@ElvisN If you find absolutely nothing fascinating or interesting about reality, it's impossible to help you.
It takes extraordinary arrogance, blindness, and ingratitude, not to find all aspects of reality deeply fascinating.
A miracle is happening all around you every minute and all you can do is shrug your shoulders and say, "Meh".

They can be, depending on how deeply you pursue them.
But if you're just dabbling in those things then it won't be enough, it won't be very meaningful because it's such a weak, shallow, self-absorbed purpose.
What is the point of all your reading of books? What will you do with it? Just sit there looking at your toilet? That's not inspiring.
See, if you were reading books in order to help mankind colonize Mars, that would be deeply meaningful and inspiring.

I thought about it. I'd be down for it but I don't like dealing with clients. It can be a pain in the ass. If someone was willing to do all the sales and client/account management, I could get on board with it. 
Also, maybe a better idea is to come up with complete business solutions for tiny businesses. For example, there are tons of successful one-man and even 3-5 man HVAC businesses that are stuck and don't know how to scale. You could offer them a complete brand, digital, and business strategy package for like 40-50k a pop and have all the systems basically plug and play. It would take a bit of set up in the beginning but once all the systems were dialed in, it would mostly just be a matter of sales. I've heard of people doing things like this and it seems like a sweet ass gig. 

You have to be careful about how you interpret things I say. You might think I said something which I didn't say.
For example, I didn't say that you should not socialize, not have friends, not pursue money or business, or not work on a technology related to crypto.
I say a lot of things generally, in the abstract. That doesn't mean all of it applies to you or that what you're doing is even what I'm talking about.
Obviously the crypto field is full of scams and nonsense. But saying so does not mean that there is zero legit use of that technology. Maybe you are working in a niche which isn't a scam. Then again, maybe you are fooling yourself about the usefulness of your work. You shouldn't rely on me to determine that. You gotta think for yourself. I speak in generalizations and abstractions. It's up to you to figure how and where these generalizations apply and where they do not.
Much of how humans achieve success IS evil and corrupt. But, again, not everything. There are better and worse ways of doing business and making money. Obviously I'm not against doing legitimate business in alignment with your values. Again, I cannot know whether your business is legit or not, or how corrupt it is.
Corruption is a serious problem that afflicts all of mankind in various ways. Much of it is even unavoidable. Then again, much of it is so excessive that it is avoidable and unnecessary. It just all depends on your specific situation. When I speak of corruption I make broad general claims and explain the principles by which corruption works. It is then up to you to decide what kind of values you wanna live by and how much corruption you're willing to stomach. I have a complex view of corruption. I don't believe that all corruption can be avoided, because it's entangled with your very existence and survival. So I'm realistic about it. I don't expect moral purity from humans.
Becoming conscious of mankind's corruption IS psychologically challenging. That's not a mistake. But you have to be careful not to dwell too much in cynicism because in the end that becomes counter-productive, dysfunctional, and untruthful. You have to find a way to integrate it, not just moralize about it. Blaming everyone for being evil and selfish is not high development. Moralizing is its own trap. Then again, living by higher values is possible.
As I came to understand the extent of mankind's corruption and untruthfulness, yes, I did blackpill/disillusion myself somewhat. That's part of what happens with deep understanding. There's good reason why humans do not do this work. But also, I'm keenly aware that becoming too cynical and blackpilled would be a trap. So this requires balance. I go through phases where I'm more negative and then phases where I'm more positive. It's part of the development process. Especially over the last year I've been through some dark realizations. But that doesn't mean that's some permanent position I occupy. But I have shed many illusions in the last year especially as my understanding of things deepens and becomes more realistic.
It's confusing because actual growth and understanding is happening. This means old views have to be reconsidered and changed. It's easy to not be confused just by not doing any serious expansion of your understanding of reality. That's what most people do. Confusion is a sign that you're actually rethinking things and changing your mind.
Life purpose is still valid and valuable. Corruption is that which will veer you off your highest purpose. So there's a deep connection between these two topics.
Be careful with the "distance yourself from people" thing. That's not something I recommend.
I am not against:
Business Money Sex Dating Socialization These things have their place and are necessary for most people in their development. Especially young people. Skipping or avoiding these things out of a sense of moral purity is more likely to lead to problems than something great. If I'm negative about these things it's because I've done them and seen through the illusion that they are. Which is different from not doing them out of fear, laziness, discomfort, or whatever.

