Hulia

I think, I understand you now. This lack of charade. And honestly I don´t know what to think about is - about not having the charades any more. Too blank at the moment.

Yesterday evening I tried shamanic breathing. Thank you Leo for the video and Muhammad Jawad for drawing my attention! Very powerful technique! In just 30 minutes the results are overwhelming. After appr. 10 min. my body has become convulsive and my mind dizzy. I even thought to stop it and try again, when my doughter is not at home. But then I have become clear in the head and the convulsiveness has gone. The breathing was so easy, like it was the most natural breathing in the world, my mouth wasn´t even dry. I felt a little tension in the lower part of my chest. But it was not a unpleasant, like I´ve got to get rid of it as soon as possible. It was like the tension has always been there and now I am just aware of it and it´s ok. I had to restrain myself from jumping up and dancing Maybe it´s because of shamanic music with drums? The last 5 minutes of 30 min. were exactly like the first 5 min. - pretty boring and uncomfortable with a dry mouth. After the exercise was over I was sitting there with my eyes closed and looking at the changing beautiful patterns of the most vivid colors on the black screen of my closed eyes. The exposions of colors. At the end the small but intensive violet sun was shining behind the black mountains. And I am still high and light in the head and in the chest, like I am in love or like I am young and want to go to disco and dance the whole night. In the chest where I felt tension during breathing I feel a pleasant prickling now. But it was very very cold. The air was becaming icy with every breath. I had a vision, that I am a shaman at the North Pole dancing in ice and snow. Next time I´ll take 2 or even 3 duvets. Maybe I will improvise next time - to breath through chest or through belly?

I also wonder, if psychedelics may have an impact on our physical body, health? LCD, DMT include some chemical stuff, who knows if our organs like it.. I mean, one or 2 times might be ok to get a glimpse, but taking psychedelics on a regular basis.. I don´t know

I don´t understand your problem with normies. There are no normal people. There are some Norms, yes. But no normal people. Even if they look for you like they are aligned with the Norms. Everyone has her/his struggle. Including those who "eat, sleep, shit, watch TV, hang out with friends, all without really trying to get to the truth of what is." Their struggles are futile and sad.

@Preety_India Dog owners are strange people. I have always known this. Don´t go away

Sometimes I prefer to work after sleepless nights. On such days I try to attend all the difficult meetings and discussions, when you know in advance, there is no room for solution here just for a conflict, at least for a time being. After sleepless nights I am so indifferent and quiet, my ego sleeping no room for futile agitation

@Parththakkar12 Bingo! I´ve always sensed your masculinity, or as they say here - your devine masculinity ?

Agree!! The whole life is a chain of misunderstandings. And this is the main difference between dream and not-dream. They couldn´t persuade me otherwise. You don´t have misunderstanding in a dream. You can have a whole range of strange situations in a dream, but the dream personages do everything on purpose (they are just weird - the dream personages) and not out of misunderstanding. In a not-dream almost everything happens because of misunderstanding.

I´ll use space. Let´s figure out the direction ✈??

on the dark side of the life. About everything being an illusion, a thought in my troublesome head. But as soon as life turns the sunny side, I don´t want to know anything about dreams. I want it be reality to grasp and hold tightly

Never. But I am patient. And keep trying.

:))))) You call it subtle hints???? Oh guys, you have too much focus on sex and too little on game

I just have a weakness for broken rules, changing roles, mixing up actors...

"Never push for sex. Let her pursue." Excellent advice for a game of a new level. It not only does work, it makes you special in her eyes compared to all the other guys wanting only this from her like small nervous dogs. But of course this tactic should be combined with other erotic moves: a verbal hint, a fluent touch, a meaningful penetrating gaze. Subtle communication. Without expected outcome. It will make her intrigued and interested.

There was a small ship on the beach. The ship couldn´t continue its way in the ocean, because something was broken. To fix it captain needed a special screwdriver which he hadn´t. “But it´s ok, it´s not that bad - explained a captain, - there is another ship not very far away from here, a captain told me, he has this kind of a screwdriver and he will drop it here”. “It´s just a beach, - I thought, - no quay anywhere, how on earth another ship is going to dock?” At this moment I saw a very long barge heading quickly to our beach. At high speed a very long barge drove out of water onto the sand. Approximately 80% of barge was now on the beach. “This is a seamen brotherhood, - I gasped respectfully, - a lot they are ready to do and risk just for a screwdriver. How is he going to drift this iron thing back to water? Let some other helpful seamen push it? On sand?” At this moment the barge began to drift by itself, since it was a slope, sand slope, a captain of the barge was running after his drifting vehicle. I grasped my head with the hands and almost screamed, I didn´t want this small old man to lose his big iron barge in the ocean. A captain managed to jump into barge at the very last moment.

All in all, as a conclusion, I don´t understand what are you arguing about. Both relationship and being alone have its advantages and disadvantages. In a relationship the first couple years are happy and then the hell breaks out. Being alone the first couple years are hard and then you begin to enjoy it more and more, till the relationship gets obsolete for you. There is a lot of social pressure which makes us desperate to have a partner. Bit it might be not that necessary.

Do you question you beliefs?

@flowboy Why do you want so eagerly to convince him to have a relationship? If he himself doesn´t want it. At least for now. Do you think, relationship is only one possible way to live the life contentedly?

1. You see cold opinion as something negative, me not. Because fearing intimacy and cold opinion are not the same. 2. You won´t find any person in this world with a perfect childhood. Things never go right all the time. Even with a relatively safe childhood, shit might happen later 3. I experinced being in love (not in relationship) and not having trust. Because it is possible to be in love without being blinded. And have a cold opinion on a person - on his background, culture, upbringing. It has nothing to do with a fear of intimacy, it´s rationality. YOu can be both - emotional and rational.

You can a have a cold view on everything without having been hurt in the past :)))) Who tells, that you views have to be always warm?

I just watched Russian news for the last 3 days. No word about the concentration of Russian military at Ukrainian border. No fucking word. Do the russians know at all? The news channel reported about the call of Biden to Putin. But they didn´t give the reason. They told, Biden called because he is so much interested to meet Putin and discuss with him world´s problems (no word about Ukraine) and how to improve the relationships between two countries. But Putin is not as interested as Biden, he´s thinking, whether he´ll come, - they told.

They use this word "conflict" in media. The people just repeat what they hear and read. So important to name things by names. The language is important. This is what we ukrainians have learned in last 7 years. As well as many other things.

Why is Putin about to begin a war in which thousands of people die? He wants to prove to Biden, that he is not a killer

How can you say, that there is no difference between dream and reality? I had an astral date and after that a date in reality with the same person. And I tell you: There is a DIFFERENCE! And it´s not a physicality. Astral dreams are very physical. In terms of physicallity there is NO difference. But! In a dream you have no past and no future. You just come from nowhere and go to nowhere. And in reality you have experience behind and expectations ahead. And this is what makes a huuuuuuuuge difference. And then comes the subconcious with all its crazy layers, which you are not even aware of. In a dream you don´t have sub-something, it´s all just there. And then the fact that all that experiences, expectations and crazy sublayers might be extremely different for 2 different persons. This is a reality, baby, which can never be a dream.

A tree would recall her past: another tree taking her a sun away, a bush strangled by ivy, she would be suddenly aware of all the parasites inside of her for example and so on and so on. And now imagine the whole wood has become aware of itself - every single tree with all the personal memories and experiences, which immediately begin their projection into future. The wood will never be the same! The trees will become suspicious and vulnerable.