I started reading Way of the Superior Man and the first chapter slapped me in the face saying:
"Spend at least an hour today giving your fullest gift, whatever that is for today, so that when you go to sleep at night you know you couldn't have lived your day with more courage, creativity, and giving."
What in the fuck nuggets is my fullest gift? 
So this got me thinking....
What's my dream career? What do I find the most joy in doing? What are dope skills and hobbies that can eventually lead to careers? What are some dope skills and hobbies that align with my deepest values and goals?
More importantly, WHAT ARE MY OPTIONS?
I have a general idea of what I should do with my life (meditation, enlightenment, YouTube channel, become real life Socrates from the book Way of the Peaceful Warrior, get fit, be happy, spread love, completely understand reality, embody love, have beautiful mind blowing sex, maybe parkour and freerunning, etc etc) but I don't know where specifically I wanna go. What my fullest gift is. What my calling is. I'm interested in so many things yet lack the clarity and focus to have a specific life purpose.
But throughout each day I wander through the day without a clear focus other than meditating three times a day and reading an hour a day.
I'm lacking direction.
I've tried googling it. YouTubing it. 
Every video I find, it's like "follow your excitements!!!!! what are you passionate about?????" 
Then there's me just sitting here like a lost poodle saying "I"M PASSIONATE ABOUT BASICALLY EVERYTHING AND NOTHING AT THE SAME TIME."
I've been lusting over Leo's Life Purpose Course because it claims to resolve all this bullshit I'm going through butttttttt my finances do not permit anything of the sort.
I have lots of time on my hands, just not financially independent yet and am lacking the money to splurge on courses like that.
So yeah, I need direction.
Any suggestions?
 
 

The fuck does that have to do with hobbies? Are hobbies everything in life?
Hobbies are optional. Look into a full revamp, re-understanding of your life.
There are many other forms of happiness. Take a look at this model based on one of Leo's earlier videos:
Lowest Tier Drugs Food Partying Drinking Beauty Money Shopping, Materials Media, Entertainment Gossip, Idle Socialization, Shallow relationships Fame, Sucess, Status Validation, Approval Porn, Sex Romantic Infatuation Mid Tier Hobbies Exercise, Health Habits Strong friendships and relationships Family Deep Loving Companion Highest Tier Learning, Education Excellent work and flow states Inner development Therapy Coaching Exercises Journaling Meditation Seminars Workshops Self-Acceptance, Self-Esteem, Confidence Gratitude Integrity Living up to values, doing meaningful activities in your life, honoring commitments, not stealing, not cheating, not harming others, keeping commitments to yourself Kindness, Contribution, Altruism Being, Existing, Enlightenment, Awakening Practice through meditation I doubt your problem is simply feeling bored with hobbies or life as unless you have zero problems, then there is an issue you can fix (or some suffering you can eliminate). Also, there are other higher goals/endeavors (or some enjoyment you can create) than pursuing "hobbies" (although you can do whatever you want if you want to pursue  "hobbies" you can do that as well).
I find the notion of "hobbies" kinda stupid, restricting, and limited. Ideally, everything should be a "hobby". It's not like you want to have set aside time for all things hobbies/fun, that should be all day. Unless you are already rich / financially free or in some sort of dream job/profession/career (which doesn't make sense because you are having trouble with hobbies), you already have a major problem (I. E wage slavery) to overcome. You should focus on solving problems (eliminating suffering) and maximizing value (creating enjoyment) in your life, not fucking around with "hobbies".
Take a look at
Some major endeavors/areas to look into are
Purpose/Passion Financial Freedom Enlightenment/Awakening Sexual/Romantic Abundance Unless your life is perfect (and it will never be), there is really no "reason" to feel bored, life has infinite possibilities. Do you really think you have fully explored life, and all the value, enjoyment, enrichment, and interests it has to offer? Then your choosing to feel bored. And even if you have explored significantly, there is always something beyond. Trust me
Go out there and create an amazing life, not only with "hobbies" but with all areas and valuable endeavors
 

There's no good measure for this.
Realistically 1-2 years of hardcore going out are needed to start getting decent.
People learn at very different rates and in different conditions.

