Lucasxp64

If someone looks at my life from far away, or they listen to me telling about the things I've done. It sounds like I have severe ADHD and couldn't even spell in my own native language to save my own life. But in fact, what has happened is that I always had at different stages in life multiple conflicting interests that I tried to find ways of making them work together, and I'd go back and forth between different things. But the core of the issue, is that effectively, I somehow during the course of weeks, show the pattern of behavior that I don't have the discipline to accomplish a goal more complex than learning a new language, or constructing a written argument, keep a journal with disjointed parts that ends up organically growing over time, as opposed to following a very strict engineering-like kind of plan. Really, anything that is not very easy for me to build habits around it. With this said, I and everyone thinking about an individuals' path also must acknowledge this has taken place across months and years, and they had different energy levels, different habits, different emotional baggage (i.e. stuck in some bad long distance relationship with constant toxic communication) Or brainwashing oneself into watching a bunch of Netflix for a period of time to feel "inspired". Or spending many days of one of those months masturbating to AI images, because systematically they didn't get that urge met in a high-quality kind of way, instead of using that technology for a project that they could have monetized like they intended, instead, the hungry ghost in them has rotten their decision-making process, any great power or resource gets used to feed it in the most direct animalistic manner. Or backtracking on decisions of developing by themselves, specific skills specifically when they must focus the most, it triggers them negative feelings and their minds become hyper-aware of how long it would actually take to develop those skills and how they would meet their needs considering during that time, considering that they live with their parents... But then, always finding a reason to go backwards to any decision to find some local low-paying low-skilled odd job to try to go back to some other online venture that they were almost making work again, but then some extra complexity is hidden there, and they spend the next 2 weeks in a limbo kind of state, perhaps reading a book here and there, even journaling and taking notes, or writing on a forum, to the surprise to bystanders, their lives don't match a fraction of their possible abilities, due to lack at key specific success indicators: Getting paid instead of honing on skills on-off. Backtracking on skill development just before they become marketable, and repeating that pattern over and over again for 8 years after finishing high school not achieving financial aims, because their main aims were never financial to begin with, it just kept morphing into different things Also, due to never really building the environment that would allow them to thrive, sort of catch-22 situation. And let's not even begin what happens to the human self-steem when spending a lot of time within this kind of state. I can just see if I simply could build enough resolve towards a specific direction and exclude other options and ignore my needs for female affection and a million other "a dead by a thousand cuts" things, it would reach that critical mass to exit this loop. I could go on here trying to simplify and add more details, but I'll stop here.

Yeah. I have some more clarity now. I need to chill. That's not a healthy perspective to hold.

I'm always impressed of the tiny million ways we can screw things up... Or, better off, how little they give a shit about us. Un-fucking-believable. That was minutes into an online conversation (It didn't come from an in-person cold approach phone close), with even back and forth audio message exchange, she seemed pretty excited.

Nah. We didn't. I think I just made this post out of emotional response anyway. I'm just trying to analyze technically what I did wrong. Actually the problem wasn't that. It was something else I said before. I'm actually having very high volume of those kinds of chats, and I'm learning proper online chat game. I can sometimes feel when something abruptly changed. Like this one. It's my teasing. It's uncalibrated. My teasing is coming off as an insult. I get an impression of rapport too early, and I see it safe to say certain things. But it's not. Early on they give less benefit of the doubt, and they almost never accept apologies. I use a lot of irony. Here are some examples of things I said that blew it off: (THOSE ARE ONLINE WOMAN, FIRST INTERACTIONS. I Only mention interactions that we had a back-and-forth and those messages stopped it abruptly...) Another example... (another chat) Another... Another... There are other similar stories of how I know it put them off like that. But it's kinda hard to recognize what makes me interesting vs what makes me boring. I should be extremely careful with my teasing. I over do it... Or perhaps those were just other excuses that I perceive as something of my fault.

What kind of prompts you are using? Those common LLMs out there are too aligned with the purpose of being a "Helpful assistant" speech that it's hard for me to get it answering like an actual woman. But I believe if we had a lot of high quality conversation examples it could get better. They don't offer enough resistance and roleplay capabilities are lobotomized, they tend to be bad at narratives with conflict. They sound like some badly written roleplay. The best results I had were with some uncensored models that were weakly aligned, they were closer to an auto-complete model than a "helpful assistant" alignment, Like "Smol LM 2 1.7b Instruct". https://huggingface.co/HuggingFaceTB/SmolLM-1.7B-Instruct Btw, use on the SYSTEM prompt how it should align, the user prompt is weaker at this. But the 360M parameter model funny enough gave me better roreplay because it's less aligned... Maybe because it's dumber it works more like an auto-complete which tends to bias wildly how it answers based on the input text, which is good to give answers outside of that "helpful assistant" lobotomized crap. But it's too dumb to be useful, I don't recommend. I'm still looking into other models that are larger. I could also set up in Kaggle (30h guarantee gpu uptime per week for free, an alternative to Google Colab) and use their Nvidia Tesla P100 (16GB) or T4 (16GB x2 SLI), but it's better if it can run on a CPU because I don't have a lot of GPU allowance.

