MuadDib

26 January 2022 Hours sat: 1 Cumulative hours: 25.5

25 January 2022 Hours sat: 1 Cumulative hours: 24.5

24 January 2022 Hours sat: 1 Cumulative hours: 23.5

23 January 2022 Hours sat: 1 Cumulative hours: 22.5

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21 January 2022 Hous sat: 1 Cumulative hours: 20.5

20 January 2022 Hours sat: 1 Cumulative hours: 19.5

19 January 2022 Hours sat: 1 Cumulative hours: 18.5

18 January 2022 Hours sat: 1 Cumulative hours: 17.5

17 January 2022 Hours sat: 1 Cumulative hours: 16.5

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15 January 2022 Hours sat: 2 Cumulative hours: 14.5 Big Mind, Big Heart

14 January 2022 Hours sat: 1.5 Cumulative hours: 12.5

13 January 2022 Hours sat: 1 Cumulative hours: 11

12 January 2022 Hours sat: 1 Cumulative hours: 10

11 January 2022 Hours sat: 2 Cumulative hours: 9 Zen Parable A tough, brawny samurai once approached a Zen master who was deep in meditation. Impatient and discourteous, the samurai demanded in his husky voice so accustomed to forceful yelling and obediance, “Tell me the nature of heaven and hell.” The Zen master opened his eyes, looked the samurai in the face, and replied with a certain scorn, “Why should I answer to a shabby, disgusting, despondent slob like you? A worm like you, do you think I should tell you anything? I can’t stand you. Get out of my sight. I have no time for silly questions.” The samurai could not bear these insults. Consumed by rage, he drew his sword and raised it to sever the master’s head at once. Looking straight into the samurai’s eyes, the Zen master tenderly declared, “That’s hell.” The samurai froze. He immediately understood that anger had him in its grip. His mind had just created his own hell—one filled with resentment, hatred, self-defense, and fury. He realized that he was so deep in his torment that he was ready to kill somebody. The samurai’s eyes filled with tears. Setting his sword aside, he put his palms together and obsequiously bowed in gratitude for this insight. The Zen master gently acknowledged with a delicate smile, “And that’s heaven.”

10 January 2022 Hours sat: 1 Cumulative hours: 7

9 January 2022 Hours sat: 1.5 Cumulative hours: 6

8 January 2022 Hours sat: 1.5 Cumulative hours: 4.5

7 January 2022 Hours sat: 1 Cumulative hours: 3

6 January 2022 Hours sat: 1 Cumulative hours: 2

5 January 2022 Hours sat: 1 Cumulative hours: 1

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My results from 2 tests taken a few months apart: https://bigfive-test.com/result/607003c8bf70640009116dd6 https://bigfive-test.com/result/614eb26c10887400087b8ab5 Third one taken today: https://bigfive-test.com/result/61c7ec0e0fe7340008823d16 I'd say my biggest problem is my agreeableness. I'm getting more conscious of saying 'no' to people when I really ought to, and listening in to my own authentic desires for myself. Trying to please everyone just ends up making me angry, bitter and resentful as I get walked all over.