It's not just a function of momentum. Actual permanent skills are built.
But momentum is important.
One of the best guys in game who I know tells me that if he stops going out for some months, it takes him weeks to rebuild his momentum.
Your interpretation is incorrect. I haven't gone out for a year. I could go out tonight and my skills will still be solid. A bit rusty. In fact, thanks to consciousness work my skills will have deepened without even going out because I understand reality deeper.

Much of success depends upon playing into the illusions and fantasies that mankind doesn't even realize it has constructed.

You won't go mad, but it will hinder your survival.
Humans live in a fantasy world of their own construction, and if you become intelligent enough to see through that fantasy it hinders your ability to play those games.

What's outrageous is the crap you guys speak here about Awakening.
I am not playing nice with you. I will beat you with a broomstick if you speak falsehoods about Awakening. THAT is my leadership. If you cannot handle it, there is the door.
You actually believe you can manipulate me with your crying when I call out your games?! How dare you.
If you play games with me I will beat you over the head until you hate me and leave. You will Awaken or you will hate me. One or the other. Maybe both. I will destroy everything you believe. That is what I do.
The problem here is that you think you have figured most of this out and that I'm just being a jerk for no reason. I am being a jerk to you because you are fooling yourself and will not Awaken otherwise. You force me to use emotion against you because you will not listen to calm reason.
I want you to have nightmares of me beating you with a broomstick for daring to think you understand GOD.
I am not going to play any of these spiritual games of acting like a humble pious saint. All of that, which you have been brainwashed to believe Awakening is like, is crap and illusions. You judge how conscious someone is by how nice they treat you. No! I treat you bad precisely because I am more conscious than any of these Eckhart Tolle/Rupert Spira idiots. They are fooling you. If I treated you nice you would not be serious enough. This is like military. There are higher priorities here than being nice to you.
I don't expect you to understand me. Not for years. Maybe after a decade of work you will finally understand why I act exactly as I do. There is an insane intelligence behind what I say. It's too intelligent for you to comprehend. Not because you can't, but because you take this work for granted. You take it as something straightforward.

For example, you're generally not horny anymore after ejaculation. It takes time to build up to the same level of sexual appetite, which is a hormonal process (among other things). It's more adaptable than say a menstrual cycle, but it's a cycle nonetheless: horniness -> ejaculation -> decrease in horniness -> celibacy -> increase in horniness etc.
The overarching point is that everything that is physical is cyclical, and that there are many different cyclical systems, and that many of the cycles especially in the body influence each other. Repressing one system might create an inbalance in other systems and the system as a whole.

This could be true. Improper breath work and mental madness are an often phenomena.
Overall, those are some strange symptoms you're having. Perhaps you're sending too much energy up your head without beinging it down to the dantien. Taoist always say that too much energy in your head can make you go crazy.
What is the breathing excercise you're doing if you don't mind sharing?

People often cherish the positive effects of nofap while ignoring the potential side effects like sleep problems, chronic stress, restlessness, bodily tightness, aggression, emotional numbness etc. Your body is intelligent and will tell you what it needs to maintain optimal functioning. The body follows natural cycles, and messing with these cycles (like the reproductive cycles) can impact other cycles like sleep. It's not just females that have a reproductive cycle. Male sexual behavior is also cyclical in its own way, which is driven by physiological mechanisms. Transcending these cycles cannot be done forcefully, only through growth. High consciousness people who are celibate don't have to work to maintain celibacy. It happens naturally. Don't got against your nature.

Hello everyone. My name is Zack and I am new to this forum. 

I'd like to share my experiences with psychosis and see if anyone can relate or offer guidance. When I was 21 I had my first psychosis. I think it was caused by stress. I was a terrible insomniac back then. Struggled with working as an electrician because I always felt so tired and fatigued! I didn't seem to get much nutrition from the food I ate which was the most nutrient dense 'super-foods'. That psychosis lasted around 6 months where I was drugged against my will into a state where I slept all day and night. Didn't feel very human after this experience. 

At this point I was at my wits end with health and my body. I had tried nearly everything concerning dietetics and psychological mind-over-matter garbage. The last thing I turned to was raw animal foods. Meat, milk and eggs, all eaten raw. Understandably I get this is controversial, but I don't want to dwell upon it. I've done it for almost 8 years and I feel very good doing it. 

