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You have cornered your mind into a spot, and you think you need to go through that. I get it. Unless it's some deep spiritual truth (Nirvana, Infinite Consciousness): EVERYTHING IS A FABRICATION. It's not "FOUND". Please read this post I wrote, that's the point I'd make:

Essentially, to evolve is to train yourself to train the next version of yourself. And then, to let go of that previous version, and let its capabilities only exist in a latent, weaker form, that gets triggered contextually, as opposed as by default. That version of you right now that consumes this personal development content too often must not stay the default version (or the even earlier version, that consumes just porn and games), this version of you full of just fucking theories. Use that to train the new version, it should assume the default, and you use whatever means necessary to do so. Go all in, go with your whole arsenal. Use as much alignment as possible, as lightweight as possible, as streamlined as possible. You absolutely need it all, and more. You're too misaligned right now. I don't just mean this in the Life Purpose sense, but also in the spiritual sense. The reason you've not reached nirvana is that, you are too full, your resources are wasted towards a multitude of directions that never builds up on itself, like a mere source of light spreading out its light as electromagnetic radiation towards all directions and becoming part of the universe. You're supposed to concentrate your energy, not spread it. If you spread it, it becomes part of this amorphous field of background radiation of the universe. Once it's concentrated, it's of better use and good to the universe. It's like if planets never formed, and matter was just spaced equally in a big blob, essentially, just emptiness because the universe is so large, and you're so tiny. You should fight against that entropy. Otherwise, you will keep being just wallpaper, just a battery for the matrix, just a chunk of matter lying around, being tossed around... Never reaching critical mass towards an atomic explosion. A rocket that never reaches escape velocity, it never reaches space no matter how much energy it wastes.

This is how I'm looking at it. What do I mean by that: The purpose of Life Purpose is to align yourself and remove inner conflicts/friction, with AT LEAST the purpose of meeting your basic needs. And one of our needs is to have an aim to look for. To align our whole lives, our habits, environment, relationships, desires, interests, aversions, etc. Akin to a spiritual process (but not quite) Life Purpose is more of an alignment of what you'll do with yourself in Samsara, in Maya, in The World, in how you will build/align your EGO, as opposed to deconstructing it and having nothing to do with it. Why do you think one of the goals of many spiritual masters is to simply teach and pass it forward? They have to rebuild their ego somehow. It's like an AI system that has a broken reward function, and keeps spitting just probabilistic text completion (i.e.: GPT-3), we aligned them towards conversational format, and they spontaneously emerged with useful general intelligence (ChatGPT). In which, we can solve tasks with a single prompt, as opposed to having to do black magic to make it do anything useful. All of that happened with the SAME architecture. And now, with even LESS parameters, even less "capability" it's still capable of out-performing just text-completion models. Just the same way for a person, someone completely all over the place needs all sorts of shenanigans to even get anything done, they need to get their "committee of the mind" completely on-board, and it's a massively expensive and complex process to be done EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY FROM SCRATCH, because you KEEP LOSING MOMENTUM, because it's not BAKED INTO YOUR MIND, BEING, ENVIRONMENT and RELATIONSHIPS. It's like the old crappy Large Language Models like GPT-3, you had to waste a ton of your precious tokens/text/prompt window just PREPARING IT for the INSTRUCTION TO COME. Even if that instruction was to "Calculate 5 + 5 ". You had to give it EVER SINGLE TIME a whole paragraph of examples. But now it comes without extra effort and less processing power, and it can do more. They are EXTREMELY INEFFICIENT, just because their training was misaligned. In other words, their VALUES were misaligned. The things they feed their minds are misaligned. They are feeding their minds and spending their days filled with garbage. What will their minds output? Garbage. No wonder, people without even the most basic guiding principles can't even get a handle on their basic psychology. Of course, if you lack the material environment, or lack of enough "compute power" i.e.: You're distracted by internal or external causes, emotionally unstable, poor health, self-caused ADHD through engaging in highly dopaminergic activities, etc. It will become much harder to retrain and align yourself, but once you're slowly building leverage, getting through certain milestones, at some point it stops becoming a black hole sink of time, effort and energy, and it is becoming a virtuous positive cycle, where you are even GETTING PAID TO SHARPEN YOUR SWORD. Like training an AI to train another AI system that's more lightweight and takes less resources and can output more useful stuff than an old, misaligned and inefficient model.

I'm literally looking at dating now like a system, like a business funnel. Hire slow, fire fast. Keep hiring. Don't stop. Drop the bad candidates fast, keep pouring new candidates into the system like a machine. Getting women is a function of... (like a mathematical formula): SMV * social exposure (time) * game If you could game with 10 million women in a day, by the next day you will be having orgies with dozens of tens - or select the best girlfriend out of all of them (even if that were 0.00000001% of them). Dating is chaotic as heck, but at the end of the day, your brain would either have fried or you would have had such understanding of females, humans and yourself that you would probably be an enlightened god of charisma walking among humans. 😂 Adapt to survive. Just see that as a new data point to use in your favor.