Please, ground yourself mentally. Get your thoughts worked out. Find help. I personally don't want you to die, even though I don't know you. Bro, I hope you can see the light! And when it comes to politics... It's like the weather, people have been morons since the dawn of time. We can't personally control bad weather.

Summarizing: She says that physicists have been doing research in dumb ways that don't work because of rampant institutional corruption and group-think. Epistemologically lobotomized.

The problem I see with Peterson, is that he's so biased, that he can't accept the fact that the good facts in the bible can also be ridden with garbage alongside it (In it, outside of it, by its community, by the people that preaches to self-identify with it, etc), he felt for the ideology. Like feeling fond of the good Soviet Union times and the comrades we made along the way... And Dawkins says: "And so what? Were those friends even that good?" The point is, you could make friends regardless of a devilish corrupt organization. That closes the case for me. The tidbits of truth in the Bible could have been found through other means. The issue is that, once you have sided with it for a few things, it asks everything from you, and you are likely to go alongside it, so does people go alongside Trump, just because he frames himself as part of the in-group. Very post-truth. Dawkins doesn't like it, he doesn't like that kind of relating, of getting in this state of trance. But he's biased towards science, so whatever, they all have massive blind spots.

I think @Nilsi has a point. At least Jordan Peterson, I think that he genuinely believes in his ideas, but the issue is that along the way of learning about many of those moral truths and whatever other symbols that entices him, he has fallen into it like falling into an ideology, just like how Slavoj Žižek would say, he thinks he has escaped into his dreams, meanwhile, he's actually deep into it. The issue with ideology, is that it DOES OFFER something ENTICING in some way or another, it's not completely soulless, even North Korea has their folklore, and the people can feel genuine love of the leader, their songs, the nice stories, the beautiful dancing women. But it asks to be COMPLETELY ALIGNED with it, like having a good friend, or a wife, etc.; If there is any kind of critic, it must be a shallow soft-ball critic that doesn't undermine it. Cult psychology in some way. The problem is that Peterson he is truly on a crusade, just like Musk is in his crusade to colonize Mars, to have an electric car company... Etc. But the drawback is that sometimes, you don't have much choice of whom to side with (It's just Kamala or Trump, literally). And the matter with Musk, well, he basically already chose to be an asshole and do whatever the heck he wants to get whatever he wants, but he believes that in the grand scheme of things, it doesn't matter, like Steve Jobs being an asshole and putting people together to build great consumer tech. But then we have figures like Trump and Andrew Tate. Those guys are just chaotic evil, Tate literally fucking says it. With Tate and Trump, it's glaringly obvious, they will just say whatever people want to hear. And then, you have someone like Jordan Peterson, that ends up playing the politics game due to his ideals, just the way he would literally support Hitler in Nazi Germany, without the benefit of hindsight. Is building a cult worth it to fight against other cults? 😂 I guess that's how cults form. But it must be a spectrum, being a little sophist, bending the truth here and there isn't so bad, is it? Just some crack, the OX will not care... Put blindfolds on the OX before gorging on shit (Little bit of fecal fetish should not be done in front of our pets 😋🦅🐂💩) I guess that's the HOLY SACRIFICE we must make in the name of Jesus, just how he sacrificed himself. 🙏 But seriously, though, there must be some minimal compromise in how the message is delivered to increase reach, but that doesn't compromise in the ultimate message and doesn't create organizational corruption. The right thing for Peterson would have been to demonize Trump, and the whole political system that out of MILLIONS of Americans, the nation will pick that motherfucker, I'm sure there are conservatives that are a better pick. Choosing to eat shit instead of rotten bread is not a great way of voting. Unfortunately, I guess playing those power games comes with the downsides of doing things like voting for evil politicians, just because they side with your goals. People are so predictable, holy shit. Even Peterson with his big symbolic reasoning head fell for it. But there must be some other way, there must be a middle path, like how the Buddha found one after years of literally torturing himself through the period of his austerities and almost starving to death alongside extremist asceticism. There must be the modern information age equivalent of extreme asceticism and on developing the "charisma" on the other hand.