You can work to get a well-paying job, move out from your parents, and then pursue art afterwards by saving up money and enrolling in a school.
Your LP requires long-term strategy. You won't necessarily be able to do it right off the bat. I had to work in online marketing for 3-4 years (which I hated) to make the money to fund my LP.
Stop blindly obeying your parents. They have no idea what is best for you. You don't have to do anything they say. Just get a job and move out and stop letting them dictate your life.
If you care about your LP you will not let anyone dictate you.

Ahah i didn’t see.
French girls are the best women on europe. 😉 The most cultured, those who know how to cook best, those who dress best, etc. They also look like me, obviously. 
I also love Latina women for other reasons, they tend to have generous curves, a lot of libido and be very sensual.
 

https://pi.ai/  (Very emotional. It has a nice personality and voices, you can voice call it without limits) - If you're in a country they are not in yet, just download the Android APK file from APKmirror. https://duck.ai/ (Avaliable: GPT4o-Mini, Claude 3 Haiku, Llama 3.1 70b, Mixtral 7x8b) -- IT REQUIRES NO LOGIN. They don't store the conversations. They are privacy-friendly, you can even use it through the TOR network (you don't have to, but if you wished to keep it extra private) and ask it whatever you want and it's NOT possible to be banned or limited since you don't even login, and they don't even have captchas, and were extremely reliable to me. (From the DuckDuckGo privacy-friendly search engine) https://aistudio.google.com (You can use the Gemini Flash 1.5) to use its context window of 1 Million tokens, you can upload several books of text as TXT and ask it questions (Although, it doesn't work as good as you would expect, seems to be descent for large code bases and documentations, better than simply using RAG techniques). It's not as smart a GPT4o but it's still nice. You can also use it as an API for free. For example I use it in VSCODE as a free copilot. https://gemini.google.com/ The version of Gemini Flash but for the public in general. The free AI Studio from google there is a limited offer of this free one. https://labs.google.com/search/experiment/1 TURN ON for having AI responses (It uses Gemini Flash probably, just as dumb) in your Google Search. https://stablehorde.net/ - Crowdsourced AI for image generation and text. https://github.com/jhj0517/Whisper-WebUI (Transcribe audio to text, you can use fast GPUs in Google Colab for free) Perhaps try Kaggle for 30h weekly GPU time. Works in CPU Mode too.  

There are 10 stages to genocide. And name-calling is a key ingredient in the 1st of the 10 stages (classification).
So, if society normalizes name-calling... it's already taken the first step to becoming a genocide.
That's why those who are in support of genocide want to convince the populace that everyone's "too sensitive" and "too PC".
Those with genocidal intent from the jump knows that part of their first matter of business in mobilizing the relatively non-genocidal populace towards the enemy group is to normalize name-calling... and to frame people who are against it as a bunch of PC woke-scolds who can't take a joke.

What is your favorite movie?

What is your favorite book?

What is your biggest complaint about other people?

What is your biggest complaint about your own behavior?

What are the biggest problems that you recognize in the world?
What did you spend most of your daydream time as a youth daydreaming about?

Do you want to engage with society and help build more of what we've been building or would you like a more isolated and lazy type lifestyle?

Have you spent time mapping out your personality and interests? Things that make you happy, things that annoy you, etc.

Who in your peer group (anyone working on something) has the coolest professions? What are the top 3?
Do you expect a purpose to be everlasting and unchanging or does it flow with your own development?

Rate your emotional and cognitive self awareness on a scale of 1-100

I don't know you, but if you answer these questions I’ll throw some totally random ideas at you - might trigger a thought in you that leads to something you like. Sometimes we just need to see something to unlock the gate that is creative self awareness.  As life progresses, the depth of your experience will illuminate new pathways that were previously unseen.

Your purpose is predestined insomuch as your thoughts are the foundation of dependent origination (as far as I can tell). Just gotta build that unwavering commitment to accomplish your goals in the face of any and every adversity.

Cheers.

