Gabith

@Knowledge Hoarder Ok

I hope I'll be dead naturally because suicide seems to lead to bad karma and I hope I'll have a better life because unfortunately I have to exist eternally, no choice, I must suffer as a being thank you God

Did u had bad trips ?

I had a near approach to what a "flow state" feels like I smoked weed and I was composing music with my guitar (improvisation). Everytime when I do that, I'm thinking about the neighbours that hear my music (negatives thinking like they're bothered by it, or positive thinking like to hear me playing sometimes, in a nutshell, I am thinking about past or future, I am thinking/worrying to something that doesn't exist while playing the guitar) This time, I had a taste of what's it like to just be present with what is (me playing the guitar, hearing the sound), all the rest was just worrying and was keeping me from being more creative and relax. I've created the most beautiful songs when I was in this state and I really enjoyed myself more than before. Because I wasn't too much (almost not) thinking about my neighbours or anything else, I could let myself playing freely and create something more emotional, more natural. It helped me to realize that, that is what I want, I want this more than anything else. I need to spend more time alone, with myself, to connect more with myself instead of thinking of others or having a girlfriend/sex whatever. I want to create this connection in my everyday because I know it leads to more peacefulness and happiness. How do you guys creates more "flow states" in your life ? How do you do for example, in public transport to be in your "bubble" when you only feel you and you're not worrying or thinking about others ? I know I sound like a newbie, I'm annoyed that I didn't realized this before.

Wow

Is there people on this forum who were very needy / people-pleaser and went from that from non-needy and vulnerable/confident ? What practices / mindset helped you to go from needy to vulnerable/confident ?

@MsNobody thanks for sharing

Did you saw Hereditary ?

@The0Self I never had the courage to take a high dose

The biggest sense of Love I had was on a low dose of ketamine, it was the most beautiful & powerful experience in my life...

Happy Birthday Dear Leo!

@Federico del pueblo thank you, it's very helpful! can't wait to make progress

Children of Men District 9

Hey, oh, hey, yeah Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I'm taking my freedom Pulling it off the shelf Putting it on my chain Wear it around my neck I'm taking my freedom Putting it in my car Wherever I choose to go It will take me far I'm livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden, golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden, golden I'm taking my own freedom Putting it in my song Singing loud and strong Grooving all day long I'm taking my freedom Putting it in my stroll I'll be high-steppin' y'all Letting the joy unfold I'm livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden, golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden, golden I'm holding on to my freedom Can't take it from me I was born into it It comes naturally I'm strumming my own freedom Playing the God in me Representing his glory Hope he's proud of me I'm livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden (Hope he's proud of me) Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden, golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden Livin' my life like it's golden, golden I'm living my life like it's golden, golden, golden, golden, golden, golden I'm living my life like it's golden, golden, golden, golden, golden, golden Livin' my life like it's golden, golden, golden, golden Livin' my life like it's golden, golden Livin' my life, livin' my life Livin' my life like it's golden It really matters to me, oh Living my life like it's golden, golden, golden, golden, golden, golden Living my life like it's golden, golden, golden, golden, golden, golden Living my life like it's golden, golden, golden, golden, golden, golden (Living my life like it's golden Living my life like it's golden Living my life like it's golden Living my life like it's golden Living my life like it's golden, golden) Living my life like it's golden, golden, golden, golden, golden, golden (Living my life like it's golden Living my life like it's golden Living my life like it's golden Living my life like it's golden Living my life like it's golden, golden) Living my life like it's golden, golden, golden, golden

Hi guys, in your opinion, what would be an interesting question to ask to random people in the city ? The last questions I've already asked were "what would you do if you were the last human on earth" and "if you wanted to kill yourself, how would you do it?"

@ZzzleepingBear oh man you made my day !! I will do that for sure, I love this question !!!

@TheAlchemist wow great one thank u !

There is no point in life so you can create the illusion of an infinite number of reasons/purposes...

beautiful

Hey can you explain how your everyday life is ? What you are doing everyday/weeks... I do street interviews once per week or more if I don't feel too bad/anxious. I play the guitar, I listen to music, go for a walk or go to the gym. In the evening I sometimes spend time with friends or I take drugs alone, or I play videos-games. I medidate before going to bed. I go to a prostitute once or two per month when I have enough money. It helps a little bit to relief the pain of not having sex or intimate relationship. Now, I'm sick of being a people pleaser and being fearful of being rejected. I missed some opportunities. In 4 years of street-interviews, I've talked to thousand of people in the cities and the result: I'm still single, having hard time to connect with people, always feeling odd or judged. In 4 years, I had two/three days of "social awakening" ; I was happy, focusing on the others and not me, I saw the beauty of the city, in the people faces, I was able to be more at ease and I saw that I was a lot more attractive to people (one of theses nights I was really attracted to a girl, she was clearly showing me that she wanted me to ask for her number and I just freezed in front of her friends. I don't know how I went in this "state" of being socially at ease, if I knew I would do this everytime I go out. Sometimes I'm wondering what if I accept totally myself as being needy, not confident and skinny ? But I quickly remember that no girl is attracted to this and my biggest fear is to be single all my life. The only times when I felt really happy in my life was in my early childhood and when I was with someone. I don't know how to be happy when I'm alone, I see girls everywhere I go, couples, beautiful girls I can't stop thinking about being with someone, even if I try, it shows in front of my eyes almost everywhere I go.

What are your thoughts about this, does someone tried it, does it work ? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4GBxu02aQc0

repeat this after me; yes

Hi, is this song about God/Awakening ? THE CURE - JUST LIKE HEAVEN https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n3nPiBai66M "Show me, show me, show me how you do that trick The one that makes me scream" she said "The one that makes me laugh" she said And threw her arms around my neck Show me how you do it And I promise you I promise that I'll run away with you I'll run away with you Spinning on that dizzy edge I kissed her face and kissed her head And dreamed of all the different ways I had To make her glow Why are you so far away, she said Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you That I'm in love with you You Soft and only You Lost and lonely You Strange as angels Dancing in the deepest oceans Twisting in the water You're just like a dream You're just like a dream Daylight licked me into shape I must have been asleep for days And moving lips to breathe her name I opened up my eyes And found myself alone, alone Alone above a raging sea That stole the only girl I loved And drowned her deep inside of me You Soft and lonely You Lost and lonely You Just like heaven

Hi, what sentences/dialogue would you use to invite someone who's "average" to open his/her mind to look inside ?

thank u