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I AM GOD! I AM CREATING EVERYTHING! ABSOLUTELY TOTAL! ABSOLUTELY SOVEREIGN! ABSOLUTE INSANITY! God is loving this reality. God doesn't care whether the human dies or not. However, suicide is a deception. God wants to experience and it designed the human experience. I'm hallucinating this human experience! I was able to awaken myself and go back to being human instantly. I tested that multiple times while tripping. Leo! I created you to remind me that I can wake up. God is a genius bastard. So much happened during the trip that I'm unable to write as of now! It was infinitely insane! I ate a cannabis gummy three hours after I consumed 150 mg N,N-DPT orally. It contained 5 mg THC, 5 mg CBD, and 5 mg CBG. My insane trip began 20-30 minutes after cannabis consumption. The peak lasted for two hours. But I'm still tripping. Almost all of my psychedelic experiences, although I've done very little before, are a joke compared to what I've experienced now. Ideas of psychedelic experiences are also a joke after you have an experience. Ideas of it will probably become an obstacle eventually without serious experience. Meditation will never, at least to me, be able to reveal something like that. My whole being wants to align with that experience. I feel a strong desire to emulate it.

There's no rush, to be honest. You can try the other ones later when the time is right. But I love exploring.

What a law-abiding citizen. 🫡😁

Add DPT as well. 😏 When I took DPT alone, I was melting through an alien geometry. The wall in front of me became a hyper-dimensional tunnel of sorts.

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Those three chemicals were mixed in a gummy. You high? 😀

People are being so childish.

Things are not what they seem. 😁

If you could only choose to use one psychedelic for the rest of your life, which one would it be?

Watching that video gives me flashbacks to my experience. 🥹

The visualizations of God-Consciousness are amazing! It really conveys what it would feel like. I like that it looks like you are in the room, yet everything is imaginary. @Leo Gura, thank you for sharing!

That's reductionistic. It's a poor way to interconnect reality. It still assumes that electrons create the universe. The theory also assumes that a finite thing can have its exact same in the universe. However, it's not possible because the universe would not contain any form which invalidates the theory itself. The universe is holistic.

OMG, I unknowingly bumped into holism! Oneness is the infinite stack of holarchies.

Try to find something visual outside of your visual field. If you find it, where would it appear? What makes your visual field unique? Knowing that a thing is both a whole and part of another thing, why would there be another visual field that coexists with yours independently? How is it possible that characters of a story are aware of some other part of the story that is not theirs?

Oneness is ingenious. There is only one thing on each level of scale! ..., one visual field, ..., one human race, ..., one person, ..., one brain, ..., one molecule, ..., one atom, ... Singularity, unity and sameness converging into one thing.

What movie have you recently watched, or are you now watching? I have yet to finish watching the movie "The Irishmen".

@Natasha Tori Maru, yeah, it's a good movie. I love when movies collapse the distinction between the reality of the movie and the viewer in a tasteful manner.

It seems analogous to a writer creating characters from real life who are writers of other stories. But I don't really know what the actual experience would be.

Perhaps in principle, imagining other Gods is the same as imagining other people, but too radical. I guess God not being able to imagine multiples of itself invalidates God's power; thus, it should be able to imagine. But I don't know what that is like.

Invent Awakenings? Am I imagining my Awakenings?

I find it interesting and frightening at the same time that there is a possibility of having a sudden intense Awakening experience sober that is equally profound when taking a psychedelic. To be honest, I never thought it would happen to me. Today I woke up from sleeping, at which I had a dream of me living a totally different life for decades. When I suddenly woke up, I couldn't bear the reality that it ended and now I'm in a different reality. The thought of neither one being less real in my mind triggered an Awakening experience which led me to recognize that this reality is a dream through and through. I was swimming in pure NOTHINGNESS and EMPTYNESS for a minute. The distinction between my nightly dreams and waking reality was TOTALLY unimagined. I was left ALONE, because I am DREAMING the dream that everyone is part of. Endlessly Melting! Too profound! The realization that no one has truly awakened or will ever wake up other than myself is truly shocking!

Interjections

Long story short: Christianity is rather a dull construction that doesn't let itself be deconstructed. When people are taught, usually brainwashed from an early age, that construction, they get attached to it and cannot see how it's constructed. So, that's how Satan has been holding Christianity all together.

Without Satan, which is the ego, there is no Christianity. Christians don't want to admit that they are Satan. They are afraid of it and use it to demonize others. So, it's highly impossible that they will realize that Satan, Christians, preserved Christianity for 2 millennium. They have otherized Satan so much that they are blind to it. To them, God is on the side of Christianity, but actually, Satan has been all along. Their understanding of God cannot be trusted when they cannot even admit that they are Satan as well. If you tell them that you are God, they would ironically consider you satanic. They would only accept Christ as God without caring about knowing what God actually is due to grasping Trinity based on belief of Christ, anthropomorphizing things and thinking from a dualistic lens. Distracting themselves by focusing on what Christ and Christian rituals mean to them historically and symbolically. The pervertedness is astounding.

The day that Christians realize that they should have been thankful to Satan for holding Christianity all together is the day that hell freezes over.