I believe to speak more articulated fluently and with substance is about practicing certain patterns of organizing thought and making connections between things in some very specific ways. You can see that with modern politicians, they are extremely consistent in the patterns they use to speak, and they don't deviate from them much. On the other hand, Leo Gura's style of speaking is more explorative in nature. Other styles of speaking, such as talking casually or with a friend, is primarily about the mental inner frame you are operating from. That already will give an instantaneous boost to be able to tap into those mental frames, from that perspective, it doesn't look very different from someone doing Game/Dating, world-class sales people selling to somebody a product, pitching a product in an online webinar, etc. But obviously, it will only express what you are already capable of expressing but is at the subconscious level waiting to be triggered. There are certain models they use, such as repeating exactly what people want to hear by studying them, kinda like creating marketing copywriting material. I believe there is that CONSCIOUS ASPECT that I just described. And there is the subconscious, you actually need exposure to that kind of speech to remember bits and pieces and doing so with THE INTENT OF IMPROVING, as opposed to simply processing like we usually do and not paying attention to the subtle details they deploy, and obviously following principles of MASTERY DEVELOPMENT and STRATEGIC THINKING, how it would usually be for any other skill. That's my take based on my reflections of learning and improving my spoken English, and currently with acquiring some French (😂 Mais, je ne sais pas pourquoi je le fais, c'est simplement un challenge pour moi maintenant) (Recently, I basically just switched the ASMR I listen in English to French, and learned the basics consciously, and unconsciously I just began picking up the language) But what took me from beginner level to intermediary, and finally, what will take me to advanced... They aren't quite the same techniques, although there is an overlap and stacking of previous techniques with newer ones. The law of diminishing returns is a bitch, there is only so much that subconscious language acquisition can do.Some techniques that might be useful: Recording with Shadowing (Repeating alongside a speaker of your choice) Recording with a script (And making it sound natural) Recording off-script Pay attention to: Prosody Use a synonym dictionary (Don't ever blindly use words you don't know the meaning, but use it to remember them) Use ANKI (To memorize new words, expressions, or whatever other tidbits you want) STORY TELLING TACTICS: Google "pip decks storyteller tactics"

Project 2025 sounds on paper all of the above. https://www.actualized.org/insights/project-2025-undercover https://www.actualized.org/insights/project-2025-out-loud https://www.actualized.org/insights/project-2025-warning

I guess the point is that some people make it into their whole lives building rotating harems of 20-100 women and lying to them like a tech bro high on cocaine pitching to his investors, as opposed to someone doing it more holistically. Some guys literally run WHOLE BUSINESSES to build actual business funnels to attract women at an actual industrial scale, and they create fake events and fake travels for "photo shooting" to getting extremely hot women to join them on their yachts and expensive vacations, and they obviously do it for the sex.

Ew. Social media makes me sick in my stomach, I already find that results on Google are awful to begin with for most keywords, and long essays on YouTube and some forums/articles will have gold nuggets, and speaking with a LLM (ChatGPT, Mistral, Claude, etc) is much better for opinion-based information, even considering how flawed they are for logic and reasoning, they excel at lack of bias, even considering how censored the most censored models are. The uncensored language models are also very unbiased and sane, I recommend trying them. But they are still really dumb even then, I never found one that I can speak about direct experiential reality without it answering like the first articles that appears on google. I recommend on duck.ai from it's from duckduckgo.

Dawkins is a fucking idiot spiritually, he couldn't grasp, not even the Buddhist kind of enlightenment. Let alone grasping infinity.

This feels very unnerving to me. "He's like that to shield the tenderness of his heart" (not verbatim). Gosh, we're screwed.

That's not a perfect metric. It has some overlap, but not completely. I believe getting followers leans more towards BEING GOOD AT GIVING THE IMPRESSION OF SKILLFULNESS rather than being skillful by itself. It's like guys doing game for dating. Faking can only take someone so far, but that can be enough to get a lot of women and followers and money. Like so many of those productivity gurus on YouTube are actual doctors, but people think they are in a position to give the best advice on productivity, when in reality, their videos have very shallow and basic advice that gets nowhere close to what Leo Gura gives. But also it can be a fake-it-until-you-make-it kind of catch-22 situation, so I think we shouldn't be so quick to judge. But that's what marketing does, it biases us towards doing what is good for marketing, but isn't high conscious.

Perfect analogy. Buddha had it, and he is like the religious equivalent to the modern David Deida talking about sex.

I find everywhere personal development gurus saying stuff like: "I had a [instagram, etc] with 1 Million followers, but it was taken down due to saying too much the truth". It's disgusting, their marketing. I don't want to become a personal dev coach and do marketing like that.

I'm posing with my crocodile partner, before going into a grand heist to conquer the world. (GTA 6 DLC) FAMILY VALUES. 🙏🐊

LMAO. Use the forum as a tool bro. Literally, most of the time I find GOLDEN comments here through Googling, stuff that's 5, almost 10-year-old even. "search term site:actualized.org"

I personally don't give a shit about it being seen low socially. I care about the pay. If being a garbage collector, did pay me great, I'd do that. But because my mind is essentially split among different interests (even though I didn't nail down into one thing, I do have a life purpose direction...), I'd probably not want to waste my time being a garbage collector due to it leaving me too tired at the end of the day, concern with getting diseases from the trash (cutting myself, etc). Nothing at all about how others would perceive. I don't even think that women give a shit, I bet if I said I was a garbage collector for some kind of special industry (Nuclear industry, going to nuclear sites and doing containment of materials, etc), but it pays extraordinarily well, they wouldn't think that bad of it... Maybe it could have a disgust factor to it at best. But even then, the point is, even the ideal of social prestige is bullshit, people care about the pay (Ergg.. gold digger women at a first instance), they just infer the pay with the profession's name. lol And even the pay, I just matter to ourselves, and even there we can be misguided in how much we really need.