less chance for awakening than the atheists. Even more - I know people who had been more spiritual and pure before they detected the church and the priests and all that manipulative concepts of god. Again my personal obervation is, that these are mostly people with a weak ego who search rescue in religion. Weak ego is hard to abandon, it resists.
  13. @Himalaya OK, I´ll tell you my story. Yes, I had something of that kind too. Many times of non-separateness with a man. But one night was special. I was in my bed and felt his presence as many times before. But I felt also that his attention was not on me. It was like he were in my room just doing his stuff and being aware that I am there too. I didn´t know what "his stuff" was but I perceived it like he was conducting an orchestra rising with the melody higher and higher. With that feeling of his presence and "sweet soft lovingness" I fell asleep. I woke up in the night in all senses of the word. Different to other times before it was not for him, by him, with him... Because there was no him. There wasn´t even me. Or everything was me. ME, ME, ME! The walls of my room, the warddrobe, the lanterns outside were dissolving, flowing, glowing.. If I have to describe it by 2 words. They are: I EXIST. No more qustions, no more doubts. I EXIST. I guess, my friend had a very deep enlightenment that night, I´ve got a glimpse. But I wasn´t prepaired, I had no clue. I was not concious. Later I read the books about it, tried to meditate ( withouts much success), did yoga. I had some precious moments of blissfulness. But I have never had such an intensive insight any more.
  14. @Himalaya Aren´t you sad that you are not in relationship with her?
  15. @LastThursday Yes, that is what I am thinking. But before you get there - where being happy is not dependent on the situation - it doesn´t help much to think what you should feel or shouldn´t feel. It is as it is. In my case it felt good to move from my parents. Though I have a very caring and decent family. But my mother is a kind of person who needs concepts about everything including my humble self. I think, this is what oppressed me unconsiously. I felt like escaping a cage when I moved at the age of 16, though I had always more freedoms than any of my friends. The rigid concept of me, which my mother maintained, all that expectations and desperations... I am even not sure if I don´t do the same in relation to my daughter. Definitely I do. I definitely do have a concept of her. Damn, is it difficult not to have. But at least I am aware of it and take it as my problem, not hers. All in all I think Bliss should move out. P.S.: But the funny thing is that everything is a concept and in the first place ME. A concept_of_ME_having_a mother_which_has_A concept_of_ME Crazy merry-go-round
  16. @LastThursday It´s just not the end of the story. Live alone until you're sick of it and then live with people until you're sick of it and then live alone until you're sick of it and then live with people until you're sick of it.... to be continued
  17. As a cartoon movie I recommend "SpongeBob". He never feels bad neither about himself no others. And if he does, it´s always a fun and adventure. As a book a recommend "Shantaram" by Gregor David Roberts. You´ll forget yourself while reading the story, it is so captivating and incomprehensible. Almost impossible to beleive that something of that kind can really happen to somebody.
  18. I think, thoughts without emotions are compleeeeetely ok. If the thoughts notice that they dont´t strike any emotion, they piss off. Because.. what´s the point? I´d say all that unwanted thoughts, they come for your emotions. Thought without emotions are ok, emotions without thoughts are great. But this mix together: thoughts AND emotions is a poison.
  19. I really wish, Leo answers your question. Till then I´ll try to share me experience: 1. First of all, get rid of people who makes you feel uneasy. Weak ego is a sweet bait for all kind of manipulators. I observe very often people with weak ego getting used and abused by arseholes. Don´t be gracefull with arseholes. Off of them! 2. After step 1 you probably won´t have a lot of people around you. Maybe even nobody. You will have to live on your own. "Dee do de de, dee do de de. I get so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely, yeah!" You´ll have nobody to ask advice. You´ll have to make all decisions and all choices yourself and cope with their consequences on your own. Some of them will be good, the others - bad. It doesn´t matter. What matters, you´ll get psycological independance. Some day other people´s opinions won´t play a great role for you any more. But it may take you years. I wish Leo answers you. Because I wish, somebody had told me 15 years ago what I heard from Leo recently: To get rid of ego you have to make it strong at first. Because weak ego resists too much. I wish, I knew it then, and focused on ego (what you a re going to do) instead of haunting a glimpse of enlightment.
  20. Me else! I dreamt about India for almost 2 years after I had been there for just 2 days on business trip. I was always with somebody else - parents, relatives, friends, colleagues, I took quite a crowd of people over there with me. And each time we were on our way home but we nevere got there - we stuck in the traffic, lost our way, were to tired or whatsoever... These dreams stopped as abruptly as they began. In my last dream I was getting into the air plane to fly to India, but they checked the visas at the entrance and sorted me out. My colleagues took the flight without me. I wish, I could go back to India and understand, what happened 18 years ago. But I am a little afraid. Afraid that something happened, but also that nothing happened.
  21. Hello Leo, I have a question to you. Your videos helped me to see the nature of thought. Now I am able to shut the door in front of them any time I want to. Unbelievable how easy I can do it now in term of seconds! I don´t even need to sit into meditation. But! I feel the pressure at the shut door. It´s a permanent subtle anxiety. Something of the kind: general uncertainty about future? It´s always there, sometimes more sometimes less. My main emotion, a background. You told, it´s all about survival. How can I get rid of it? Of this disturbing background emotion? After I have learned to stop the flow of thoughts I´ve got rid of a bunch of other emotions: first of all - sadness and disapointment (completely!), but also anger (partially), envy, and so on.. But the anxiety is always there. I aso don´t quite understand the connection between the thoughts and the emotions. What is prior? You told sometimes emotions and sometimes thoughts? But what is determining this order? Maybe you have a video about connection betwenn emotions and thoughts.? Thank you!
  22. It´s a matter of perspective. Who wants to understand that time is an illusion? If it is a human being, I don´t know your name, for example, Tony Smith, than it´s nonsense, Because time is not an illusion for Tony Smith. For Tony Smith there was a start - his birth, and there will be an end - his death, and the aging inbetween. To understand that time is an illusion you need to understand that everything is an illusion including yourself. First of all YOUR SELF is an illusion. It´s like your are sleeping and dreaming that you are running from a monster. And this running creature tries his/her best to understand that a monster is an illusion. But it´s not a point. A point is to understand that EVERYTHING is a dream. Then the monster won´t matter. I know it, because I often had the nightmares as a child with monsters, murderes, corpses, I was lying in the bed and trembling. Since 10-15 years I haven´t had a single nightmare. I still dream sometimes of monsters, murderers, corpses. But now I don´t mind the blockbusters in the nights, I find them entertaining. In the background there is always an awareness of dreaming. (Isn´t it funny, that the only difference between "end" and "and" is only one letter which sounds almost the same? Sorry, it seems I´ve found a good platform for amazing conversation with myself and improving my English skills at the same time)
  23. No issue with health. I´m just thinking aloud. It´s a strange thing, in one video Leo proposed to close the eyes and imagine 1 Mio $ on my account, which I did. And bingo! I´ve grasped it at once. And I was healed from the lovesickness. I saw so clear, that it was just a thought of me which created a thought of him - nothing real. Such a useless nonsense! What is real never changed all these year always there. How strange is it? The thought of 1 mio $ helped me to understand and overcome the heartsickness but not the financial / material insecurity, the sense of insecurity..
  24. Hi PurpleTree. I think now, it was rather egoistic question: all about the emotional comfort of the ego - the first and the last thought, which is so difficult to abandon, almost impossible. I have no clue, how to do it. This fall into comlete uncertainty. I cannot even imagine, that I will ever dare it..