Oh no, fellow. Don't get me wrong. That's only at the back-end of the funnel of getting a girlfriend, within the confines of the soul-bonding mating ritual, not at the front-end. I meant "non-neglectable" my automated spell checker has sabotaged my words. By that, I mean, it probably improves by a statically measurable amount my SMV at the back-end, since, that's the only part of the sequence they would notice. On the front-end that amount might be too statistically insignificant to measure the impact on my conversion rates. I might do a double-blind randomized trial to assess it, but I need at least 2000 female volunteers for the experiment (Between the ages of 20 to 23), selected by me (personally) from a pool of at least 200,000 prospects, which would roughly equate to the top to the top 1% percentile.

I have never been in a gym before (No money). I'm doing some calisthenics with a bar in a public place, and push-ups indoors sometimes. And it gave me muscle gains, at least noob gains. Even despite diet changes. I think it was a massive ROI for such a small habit, and it's quite an effective way for me to increase Heart Rate, and I'm not feeling any more muscle soreness after waking up, and I can carry heavy grocery bags easier. I think perhaps for women once she sees me naked that would make some non-negotiable difference, even if subconscious.

Robert Greene (Everything he released) Alex Hormozi ($100M offers and $100M Leads) Alex Becker (10 pillars of wealth) Thanissaro Bhikku (Dhamma talks) Tim Ferris (Tribe of mentors, Tools of Titans)

If the heat died out between all of you, don't report stuff unless you feel you're under the threat of violence, it will stir things up again if you report, and the higher ups go talk to them about it.

People are so nasty. You just said to her you loved her? LMAO. I literally had told some girl I met online without knowing she had a boyfriend that I wanted to kiss her passionately in an audio and mentioned spoon sleeping together and so on (and supposedly, her boyfriend even read it), although, I was careful with my language and the way I framed it though, and how allowing she was to those advances. Which was shitty game, and I'll not repeat that. Leo had even written a whole slap on my finger on that shitshow. Did she have a boyfriend? Did you ask her? You probably didn't just tell her you loved her. You probably didn't read the vibe well enough... Read between the lines of the situation.

I'd rather use Facebook and DM people (Go to pages of similar interests as me, comment on their comments, then DM them and mention what you had said), language exchange apps are also nice. I even had people on Facebook DMing me after leaving good comments on good posts on good pages. People in those apps will lie to themselves that they are there to learn a language just to talk among each other in the languages they know best, which is usually English or their native languages. LMAO.

LOL. Making small talk to as many people as possible was my way to develop the habitual trigger to be able to do the same to the hot women I want to date... Which I didn't do so far, I beat around the bush and don't get out of the small talk. But it was massive progress. I realized, one thing I need is just that connection with the people around me and be more "extroverted" in that kind of grounded way. Even if my skills with dating women properly are still at ground zero.

I wanted friendship too, but my priority is to have an actual girlfriend. But I was trying to kill two birds with one stone. I gotta stop that, it makes me ruin possible great friendships (I was blocked before many times for that), and be too inefficient on actual dating. Too murky.

