Hulia

@Hulia I wasn´t sure, if it was really necessary to breath in such a weird manner to contemplate? It´s like watching TV upside down or something like that.. But who knows. I try to be open-minded! On the other hand I admire a headstand. A headstand is also a weird thing, isn´t it? But it´s good for my head. If you think about it for another moment. What is not weird? Everything is weird. I was drinking water recently and thought what I am doing right now is the most weird thing... and not a headstand

During I rather saw it.. but maybe also thought and felt - or alltogether. I think it was the same: a screen of a computer or a screen of my eyelids Words or images... How? I knew it yesterday but today I am not sure. Even if there are no words, there are some images, even if there are no images, there are some shadows, some potentials ready to become images or words Why did you open the eyes as soon as you stopped breathing? It was not quite as soon, Maybe 5 minutes later. I exagertated with a duvet yesterday. It was very thick and heavy, and then the other one, they pressed me against the floor, it was a bit uncomfortable and still too cold. But I enjoy the moment I stop breathing and all the warmth coming back into my body like submerging into the warm bath. But then it was too hot. Because youtube is a video channel and they show some pictures while playing music. At first I thought, these are some arabic or sanscrit symbols, but then I saw the mathematical equations. I was overwhelmed. Because I saw that not only words and images are the same but also mathematcal equations.

@Muhammad Jawad What music do you listen to during shamanic breathing? I listened to this one. I like it very much. But now I want to do it more than 30 min. So I want to change to a longer music.

@Muhammad Jawad Yesterday during shamanic breathing I was contemplating about duality. The posts of this forum popped up in my mind. I saw dualitiy melting into non-duality. It was so beautiful! I was glad, we have this duality thing. Later I thought, I should stop thinking and loughed, because I saw so clearly that thinking and not thinking is the same. But now I cannot explain it any more. After 30 min. my shamanic music ended and another one began. When I ended the breathing and opened the eyes and saw this picture on youtube screen

I didn´t even think that there would be a discussion of this topic. Are you crazy? Enlightenment is the best thing that can ever happen! As somebody told to me: "I am fine even when I am not fine" I know so much about enlightenment without being enlightend myself, you can ask me anything!

@kras For me the great comfort is that I can stop any second I wish. So I procede

I have no idea, what Leo´s flaws are. But I sometimes wonder, how he decides, what discussions are silly and need to be closed and what not. For me they seem all silly or all not silly.

True :-) Another good application: Hot summer days and nights. 2 years ago we had sometimes 40 degrees in shadow, I couldn´t sleep in the night with all the windows open and me lying on the floor. Shamanic breathing will be definitely a help!

The violet sun, that I saw on the screen of my closed lids, was the same as in your profile picture. Yesterday I did the breathing for 40 min. After 30 min. my body began to become stony, rigid and numb. Beginning with the feet and hands and gaining slowly all the other parts. There was a feeling of sparateness from body. And it was still extremly cold even under 2 warm duvets, I thought, I had ice on my lips. Another new experience... But so what? It´s still not the awakening. Though it might be a help for a normal life. I think, I have now less tension in the chest and can better breath. Deeper and freeer. It´s easier to jog now.

While watching his videos I try to bend my fingers like he does. But I can´t!

If Leo hadn´t be rational I wouldn´t stop here. But I think, I understand what you mean, or maybe not

If God created you (Soul/Being/Consciousness) than there should be a beginning of you (Soul/Being/Consciousness). Do you feel like you haven´t been always existing? That there was a time (time???) without you (Soul/Being/Consciousness), before you (Soul/Being/Consciousness) have been created?

To be honest this is where I have always been unsure too. But on the other I have never had a real samadhi. So this is a very theoretical topic for me. But you know what samadhi is and you are stil not convinced that you are God.

Oh really? I`ll watch it

I once watched a documentary about the scientists who got mad and why it happened to them. Very interesting by the way! One of them was a mathematician, I forgot all the names, his intuition was that the infinities should be different in sizes. A crazy assumption for his time. He was just one step away from proving it mathematically. And that is what has driven him mad. He was too obsessed by bringing his theory to the end, but he never managed to make this last step. Some years later other mathematicians could prove his theory.

THis is exactly what I was telling to me yesterday: Hulia, you have to prepare yourself for the worst scenario. Your favorite yoga studio (I tried the other ones, they are not approximately that spiritual) will probabaly be closed after corona is over. My yoga studio that has always been there for the last 12 years. A beautiful villa in a beautiful park should cost heaps of money to rent.

It´s not crazy. I tried it and it worked! Immediately. Without effort. I don´t know, why I don´t do it the whole time.

Most of people are not stupid and are not bad. They are just INSECURE. They don´t dare to think and act on their own. They imitate the patterns of thoughts and behavior from the others. Who seem to be more confident and secure. I agree with pretty India. Lead by example. Break the patterns. Show that it´s not dangerous not to imitate but think and act self-reliant. It´s even better for survival.

There are different kinds of stupiditiy. What I absolutely cannot stand is the confident, agressive and boisterous stupidity. I still cannot deal with it, it turns me crazy. The best example is Trump. When he was elected I thought: Thanks god, I am not a Merkel! Poor woman! I wouldn´t be able to exchange with this moron a couple of words without pulling a face and it would be undiplomatic and would probably harm my country. And then I saw Merkel communicting with TRump and thought: Well it wouldn´t be a big deal if I were a Merkel, it´s allright to show morons that they are morons.

Fools Garden. Completey underestimated. I don´t understand why. They have a lot of great songs besides "Lemon Tree"

Dust in the wind. I love this song! It helps me in all life situations. All we are is dust in the wind. Everything is dust in the wind.

Love is for me an absolute synonym of happiness.

I was some years ago in Vico Equense. It´s on the other side of a headland. Not so overrun by tourists. Look, it was our secret way into the city from our hotel. Everybody loves Italy It´s beautiful and light-hearted. But I have never dreamt of it either.

I dreamt that I am again at this place. But from the other side. This is a painting of my daughter – a view from the beach in a hotel resort where we´ve been 5 years ago. I dream often that I am there but from the other side – approaching a beach from the sea, going east from the west. (now they´ve closed this hotel for Europeans and made out of it something like a retreat for muslim locals). The water is very clear and transparent, and I see under the water fantastic and beautiful fishes – thy are extremely colorful – violet, red, yellow, green – and as big as me or even bigger. As I am looking at them they begin to look at me. After having gaped at each other for a while they approach and surround me. One of the fishes, a violet one, bit my hand. If you can call it biting, because fishes have no teeth. It grasped my hand in its mouth. This grip felt very soft but firm and so real. I thought, I won´t move my hand not to make a fish nervous, but just wait, till it loosens its grip. I waited and waited but nothing happened. SO I tried to pull my hand carefully out of the fish. I don´t know if I succeeded, because the scenery changed and I stopped to dream this dream.