@Preety_India
Given your medical history, I believe there is only one way.
Visualize your main specific goals (max 3) for 15 min. straight, for a period of 90 days, to rewire your subconscious.
This is from Leo's LP course. 
You cannot miss it even for one day no matter what. Do it for 90 days consistently. It will fail if you skip it for even just 1 freakin' day. If you think you are about to die tomorrow still take the time to do this 15 min. exercise, just in case.
At your current point in life, I believe that it will increase your productivity by 3-4 times. About 95 percent probability of success. Allow you to be productive for about 3-4 hours daily consistently for your chosen goal. (5 percent uncertainty is for trauma and depression-related conditions which are hard to predict).
 
 
You can build the critical fundamentals as outlined by other people in this thread on top of this. Don't skip the 15 min. routine though.

I started reading Way of the Superior Man and the first chapter slapped me in the face saying:
"Spend at least an hour today giving your fullest gift, whatever that is for today, so that when you go to sleep at night you know you couldn't have lived your day with more courage, creativity, and giving."
What in the fuck nuggets is my fullest gift? 
So this got me thinking....
What's my dream career? What do I find the most joy in doing? What are dope skills and hobbies that can eventually lead to careers? What are some dope skills and hobbies that align with my deepest values and goals?
More importantly, WHAT ARE MY OPTIONS?
I have a general idea of what I should do with my life (meditation, enlightenment, YouTube channel, become real life Socrates from the book Way of the Peaceful Warrior, get fit, be happy, spread love, completely understand reality, embody love, have beautiful mind blowing sex, maybe parkour and freerunning, etc etc) but I don't know where specifically I wanna go. What my fullest gift is. What my calling is. I'm interested in so many things yet lack the clarity and focus to have a specific life purpose.
But throughout each day I wander through the day without a clear focus other than meditating three times a day and reading an hour a day.
I'm lacking direction.
I've tried googling it. YouTubing it. 
Every video I find, it's like "follow your excitements!!!!! what are you passionate about?????" 
Then there's me just sitting here like a lost poodle saying "I"M PASSIONATE ABOUT BASICALLY EVERYTHING AND NOTHING AT THE SAME TIME."
I've been lusting over Leo's Life Purpose Course because it claims to resolve all this bullshit I'm going through butttttttt my finances do not permit anything of the sort.
I have lots of time on my hands, just not financially independent yet and am lacking the money to splurge on courses like that.
So yeah, I need direction.
Any suggestions?
 
 

The fuck does that have to do with hobbies? Are hobbies everything in life?
Hobbies are optional. Look into a full revamp, re-understanding of your life.
There are many other forms of happiness. Take a look at this model based on one of Leo's earlier videos:
Lowest Tier Drugs Food Partying Drinking Beauty Money Shopping, Materials Media, Entertainment Gossip, Idle Socialization, Shallow relationships Fame, Sucess, Status Validation, Approval Porn, Sex Romantic Infatuation Mid Tier Hobbies Exercise, Health Habits Strong friendships and relationships Family Deep Loving Companion Highest Tier Learning, Education Excellent work and flow states Inner development Therapy Coaching Exercises Journaling Meditation Seminars Workshops Self-Acceptance, Self-Esteem, Confidence Gratitude Integrity Living up to values, doing meaningful activities in your life, honoring commitments, not stealing, not cheating, not harming others, keeping commitments to yourself Kindness, Contribution, Altruism Being, Existing, Enlightenment, Awakening Practice through meditation I doubt your problem is simply feeling bored with hobbies or life as unless you have zero problems, then there is an issue you can fix (or some suffering you can eliminate). Also, there are other higher goals/endeavors (or some enjoyment you can create) than pursuing "hobbies" (although you can do whatever you want if you want to pursue  "hobbies" you can do that as well).
I find the notion of "hobbies" kinda stupid, restricting, and limited. Ideally, everything should be a "hobby". It's not like you want to have set aside time for all things hobbies/fun, that should be all day. Unless you are already rich / financially free or in some sort of dream job/profession/career (which doesn't make sense because you are having trouble with hobbies), you already have a major problem (I. E wage slavery) to overcome. You should focus on solving problems (eliminating suffering) and maximizing value (creating enjoyment) in your life, not fucking around with "hobbies".
Take a look at
Some major endeavors/areas to look into are
Purpose/Passion Financial Freedom Enlightenment/Awakening Sexual/Romantic Abundance Unless your life is perfect (and it will never be), there is really no "reason" to feel bored, life has infinite possibilities. Do you really think you have fully explored life, and all the value, enjoyment, enrichment, and interests it has to offer? Then your choosing to feel bored. And even if you have explored significantly, there is always something beyond. Trust me
Go out there and create an amazing life, not only with "hobbies" but with all areas and valuable endeavors
 

There's no good measure for this.
Realistically 1-2 years of hardcore going out are needed to start getting decent.
People learn at very different rates and in different conditions.

