Nemra

Is it true?

I ate 15 gram fresh sclerotia at night. My goodness! I died and born again. Eyes closed or open, it didn't matter. I became conscious that I created and dreamt my whole life. I just fucking forgot that, although I'm having a hard time trying to understand that in my current state. It was perfect and terrifying at the same time! I thought that I would just realize some interesting thing. 😅 I saw undescribable things that I never could have imagined in my lifetime. I witnessed a super alien mechanical infinite intelligence. I don't know where even to begin. I was having thoughts beyond my ability of thinking. I literally was imagining worlds so alien to my experience. It was breathtaking. At some point when I was high, I either had to choose to be or not to be a human. I chose to be a human. I realized that I don't love myself enough! There are things that I'm forgetting to say right now, but it was so beyond! Ironically, the experience was TOTALLY endless. It was insanity! I have become more sure, at least for me, that meditation is of little help to me. I'm sorry to people who cling on meditation, but this is way beyond from it. @Leo Gura, thank you so much for making people aware of the potential of psychedelics! Also, I have to say that I was technically sleeping while experiencing some stuff. I remember that I was talking to myself like a madman very quietly. I'll be reflecting more about what the fuck I experienced.

Pictures from my ongoing trip in Europe:

Hey, Europeans. I want to travel around Europe. Which countries and cities would you recommend I visit?

@Emerald, thank you for the advice. It makes sense to me that understanding my experience of it is much more important than just trying to stop it. Interestingly, it gets amplified when I feel attracted to someone. And the more it gets amplified, the more attractive that person gets, which makes me want to be even more desired—to be more feminine, I guess.

I was just contemplating and realized that I seek attention often in very subtle ways, as it feels good. Especially when I find someone attractive, I naturally want them to give me attention, as it intensifies the attraction. I don't know what to feel about this. Generally, I don't like to seek attention, as it's very limiting. However, it seems that this thing is installed deep inside me. I would appreciate helpful advice on how to navigate about this realization.

Although I watched the TV series "Severance" a year ago, I haven't watched any new ones fully yet. This is one of the most interesting, dark, and psychological TV series I have watched.

What movie have you recently watched, or are you now watching? I have yet to finish watching the movie "The Irishmen".

That should tell you something. Well, in the end, you either know what's true or not.

@Emerald, did I answer your question?

@Infinite Tsukuyomi, interesting idea.

For example when their words reflect in their actions. when their survival isn't dependent too much on lying. they have high self-awareness. ... Again, how do you? I try not to assume that I don't have any blind spots. Being aware that you might be biased is way important than being paranoid that other could be biased.

Do you know what knowing the truth about something even means? My suspicion that you don't know what truth means is getting confirmed.

Read the following again:

@Salvijus, when you and I burn our hands, we will feel pain if both of us can feel pain.

And how will you know? You direct that question towards me and yet you make claims, assume or believe stuff and question others using the uncertainty of knowing stuff when you don't agree with them?

Most of the time, it's difficult to know. However, when you observe them for a while, you will see which one is being more truthful by just understanding how they think and act. The problem is whether you are deluded / deluding yourself or not.

It's also important not to take people's harsh judgments as a personal attack all the time. You could be forming views based on their reaction most of the time, which will make you confused and regretful when they stop being harsh.

You think I'm not an AI because of some reasons. So, you do know and are certain of it more than other stuff, but you say that you are equally uncertain of everything. And still, being certain doesn't make you right either.

How do you know whether I'm AI or not?

Focus on what ways you could be wrong. Focus on if you are staying ignorant regardless of the facts being presented. Maybe you're not wrong, idk. I know that it's not that easy.

@Salvijus, you wouldn't know who is being truthful if you don't personally observe stuff. There are or could be things about which we will come to the same realization. However, the way we observe is likely different.

The ones that are being more truthful and honest.

My life experience taught me, generally, not to trust people, especially those who portray themselves as perfectly good. You can just feel it. I think that in politics, actions should determine how good they are.

Trump's manipulations are so simple that they are ignored as if he's just being human.