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Now, I plugged 60 mg, and yeah, it's very different than 30 mg. The headspace is weird, like N,N-DMT. 10 minutes feels like more than an hour. I'm surprised that it stings significantly less than 5-MeO-DMT when it's plugged.

Sure. I have to be more careful because I'm not at home, and won't be staying long there. I wish I had easy access to it. Gosh. The headspace was intense. These substances surprise me every time. Never thought that it could be intense without visuals that I get on N,N-DMT.

@Leo Gura, will it sound more academic?

I received 4-HO-MET instead of N,N-MET. I guess the vendor got confused about what I meant by MET. Now, I have to pick between 4-HO-MET and 4-HO-MiPT. Got them all. I'll start testing tomorrow morning. I can't believe that this is happening. TBH, I'm a bit afraid of how I would react to the experience, because I might snap out of my life in a very unexpected way or maybe more intensely. Not doing this at home makes me more anxious.

I can be an economical clean freak for certain things. Ordered them.

I hope Dutch pharmacies sell that type of syringe, especially in batches.

Should a new syringe be used for every trip, or can the old one be reused after cleaning it?

Identifying only with your body is illogical.

It also implies that without being able to be conscious, that thing isn't there. The distinction dissolves.

I even PM'd him, but he hasn't read yet.

I shared a specific example about being conformist.

رياح الحياة Reyah El Hayah

Saying "thank you" and commenting on his clothes is being on topic in this thread, and what I shared is not? Come on. Please, let's not argue about this petty thing.

It was not random, and I am sure Leo can speak for himself for his thread.

Yeah, you're forced to be clever when you hardly can buy new clothes for yourself, but when you get a nice-paying job, your approach becomes an obstacle. The opposite can also be true. People can spend money on services out of habit just because they can afford it.

Once I got a job, I started asking myself: Why am I entitled to pirate and get software free? It is easy to think that stuff should be free when you don't have a job and cannot pay for anything. Sure, the prices of some services are BS and not fair, but that doesn't mean all services aren't worth paying for.

Thank you for trying to open my mind.

I will use N,N-MET instead of 5-MeO-MiPT.

نور العين Nour El Ein

Used to as in you don't care if it makes you uncomfortable?

@Vibes, you can stand and move while on psychedelics?

@Leo Gura, would you share the link of the product that you have ordered?

How do you know it is potent when it's not even made yet to test it?

# Contemplation How does anything come into existence? E.g., when I look at things, I notice that things have the same quality of existence because they are in the same field of sensory phenomena. No thing is visually more existing than the other because they are what they are just by being themselves in that same field. Same for things in other sensory fields. That implies that I cannot be a specific thing; otherwise, I would be contradicting myself since there is nothing stopping me from identifying beyond my body. I must be, e.g., anything that appears visually, the chair, the desk, etc. Same for things in other sensory fields. Each sensory field is absolutely different from the other in terms of quality. However, they all exist on their own. When I look at a chair, the chair comes into existence. It would be nonsense to say that the chair exists without looking at it because it would not refer to something that exists in that sensory field at that moment. Why must it be at that moment? Because it's at that moment that the phenomenon exists. Same for things in other sensory fields. So, looking, hearing, feeling, etc., are common in that things come into existence when they are being observed directly. In other words, when they are being conscious of. Everything comes into existence when they are being conscious of by me. Since things don't exist without being conscious of them, there's no distinction between being conscious and the thing itself. I become conscious of a thing, and I am also that thing.

The interesting thing is that I have poor eyesight; however, on DMT, when visual changes happen, I can clearly see things.