It's not just a function of momentum. Actual permanent skills are built.
But momentum is important.
One of the best guys in game who I know tells me that if he stops going out for some months, it takes him weeks to rebuild his momentum.
Your interpretation is incorrect. I haven't gone out for a year. I could go out tonight and my skills will still be solid. A bit rusty. In fact, thanks to consciousness work my skills will have deepened without even going out because I understand reality deeper.

Much of success depends upon playing into the illusions and fantasies that mankind doesn't even realize it has constructed.

You won't go mad, but it will hinder your survival.
Humans live in a fantasy world of their own construction, and if you become intelligent enough to see through that fantasy it hinders your ability to play those games.

What's outrageous is the crap you guys speak here about Awakening.
I am not playing nice with you. I will beat you with a broomstick if you speak falsehoods about Awakening. THAT is my leadership. If you cannot handle it, there is the door.
You actually believe you can manipulate me with your crying when I call out your games?! How dare you.
If you play games with me I will beat you over the head until you hate me and leave. You will Awaken or you will hate me. One or the other. Maybe both. I will destroy everything you believe. That is what I do.
The problem here is that you think you have figured most of this out and that I'm just being a jerk for no reason. I am being a jerk to you because you are fooling yourself and will not Awaken otherwise. You force me to use emotion against you because you will not listen to calm reason.
I want you to have nightmares of me beating you with a broomstick for daring to think you understand GOD.
I am not going to play any of these spiritual games of acting like a humble pious saint. All of that, which you have been brainwashed to believe Awakening is like, is crap and illusions. You judge how conscious someone is by how nice they treat you. No! I treat you bad precisely because I am more conscious than any of these Eckhart Tolle/Rupert Spira idiots. They are fooling you. If I treated you nice you would not be serious enough. This is like military. There are higher priorities here than being nice to you.
I don't expect you to understand me. Not for years. Maybe after a decade of work you will finally understand why I act exactly as I do. There is an insane intelligence behind what I say. It's too intelligent for you to comprehend. Not because you can't, but because you take this work for granted. You take it as something straightforward.

For example, you're generally not horny anymore after ejaculation. It takes time to build up to the same level of sexual appetite, which is a hormonal process (among other things). It's more adaptable than say a menstrual cycle, but it's a cycle nonetheless: horniness -> ejaculation -> decrease in horniness -> celibacy -> increase in horniness etc.
The overarching point is that everything that is physical is cyclical, and that there are many different cyclical systems, and that many of the cycles especially in the body influence each other. Repressing one system might create an inbalance in other systems and the system as a whole.

This could be true. Improper breath work and mental madness are an often phenomena.
Overall, those are some strange symptoms you're having. Perhaps you're sending too much energy up your head without beinging it down to the dantien. Taoist always say that too much energy in your head can make you go crazy.
What is the breathing excercise you're doing if you don't mind sharing?

People often cherish the positive effects of nofap while ignoring the potential side effects like sleep problems, chronic stress, restlessness, bodily tightness, aggression, emotional numbness etc. Your body is intelligent and will tell you what it needs to maintain optimal functioning. The body follows natural cycles, and messing with these cycles (like the reproductive cycles) can impact other cycles like sleep. It's not just females that have a reproductive cycle. Male sexual behavior is also cyclical in its own way, which is driven by physiological mechanisms. Transcending these cycles cannot be done forcefully, only through growth. High consciousness people who are celibate don't have to work to maintain celibacy. It happens naturally. Don't got against your nature.

Hello everyone. My name is Zack and I am new to this forum. 

I'd like to share my experiences with psychosis and see if anyone can relate or offer guidance. When I was 21 I had my first psychosis. I think it was caused by stress. I was a terrible insomniac back then. Struggled with working as an electrician because I always felt so tired and fatigued! I didn't seem to get much nutrition from the food I ate which was the most nutrient dense 'super-foods'. That psychosis lasted around 6 months where I was drugged against my will into a state where I slept all day and night. Didn't feel very human after this experience. 

