Gabith

Welcome to existence, if you read me it is that you exist too, in the only and same Reality which "is" without beginning nor end. You have a human body, what a pain in the ass! You must spend your life suffering physically and mentally. You get sick almost every year, if not every year, you have to provide security, work, please people to have friends or sex, a sense of love which is conditional. And if your essential needs are not met, hello negative emotions and the descent into hell I would like so much that death would free me from this burden but bad news, even that I can't believe anymore because after "spiritual" awakening I realized that there is no possibility of non-existence, we live for eternity through forms. For eternity we embody fucking bodies, no way out of suffering. Some people call it paradise, I call it hell. Paradise would be to have no consciousness of being, we would be free of all thoughts and sufferings. We would no longer exist. Peace. Nothing more to do, no more resistance, fear, or suffering..

@Matthew85 you mean choosing how you feel or staying in a peaceful state despite the outer circumstances ?

@Kksd74628 Too much thoughts and feelings, too much reasons why I can't bare existence anymore street interviews

I've already lowered the difficulty, I hate to work I never work all I do is making videos on youtube but I can't do this because it's too cold outside and always raining, it's been 6 months that we have low temperatures in this shitland Belgium there is no more seasons like when I was younger. Creating a better now ? I have enough of this, always working on myself, always trying to love / accept the present moment, it's horrible I don't want to do anything anymore I hate all of this

@itachi uchiha tell me by private message please

Mediator INFP-T

Thank u <3

Hi my friends, I'm more & more often in a "state" where I'm conscious of my thoughts, mental images, emotions and also, the beauty of Reality... it's like I am the Observer of what's happening and I'm not caught into the stories/lost in my mind. Tonight, I've watched with all my attention this video of Anna Brown It took me back into that state. I now see the importance of being aware. When we are not meditating and going through our day, what can we do to stay conscious as much as possible ? Now, it feels very difficult to me because I fall back asleep very easily, so if you have tips / fun ways to push your ego into awareness, I would be glad to read them

@Osaid Wow it's cool I'm doing this right now, it works wonder!

Hi, I do street interview alone since 4 years, I meet a lot of people, I had days where I was able to be myself without caring too much. These days/hours were the best, I had great interactions, I felt positive and confident, I had girls who were attracted to me but unfortunately these moments are quite rare and I don't know how to stay in this state or to attain it again. When I was in this "state" it felt like a "social awakening" Now as I become more conscious, I'm noticing that I feel an anxious background when I meet people, I feel less than them or odd/bizarre. It keeps me from talking to girls to get their numbers because when I interview girls that I'm attracted to, I feel as if I were bothering them and I rarely take the risk to speak with her about her life, hobbies because I don't want her to see that I'm needy or to be rejected... I'm fucking needy because I get too quickly attached to girls, I think everyday about having a girlfriend it robs my happiness. But I don't want to be like that, it keeps me from being confident & to get a girlfriend. I try to love myself everyday but there is always this big issue with girls, I want to get love from someone else and deep down I know it's a mistake. I also always think for others (I'm imagining that they're judging me negatively) I'm looking for a tip or technique that I could use when I'm meeting/interviewing people a breathing technique, a pattern of thoughts, I don't know. Something that would lower my anxiety or negative self-talk. Please help me

@Loba how

Hey thank u it was very interesting and the music is great!

You mean other people are not existing in the same time as me ? Why would I be alone living the another time than everyone else ?

@Loba How can I feel that love for myself ?

I'm wondering if I was able to be myself when I met people, would this be easy to find a girlfriend ? Is the only thing that prevents me to have a non-toxic girlfriend is my inability to be truly myself ? (without the need to please or get something from her?) I don't know how to eliminate the need to get something from a girl or to stop feeling "not beautiful enough, not good enough" I think that if I cared less, it would be more easy to be authentic and at ease when speaking to girls

Thank u

Today I feel a lot of fear in my body, it seems that I can't stop thinking about war coming, suicide, contacting my ex toxic girlfriend to feel less alone... Is there a particular technique / meditation that help to deal with fear & anxiety please?

Yesterday night it just hit me like a bolt. I've realised that I was creating suffering & fearful thoughts over something I don't have any control, it was useless! Since I am born everyday I've lived could have been my last! And I was living life almost thinking I am eternal haha... Each day is a gift, all I want is to live each day like a gift because it is and like it was my last because that's it! I don't know when I will die and I have zero control so I have to accept my death. Finally I've integrated this and now all I want is to remind myself each day when I'm worrying about something "hey remember life is precious, this could be my last day and I want to accept my death because if I don't, I'll create suffering for nothing" I wonder why they don't teach this to kids in school, I knew this stuff intellectually and thought I had it all but integrating this is another thing, it changes everything

@Kamo Thank you, your message helps me a lot I needed that, I'll do my best

@Kamo I live in Belgium, we are the capital of Europe and member of NATO... I had a project that I was all about but I don't see any future now, the idea of working on my project or reading books seems useless

@puporing I feel fear & anxiety since I saw the war has begun. Almost every sound I hear from outside give me anxiety, I try to identify them and reassure myself, I was never like that before. I'm thinking about suicide for myself because I don't want to see a war

No but I wish I could handle difficult times/trauma with grace, it's inspiring. I had one of my worst days today, tonight I'm gonna focus on gratitude and a mantra, I think it is the best I can do now

Hey I stopped watching porn for years and a month ago I felt again into it. First days I was ok I'll watch it a last time and tomorrow I stop. I also made a promise to myself to stop watching porn but it was not enough, I was watching porn video again the next day. And now I've noticed that only after 2 weeks of jerking off to porn almost everyday, I've become addicted and it seems not so easy to stop Do you have good reasons or scientific reasons to stop watching porn & advice to break this addiction ?

Thank u everyone

Hey this night I had wonderful sex with a squirting woman & with a great sense of love I was thinking today about how it would be cool if I could make similar dreams more often & even more longer/vivid Is there ways to make more sexual dreams ? It is possible to have sexual dreams each night ?