Elton

@Ruth intrensic motivation vs extrensic motivation. Passion and intution can be your saviour

No i don't care about any of these , just she should be beautiful to me , i would respect her even if she would be slutty with me the very first time..i would love her for that actually... for being honest ...

enlightenment is a concept in which you are free from all thoughts of needing someone and something to fulfill you.

my down fall era and the weed peak era was at the same time .. now 7 years passes since i'm smoking however i had realized that i cannot use all this as an excuse for not studying in-fact in the last semester weed gave me a certain calm and my fear and anxiety would just vanish away in-spite of weed i would concentrate for hours, deep down i know its bad habit but i am not really sure if it leads to self destruction or what? after all its just a plant; a part of nature. However do not use weed as an excuse for not concentrating in class and being lazy, i would smoke a j and sit for the lecture with full concentration .its better you quit now because i feel like i need it now and its very emotionally difficult to quit . spiritual enlightenment can help you leave i guess , just i had started to understand that concept and i was able to quit cigarettes now again I've backslided though :-/ but i'm trying my best hypnosis affirmations maybe visualization might be the key.

My dream is of a loving earth, (where everyone is so loving and compassionate towards me) people not running after money , anger,fear and scarcity not controlling them... i dream of prosperity, i dream of good health , physical vitality, i dream of having that amazing relationship, having amazing sex. i dream of freedom, i dream of being guided by my passion and not my greed, i dream of having great friendships, great relationships, i dream of generating massive value in the world. i dream of pushing the human race forward and to do everything in my power to do it.i dream of being alive i dream of working hard; so hard that when i accomplish my goals i will have tears in my eyes.i dream of creating new contacts not just contacts but connections, i dream of equality . i dream of happiness.

6/2/2016-From today I decide to be a creator . I'm starting off as a victim because its so easy to be a victim.I'm not on the path of mastery yet but I'm aware of this process.Taking the right action is very important ; emotionally difficult...... taking the right action ... just do it ... you are what you repeatedly do excellence is thus a habit and not an act...these are the key solution emotional mastery is also a key maybe to something bigger. 10/2/2016- Updated my LinkedIn profile :-) 12/2/2016- used lot of actulized.org material for my interview however the h.r. lady didn't think that would be beneficial for the marketing job, even though i gave a decent interview. 18/2/2016- I'm going to do the things I need to be doing things that make me happy exercising, meditating, being a non smoker, cleaning up my diet, finding my life purpose, living my life purpose, striving for excellence, striving for mastery... Time to escape the endless climaxes I create in my life cause this is the root cause of my frustration and mysery... I am gonna have to get comfortable while walking on the plateau..... This is my commitment, to self actualizing, secrurity of body,employment,health and pursuing of that infinite energy... 26/2/16-a new presentation has to be created this presentation is a matter of life or death.

Joy

Have been entrenched in my bad habits from three months.I meditated to the setting sun, no view of it because of all buildings. I noticed an uneasiness could not relax even when meditating.i was being mindful to the environment around me, the birds were making a lot of noise, the children were playing, traffic out side... I started breathing heavily. Being mindful to my thoughts I was just allowing everything do nothing technique. Then I started thinking that I am existence itself the building the house the furniture .still being aware that even after meditating I’m not at ease .the birds stopped making noise the children still playing the traffic noise still was there .Could feel a model of a waveform of sinusoidal waves happening in my head as if it was resonating with the sound. The body was twitching many times those small twitches which no one has any control over AND THEN I thought of something imp. To me in my life right now and my body was filled with energy, I was possessed with that thought energy is what it felt like . Can this be a call guys? I was feeling it like this is the call this is the call. And then my muscles cramped stomach muscles leg muscles and then after few min my body calmed down. I did use one principle of coming back to the center by George Leonard. where you come out of your head and focus energy in the center below your navel.

can you please share some resources ? i was filled with lot of energy was up till 3 am studying.

What does that mean? experience even after indulging in lower consciousness stuf??? Like weed and cigarettes

its not that easy to let go , it takes training to do so.

amazing pic .

your dream is so appealing to me ... it will come true that's why we are actualizing :-)

Masculine compassion might work better for me... Leaving little by little thats feminine compassion.. Sometime you got to stand up inside yourself and say shut up!

wow!! a foreigner talking to me and giving me advice :-) its feels so nice and that too such a beautiful lady ...wow! thanks ... :-) seems like thoughts come from no where i have been meditating for a while and thats why i'm saying this ...lets see what more epiphanies i have in the future if i am alive .. i want a nice long life and all these year i've been indulging in smoking and all and it might affect my health in the long run very severely... all these vices are the shadow i'm talking about even in mastery its written if you are on drugs you are not on the path of mastery

the thoughts that smoking stuff and all this is bad and feeling guilty and all who is thinking all this ? who wants a change? a better health ? a better life purpose ? I I I

How about trying to accept reality as it is and not trying to change it?

No difference dude... Just had an epiphany we are all creators , so make sure what you are creating .

Name: Elton Mascarenhas Age: 24 Gender: Male Location: Mumbai, India Occupation: Engineer Marital Status: Single Kids: No Hobbies :Listening to music,driving I got into personal development in 2007, I came across a book called the Magic of thinking big, read The Powers of the sub-conscious mind and how to get from where you are to where you want to be in the time-span of 2007-15... not that slowly :-D didn't take those exercises seriously at all saw the secret too in that period.As I was dealing with emotional pain (didn't know much about females then even though i thought i knew) i came across actualized.org videos trying to self actualize ever since ... Leo is trying to kill his ego at this point and i'm want to build a really strong one... Personal challenges I've overcome: Graduated last year Have achieved open mindedness to some degree and built some confidence. What I'm working on now: Establishment of the meditation Practice Working out Finding my Life Purpose Being on track