At this point I was at my wits end with health and my body. I had tried nearly everything concerning dietetics and psychological mind-over-matter garbage. The last thing I turned to was raw animal foods. Meat, milk and eggs, all eaten raw. Understandably I get this is controversial, but I don't want to dwell upon it. I've done it for almost 8 years and I feel very good doing it. 

What I am struggling with is retaining sexual energy, and the effects it has on my body. Around 2019 I came across the idea of 'Jing' from Taoist practices. I started to practice semen retention, tantric sex, and pelvic floor exercises mixed with deep breathing to move sexual energy up the spine. The effects were great. I did go through some rough patches where these practices brought me symptoms of fatigue and nausea. But after that passed some amazing things started to happen. Trees started to look holographic. I started to see waves emanating off peoples bodies. I thought they were auras, still not sure. Near the tail end of this experience. I was in euphoria and often felt like I was on mushrooms.

Sadly this all came to an end. The euphoria turned to delusions and paranoia. In Fall of 2020, I had my second psychosis. I am still in disbelief this happened. I was so stable, for literally years, with no need for medication. Sadly I was drugged against my will again, but fortunately, I came out of my psychosis very quick this time, so I wasn't as injured by the drugs. Still took me about a year to get back to my regular self.

I am back to enjoying life again. Things are good. I sleep good. I eat good. My amazing girlfriend actually stuck with me through all this. But I am back to desiring more out of this human experience. This is leading me back to breathwork and retaining my sexual energy. 

My experience this time is that after about a month of retaining sexual energy I identified I was getting a bit overenergetic. Where I can feel my heart beating loudly and cannot sleep. Having mild grandiose thoughts, mild paranoia. So thankfully, I can identify this state now which is potentially leading to psychosis, and what I did was to simply release my sexual energy a few times. Next day, back to normal, although mildy fatigued and depressed in comparison.

So here is my dilemma. I want to get to a point where I can retain all my sexual energy, and do lots of breathwork, and attain these higher states. But when I do it for too long I enter mania, if I keep going I would risk psychosis. I don't know why I am hitting this 'mental illness wall'. Perhaps my brain is not ready for this much Jing to be sent up. Maybe the breathwork I am doing is bad? Or maybe I am doing too much pelvic floor lifting exercises. Sometimes I would do it all day. Or maybe ---- The scariest of all for me ---- maybe these symptoms of madness are necessary to get to the next stage for my particular body. 

Anyways thanks for the read, if you'd like to share your experiences with this I would love to hear it.



 

The key is to rapidly learn deep lessons from your failure and to change how you approach things, so that you're creatively adapting to feedback rather than just doing the same thing which isn't working.
Keep asking yourself, why is this failing? How could it be changed to make it work?
Failure is a sign that there's something you're not understanding about reality. Your job is to figure out what that is.

Ofcrouse it's a diffrent skillset and you are gonna have to adjust your approch but the fundementals of closing, hadnling social pressure, calibration, esclation (in the context of sales) mindset, value offering, rapport, rejection mangement etc goes along way. I have dated multiple girls at once. Now I have moved on but unless for sales I would not have been able to.

I wanted to share this video. Intersex person with a penis and vigina who later turned into a guy with two dicks. For me what's astonishing is the fact that he seems confident and had sexual experiences which he can talk about. His game must be on point. If I was intersex I could totally see myself as becoming a victim and getting no ass. 
 
Additionally its interesting how he describes sex with men and woman. He says that he prefers sex with woman because they are 100 times more emotional, whereas men just want to fuck and evacuate. He does admit that having sex with men felt nice, but the emotional sex with woman was better for him. This led to decision to become a man in his teens. 
 
 

Cheap talk and excessive communication no matter how trashy creates an image of friendliness. I don't see a lot of intelligent people in powerful positions. Intelligent ones are generally quiet. People are charmed by a compulsive talker even if he talks rubbish. The next is drama and stimulation. People like drama. A dull person cannot hold the attention of masses. People like Trump are familiar with entertainment and can generate drama that the lowest common denominator feeds on. There is a need to directly rile up people's emotions by fear mongering or sympathizing their hopes, this is the opium. You feed people with rubbish talk and drama so they are engaged like little children. That's why Hitler was popular. He emphasized people's hopes. He gave them constant drama. He created friendliness in German people through constant rubbish banter. 
That's the key.