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15 January 2022 Hours sat: 2 Cumulative hours: 14.5 Big Mind, Big Heart

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11 January 2022 Hours sat: 2 Cumulative hours: 9 Zen Parable A tough, brawny samurai once approached a Zen master who was deep in meditation. Impatient and discourteous, the samurai demanded in his husky voice so accustomed to forceful yelling and obediance, “Tell me the nature of heaven and hell.” The Zen master opened his eyes, looked the samurai in the face, and replied with a certain scorn, “Why should I answer to a shabby, disgusting, despondent slob like you? A worm like you, do you think I should tell you anything? I can’t stand you. Get out of my sight. I have no time for silly questions.” The samurai could not bear these insults. Consumed by rage, he drew his sword and raised it to sever the master’s head at once. Looking straight into the samurai’s eyes, the Zen master tenderly declared, “That’s hell.” The samurai froze. He immediately understood that anger had him in its grip. His mind had just created his own hell—one filled with resentment, hatred, self-defense, and fury. He realized that he was so deep in his torment that he was ready to kill somebody. The samurai’s eyes filled with tears. Setting his sword aside, he put his palms together and obsequiously bowed in gratitude for this insight. The Zen master gently acknowledged with a delicate smile, “And that’s heaven.”

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My results from 2 tests taken a few months apart: https://bigfive-test.com/result/607003c8bf70640009116dd6 https://bigfive-test.com/result/614eb26c10887400087b8ab5 Third one taken today: https://bigfive-test.com/result/61c7ec0e0fe7340008823d16 I'd say my biggest problem is my agreeableness. I'm getting more conscious of saying 'no' to people when I really ought to, and listening in to my own authentic desires for myself. Trying to please everyone just ends up making me angry, bitter and resentful as I get walked all over.

It might have been a depiction of St George slaying a dragon that demanded human sacrifice. He is venerated by orthodox christians. Apparently he rose to the occasion on the year a beautiful princess was selected to be the sacrifice. It reminds me of this scene from the movie 'Cloud Atlas'.

If its really bad you might want to consider an elemental diet. These are used to treat people with SIBO, but also for people who are unable to digest food properly in medical emergencies. A carnivore diet also works as an elimination diet, but can't be done long term.

Taking a hiatus from this place for the holidays. Have a good one everybody! Try not to behave yourselves too much.

I agwee.

I'm dead serious. I remember Walter Lewin talking about it in one of his physics lectures for MIT. I can't remember which one, but it's in there. Tall Dutch guy, like me ... tallest people in the world on average. When I go there I am pretty much of average height. It's quite the experience to see everyone at eye level, women included!

I'm 192cm in the morning. Everybody is taller when they get out of bed because the disks in the spine aren't compressed when you lay down and they all expand a little. Who the fuck do you think you are? Olympe Maxime? *aggressively tears window out of its frame and puts the kettle on*

In a perfect world, you would be right but it's hard to get modern women to relax out here in the wild. Every little crack, squeak, howl and roar sends them into a frenzy of defensive aggression or withdrawal. You can barely have a sensible conversation with most of them let alone get down to business. The same is true for many yung bloodz that swing this way hoping to learn something.

I don't know man. If I'm going to go to the trouble of leaving my house I may as well feed two birds with one scone, you know what I'm saying?

Tell her you love her.

Good luck out there. I'm going to win deadman mode without throwing a single punch.

Your expression of empathy is improving. Well done, I'm very proud of you.