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@Leo Gura, regarding the "Nisagardatta On Self-Inquiry" blog post, are you saying that I am not serious enough for only focusing on psychedelics? For example, I am starting to use and explore psychedelics, although I have done weeks-long meditations before. I want to go deep and high as much as possible as of now.

#3 I smoked about 40 to 50 mg of DMT. I felt a profound sense of emptiness, as if I were at the pure source of creation. Then I experienced a sensation of being born again. The visuals transcended the dimensions I am accustomed to. In my visual field, there were light sources all around that resembled crystals, featuring a white center and rainbow-colored rays bursting from them. The auditory experience was quite interesting during the peak; I was hearing frog-like croaks. After the peak experience, I found it profound that this human life is even possible; I was amazed at how I am here experiencing it. My mind was cracked wide open.

I extracted it myself. Yeah, it is cool. It is also way too serious.

#2 Today, I came very close to entering the DMT hyperspace. My life was becoming increasingly insignificant by the second. It was being deconstructed, as if someone was unwrapping a gift for me, and the gift was a gun to kill me. Scary. However, I was telling myself, "I want the truth. I want the truth..." Vibrant, wavy, crystal-streaked visuals everywhere. I felt as though I was being melted, and my body felt extremely light. I am glad I am getting the hang of the glass oil burner pipe.

#1 Today, I tried to get the hang of smoking DMT with a glass oil burner pipe. I cannot get the full smoke yet, but I got a mild high for a short time. My visual field was getting crystallized, sort of. Patterns were forming. My body started to get more relaxed.

To say religious people got it right is too generous—they cannot understand that belief is not direct.

I think you have to love it deep down if it happens instantly, even if normally you get disgusted by it. I would not like it if someone treated me like an object (like an enraptured meal), but my god, if I interpreted it sexually, it would be impossible to resist. It is what it is.

I'm glad that I took a psychedelic before weed, which helped me compare the experiences of both. I don't understand why people consider weed a psychedelic. Yeah, you might have some non-ordinary experience, but you won't get incredibly conscious or have some transhuman experience, at least that's the case for me. To this day I'm much more moved by the psychedelic experience that I had than weed could ever give to me. Weed was making me less motivated not because I realized something but because I was just forgetting stuff.

I quit weed a month ago. I smoked it about 5 times. The first two tries were quite an extraordinary experience for me. However, I was eventually getting more paranoid of forgetting stuff. I was starting to think I was high even though I didn't smoke any. Although I don't mind mindfucks, I didn't like that I was forgetting lots of minor stuff, which can lessen the quality of my life. Also, it was not getting more mystical.

Stage blue women are not only feminine but also quite dogmatic and delusional about what femininity is.

The singularity point. 😂

Would you consider her a masculine or feminine deluded figure?

Share them. We're not your girlfriends. 😁

Oh, I thought it hurt like how you said to the woman because you told her some minor truth. To be honest, I would also feel hurt if someone did that just because they cannot understand that I would not use truth to belittle them, and also they generally cannot handle the truth, especially a minor truth.

Of course, for emotionally immature people it's like that.

WTF, seriously? 😒 If someone doesn't at least value truth for their own benefit or doesn't manage their survival, I wouldn't even consider being with them.

Sometimes I delude myself into thinking about what you say people think about it. Lol.

@Leo Gura, then I misread. Sorry.

Yeah, but I think the number of those men is too small. If we are going to account for all the people who are more masculine, I think that they are more capable of handling the truth and using it to manipulate others. Generally, they are interested in truth as long as it benefits them. I would say that both men and women manipulate.

I disagree that most men pursue truth solely for its own sake. However, I would say that masculine people are more inclined to handle or accept the truth, which gives them the advantage to abuse it.

@Leo Gura, okay, but I was trying to say that being trans can't only be an ideology; otherwise, people should have been deeply programmed to be trans. You were being critical of conservative metaphysics by being non-ideological.

I guess, various psychological factors. However, I don't have the feeling to chase.

@Leo Gura, how is being trans an ideology? Also, how is only deconstruction of the male/female binary considered an ideology?

Psilocybin trip simulation.

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