What I am struggling with is retaining sexual energy, and the effects it has on my body. Around 2019 I came across the idea of 'Jing' from Taoist practices. I started to practice semen retention, tantric sex, and pelvic floor exercises mixed with deep breathing to move sexual energy up the spine. The effects were great. I did go through some rough patches where these practices brought me symptoms of fatigue and nausea. But after that passed some amazing things started to happen. Trees started to look holographic. I started to see waves emanating off peoples bodies. I thought they were auras, still not sure. Near the tail end of this experience. I was in euphoria and often felt like I was on mushrooms.

Sadly this all came to an end. The euphoria turned to delusions and paranoia. In Fall of 2020, I had my second psychosis. I am still in disbelief this happened. I was so stable, for literally years, with no need for medication. Sadly I was drugged against my will again, but fortunately, I came out of my psychosis very quick this time, so I wasn't as injured by the drugs. Still took me about a year to get back to my regular self.

I am back to enjoying life again. Things are good. I sleep good. I eat good. My amazing girlfriend actually stuck with me through all this. But I am back to desiring more out of this human experience. This is leading me back to breathwork and retaining my sexual energy. 

My experience this time is that after about a month of retaining sexual energy I identified I was getting a bit overenergetic. Where I can feel my heart beating loudly and cannot sleep. Having mild grandiose thoughts, mild paranoia. So thankfully, I can identify this state now which is potentially leading to psychosis, and what I did was to simply release my sexual energy a few times. Next day, back to normal, although mildy fatigued and depressed in comparison.

So here is my dilemma. I want to get to a point where I can retain all my sexual energy, and do lots of breathwork, and attain these higher states. But when I do it for too long I enter mania, if I keep going I would risk psychosis. I don't know why I am hitting this 'mental illness wall'. Perhaps my brain is not ready for this much Jing to be sent up. Maybe the breathwork I am doing is bad? Or maybe I am doing too much pelvic floor lifting exercises. Sometimes I would do it all day. Or maybe ---- The scariest of all for me ---- maybe these symptoms of madness are necessary to get to the next stage for my particular body. 

Anyways thanks for the read, if you'd like to share your experiences with this I would love to hear it.



 

The key is to rapidly learn deep lessons from your failure and to change how you approach things, so that you're creatively adapting to feedback rather than just doing the same thing which isn't working.
Keep asking yourself, why is this failing? How could it be changed to make it work?
Failure is a sign that there's something you're not understanding about reality. Your job is to figure out what that is.

Ofcrouse it's a diffrent skillset and you are gonna have to adjust your approch but the fundementals of closing, hadnling social pressure, calibration, esclation (in the context of sales) mindset, value offering, rapport, rejection mangement etc goes along way. I have dated multiple girls at once. Now I have moved on but unless for sales I would not have been able to.

I wanted to share this video. Intersex person with a penis and vigina who later turned into a guy with two dicks. For me what's astonishing is the fact that he seems confident and had sexual experiences which he can talk about. His game must be on point. If I was intersex I could totally see myself as becoming a victim and getting no ass. 
 
Additionally its interesting how he describes sex with men and woman. He says that he prefers sex with woman because they are 100 times more emotional, whereas men just want to fuck and evacuate. He does admit that having sex with men felt nice, but the emotional sex with woman was better for him. This led to decision to become a man in his teens. 
 
 

Cheap talk and excessive communication no matter how trashy creates an image of friendliness. I don't see a lot of intelligent people in powerful positions. Intelligent ones are generally quiet. People are charmed by a compulsive talker even if he talks rubbish. The next is drama and stimulation. People like drama. A dull person cannot hold the attention of masses. People like Trump are familiar with entertainment and can generate drama that the lowest common denominator feeds on. There is a need to directly rile up people's emotions by fear mongering or sympathizing their hopes, this is the opium. You feed people with rubbish talk and drama so they are engaged like little children. That's why Hitler was popular. He emphasized people's hopes. He gave them constant drama. He created friendliness in German people through constant rubbish banter. 
That's the key. 

