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@PhilGR that makes everything fall into perspective if you are really serious about self actualization you would try to get to transcend level to overcome your fear of death.

First you also need not to be angry with him when he is not around. When you are by your self. Also realise that you would have probably done the same. Controlling others behaviour is not easy. 'nothing is good or bad but thinking makes it so. '

@PhilGR continuity of practice is the secret to success.

@Shin i waste I don't know how many hours thinking about sex and worring, I'm thinking that this forum would be a wiser investment of time for me :-) 'one man's floor is another mans ceiling ;)'

Will need few days to upload the previous stuff. But this could be a cure for homeostasis... I feel this will end my downward spiral, will keep you guys updated

I have been following actulized.org since 3 years and had gathered a lot of info the ones I thought really important I wrote them down,also 3 book notes... The icing on the cake is that one note is accessible through my mobile and I have apps whos data I can use for creative journalling directly on my phone!!! Also not ignoring any aspect all my poems and songs will be documented on this journal too... Psychology can be organised is ways after years will be so dam powerful!! Making it real, the writting down of the entire course can be completed wid this aid!!!! Yes!!! Super exited.

@egoless i have purchased the course 2 years ago.

@Jamie Universe self acceptance

@Samra i want to have amazing sex I'm 27 and not yet had intercourse, this could be because deep inside I feel that sex is evil, but I want to reprogramm my subconscious and sketching is critical. Please make a painting to inspire sex within me.

@Leo Gura than how else can you make an impact? just tell me how can I make an impact on the world just by self actulization? I haven't Completed the course but I feel this is most meaningful to me eliminating all addictions,hard and soft, meditation, getting deciplined, having amazing relationships, sex, uprooting all my neurosis, becoming financially independent, I'm not sure if I want to be a life coach but then how will I make a career out of self actualization?

Also mention how did you find it. Did you just assume the polarity of the gender your born with or did you take the initiative to actually find out? I've begun my journey to find out. New techniques is welcomed, please don't recommend books or vedios directly state the action plan.

@Eden hi dear, how are you? How do you feel now?

I've been aware of my own emotions and let go of the need to control or manipulate it. It was awesome, the relationship. However as I didn't want that the relationship continued, it is now over.

Yes

@aurum im good with women but I never end up having intercourse. Does it mean I'm not man enough? Or there is learning to do? Do I fear that I won't be able to satisfy my partner? Is it confidence issue or social conditioning to think that sex is evil? Or I'm a pussy!

Eversince I saw Leos vedio on how to be a man I wanted to do all that he described in that vedio. But what if my true sexual essence is feminine? Then I would never be able to enjoy sex? I would never get the true flow? I want to fuck, cause I feel that thats what a man will do, somehow I have not yet been able to tap into this higher man.

@frnsh im very confused and have discovered how social conditioning plays a huge role in creating gender biases. All I want to do is learn to have amazing sex and create an amazing relationship due to which its necessary to understand my sexual polarity. As per your comment seems like experimentation may help.

Man I have a heavy heart and a tight chest as I write this down... My girlfriend just today confessed about sleeping with another man... Her fiancé... My heart broke into million pieces and I felt like a big block of metal fell over my head and numbed my body... Although this is what I always wanted or not! I'm not sure cause I could not marry her due to many reasons. However when I had attracted her I was new into personal development and was in a very tough situation as I had flunked and wasted two years of my life and every girl would reject me..I had decided then I would never feel the same and would learn how to attract girls anywhere and anytime.. I did learn a lot about girls and now as I write this i have also attracted another girl but still I feel like a pusy when I heard that my ex had sex cause for two years I couldn't do it!!! Yes I'm a 27 year old virgin who hasn't had sex yet... (only foreplay and oral sex) I had left smoking my biggest addiction for more then 6 months and now I've come back to it as though its fresh air to me... Meditation which was the only thing that I could boast about in my personal development journey has come to a stop. Life sucks like before, also I missed a flight from my company and now I fear getting fired my boss has a meeting with me on the 5 March I fear ill health I fear loss of love I fear the opinion of others I fear death I fear poverty I fear emptiness... Now I have lost motivation to even see Leo's vedios that was also something I would be proud of, learning something new.. The things that I've done in the past year if I ve honest about it my friends tell me that I need help... I don't need help guys I have this form I have actulized.org I have some crazy meditation techniques... Please tell me I don't need help, please tell me I don't need help. I feel like radically turning inwards and at the same minute I try and call someone who can console me... I feel like I have tremendous strength but the next moment I feel week and clumsy.. I feel empty, I feel broken, I feel depressed I feel like I should have never been born, I feel worthless I am just wipping myself with the frenzy. I'm my lower self with a small l. It took time to reach here it happens slowly and steadily..

@egoeimai hey Popi :-) relationships are such complicated things... Yesterday whole night I was working on myself in the train trying to accept the situation... I'll try and practice self acceptance throughout the week

Biggest challenges : 1) Self discipline 2) Scarcity mindset 3) competitor mindset Nature of failure: mental imagery and self talk leads me back to addictions and a negative spiral takes place with porn, junk food, criticizing, jealously,etc. Action : mindfulness, hypnosis, affirmation visualization Obstacles : lack of discipline to take the necessary action. Upper limit , homeostasis, fear of success, fear

@krish hey krish I'm good, every month I try quitting and fail, on an average for the last 3 months I quit for 15 days every month, however I don't recognise any such word as failure and I am again in my non smoking phase now, hope I maintain it permanently :-)

After 2 years of this most valuable journey of self mastery I have learnt a lot of things. I've learnt about my self and also about others... There was a lot of progress but I have also at the same time faced a lot of down times... After 2 years of Ups and downs I am now back to the stage I had started before, however I have a lot of theory now and a broad idea of how this journey can unfold... Since I'm back to scratch I will have to start all over again, I will have to systematically create everything again its too painful to backslide and throw all your progress behind but thats how it is... So from now from this very moment I commit to self mastery... This is my life purpose Mastering myself... I will document my progree systematically from today.

I had done the exercise of setting 5 alarms a day to become more aware of emotions however I would just go unconscious and the alarm would ring without me being aware until I found an app that helps me record emotions...  Is it possible to eliminate negative emotions completely?

Yes man even i'm probably doing that all the time fuck!!! Thanks @aurum

I would be glad but people want to change me and make me like them!