Yes, it's gonna be very challenging marketing high-consciousness material because 99% of the population is low consciousness.
If you want to do that, you need to build some kind of bridge or funnel which meets people at their low consciousness level and slowly exposes them to higher consciousness material over time.
It's very challenging to start a high consciousness business as your first biz. You might want to start with a lower consciousness biz just to shore up your financial base, and then build on top of that.
Definitely nobody will ever care about your life purpose. Your customers are completely selfish and will only care about the survival value your product/service offers them. Your life purpose is for you, not for them. You must invent a way to translate your LP into tangible value for your customers. In this way they will indirectly care about your LP via the value it gives them.

@impulse9 Funnily enough, most programming is not serious intellectual work. I can code for 10 hours. It's way easier than contemplating for 3 hours.
After you get good at coding, it's like riding a bike. It doesn't take that much thinking.
But still, you burn out and it's very unhealthy working like that.

That's not something most people can pull off. Which is why we have 8 hour work days.
I can't work that long consistently. Especially not any kind of serious intellectual or creative work. Maybe if you're just sitting around waiting for customers that might be workable.

@Dinkle64 Be very careful with this kind of thinking. You don't comprehend what capitalism is. It's not what Marxists think it is.
You don't have an option to leave capitalism so long as you're alive. Even if you build that cabin in the woods you will still be inside of capitalism. You will still have to trade for resources somehow. You are like an ant who says that he refuses to participate in the ant colony and it's destroying him. Yeah, of course it's destroying you. You are an ant. You cannot survive outside the colony. That's something you have to accept.
Rather than rejecting how civilization works, leave to operate effectively within it. This doesn't mean you have to sell out.
You can run a higher consciousness business and enjoy it and help people as well. This is the way.
Stop consuming Marxist ideology. It's poisoning your mind.

I specifically picked a business that required no more than a few thousand in starting capital.
I only invested like $2000 to get it started. Once I started making good profits I reinvested some of that into hiring some helpers and buying some tools and stuff. An online business does not require a lot of starting capital. At least back when I started. Today it's a bit harder because the web is more developed. But still, you can start a YT channel for basically zero. YT channels didn't even exist back when I started.
If you are clever you can find ways to start a biz with very little money. That has always been my approach. I never liked to invest a bunch of cash into a project because it is risky. Of course the other option is to go for a larger biz and find investors. But this usually requires more experience.

Not if you are doing it online.
In-person yes.
Nowadays very strongly. I basically don't even do business. I just make videos and courses.
In the past I was less ethical because I had to bootstrap myself somehow.

I had one friend who quit his sales job at Zillow and turned to selling penis enlargement pills on Facebook. He was making 6 figures within a few months. This was about 8 years ago. I doubt that exact same method would work today, but methods like that do exists at all times. You just gotta ferret them out. And you gotta be a good marketer/salesman. There is always low-hanging fruit in some industry. It's just a matter of finding it and capitalizing on it. But finding it is up to you. Don't expect anyone to tell you what it is.
I made close to a million dollars selling annuities.

Why would you expect what is mostly as spiritual and philosophical discussion group to help you make money? That's not the primary focus on this place.
You should join some money-making forum in addition to this one, so it rounds you out.
Yes, making money is important, but do you really need to get your money-making advice from your rabbi?
What it sounds like you really need is to join a business mastermind group. Not as a replacement for this forum, but as a supplement.
If you are serious about success, what you need to realize is that success comes from specialization. You can't expect one person, group, or book to cover every important topic. Seek out specialists in every area you wish you master. This place is specialized for metaphysical topics. That's not a bug, that's a feature.

I didn't like it mostly because I am just not suited to being an employee. I am too ambitious and creative to work on someone else's project. So I quit to become my own boss.
I would never work on a game to which I didn't own full IP rights.
I am very particular in this regard so don't let this discourage you.

There is no cure for lack of ambition.
Some people, in fact most people, simply have very low ambition. Ambition is a personality trait.
But also, if you feel your life lacks meaning, that means you aren't really satisfied with your life as you claim. Deep down you know there's more to be had but you haven't yet come up with a vision of what that would look like.
Besides ambition what's needs is imagination. To imagine a really new and exciting future for yourself.