I got fucking mindfucked today. I was so full of fucking assumptions about her. I thought she was single (presumably she isn't), keep reading... My game was to keep it ambiguous, boil the frog slowly... Until I got a hard "NO, I have a boyfriend, and he doesn't like how you're talking recently." 😂 Full online game. Met her in a language exchange platform. She is of the same country as I am, and traveling abroad with her family for over a month. I was able to keep her engaged for a whole week, even had phone calls with her, I slowly added plenty of sexual and romantic innuendo in the conversation, and kept increasing the intensity as I felt like she was accepting it... ... As I noticed, she wasn't complaining hard, just some "Oh gosh, what... 🙊": SHE WOULD DO THIS LAUGHING ON AN AUDIO and say it all cute, like teasing: "Oh [name] [nameeeee] [nameeeeeee]... Stop joking around like that." And she NEVER EVER would say some hard no: "NO! Stop saying that! I have a boyfriend!🙊" (UNTIL SHE DID IT TODAY!!) She never told me she had a boyfriend: Even after she mentioned having an EX at some point (I teased her not being redhead, and it reminded of her ex that said the same). Even after I mentioned meeting with her. Even after I mentioned my EX (That she said to me, that it was okay for me to open up emotionally - part of my game to open up gradually and say it takes time to open up, so it feels like she is winning me) Even after I mentioned and sent a meme and joked about: "Talking about EXs is like putting beans inside an ice-cream container": And she said she was sorry about mentioning her ex. Even when we spoke on the phone, and she had a pet she loved and treated like a child, I asked her if she had a human child: She said no. We spoke about travel, we spoke about different places she wants, places I'd like to go, I spoke about possibly meeting her in places she has never been before. --- And yesterday, after she went to sleep, I got kinda pissed off with myself that I wasn't quite sending the message and getting the acknowledgment I craved (because that's the value I'd get from an online-only girl), and what I did was to send some somewhat super romantic/sensual audios speaking how I'd kiss her (didn't mention it sexually, didn't mention her body, breasts, my cock or her pussy, or her getting wet, etc etc)... Like if we're going to do it for the first time for building emotional comfort.... And I framed it as being just the kind of content I listen online (alongside a suggestive asmr video, that wasn't crude. Just GF role-play), and I said those things as an example of what I like to hear (Nothing explicit, just loving stuff with kisses and long eye-gazing), so I could give myself some plausible deniability for her and me if she confronted me negatively on it. Alongside some other witty stuff like: "I hope you're not the kind of girl that likes whipping👿... hehe I don't like that 😰", and also positive things like: "Oh, if it's respectful and reciprocate", so that I could weight some naughtiness (teasing on her) and with some more down to earth vibe. Here is the bombshell: But I think she was the kind of girl that I had to say things LITERALLY to her for her to fully get it. Specially that lately she seemed kinda distracted and busy. So perhaps during my messages before I was just leaving too much cognitive load for her, but this time I was much clearer. Today, I woke up to the message that she said something along the lines (I translated as perfectly as possible): I'm just documenting it to get it past emotions. I done journaling. I recorded some audios to myself about that. A lot of reflection on how my life is in a mess economically and in dating (not doing enough approaches/opening enough chats conversations), and it wasn't good game at all (in an overall sense): The logistics are completely out of my reach, I should open chats with girls that are at bus away at best... But online game without geographic restrictions tends to work better for me, but it might be survivalship bias since I do that the most. I'm just mindfucked that I assumed she was single, and I probably screwed up this possible friendship, or possible "contact" if one day she became single. Because we really vibed, it was a nice chit-chatting. Perhaps she is single and that's her game to friend-zone me (In which case! Still GOOD, I can get in the Social Flow speaking with her!) ... Perhaps she had a boyfriend (maybe a bad one) but didn't want to say in case she thought I was more valuable than him, up until now. (I fucked up because I didn't close a date fast enough before she "came to her senses" or she lost interest on me). ... Perhaps she had a boyfriend AND enjoyed it, but he eventually saw the messages on her phone and she was trying to hide it from him: Example, she sent a disappearing photo, after she got excited that I sent mine (but just the upper half of it on the dark) and she seemed excited to see more, and sent hers (a bit suggesting, she was laying down on it, with a tight blouse, accentuating her breasts, with a very naughty smile). She complimented me on "Oh it was nice meeting you, you're so mysterious." (I learned this from past girls, I try to be as mysterious as possible, and not drop low sexually market value stuff early on anymore, frame my life in the best positive light possible without lying).

I know what direction to go when it comes to dating, I know I should be as efficient as possible with my time and energy, and make as many quality opens as possible and move to real world dates fast. But it was a bit tempting to get that attention/connection. I was feeling lonely. Likewise, I should instead refrain myself from building connection extensively with a girl that has no interest/can't meet with me in person, and enjoy the friendship for some of that emotional connection, so I'm not thirsty for that. Even then, even friends should be in person. Prioritizing phone calls over texting was even a step forward from there. It just feels much better for my mood. I hate chilling out through texting. Logistics. Logistics. Logistics. Logistics. Logistics. Logistics. The goal is finding a girl that I can actually meet (at a bus away at best). Any others are for friendship right from the start, and keep that clear.

😪 For the benefit of every reader, to learn from my wasted youth doing that... I was low self-steam early on in life, specially when it came to dating. The worst part was that I had some success doing that whole thing I just described. It happened to my own demise. (2013-ish ~ (gap didn't speak to her) ~ 2017) The first: Began this weird online game back when I was 15 years old with a lady, and ended up having sex with her when I was 19. We met at a hotel and stayed together for a week, it was just a hookup. I got used to that dating strategy. I ignored actual real-world girls that were interested in me, and didn't learn to date without buttering her up like that... Didn't have the courage to talk to, showing interest in them in real world, or responding to their interest on me, because I always felt low self-steam - Reason: I thought my clothing sucked, and that I was ugly. But when girls that I actually liked showed interest, I had that lack of experience/emotional blockage. "Thought that they wouldn't like me anyway." Weird. I know. It's not logical, it's an emotional wound. It wasn't so much for her, but for me to feel that reassurance. I had that insecurity of making her fall in love / build attraction with me even before we met each other (I know, actual sex has to happen for her to have investment) (2019) The second: When I was 21, did the same. Felt lonely, and for a whole week of opens on Facebook, one of them ended up having attraction for me (among other girls that showed interest in dates too, but lived too far). This time I was "wiser" in my thirst for connection: She at least lived a city away. But I didn't also have the resources to met her often, neither did she. So we would just be interacting passionately online for months. We ended up meeting once in a cinema, kissed and fondled. (2020-2022) The third: A girl that I've been buttering up commenting on her Instagram posts. Didn't even try to slide into her DM, until I made she do it first. She was a fundamentalist Christian. Had bipolar disorder. Didn't even live in my country. Lived in a country I didn't even like. 💀 I build a rapport for months. She ends up "falling in love with me", and after a bit says she thinks I'm a turn-off because I wasn't muscular enough, yada yada. She even helped me out with some money here and there, she was being sweet and wanted to see me grow, but at the same time she had her own issues. Almost Every single fucking month, she almost wanted to "break up" and didn't. She even made it public that we "had a relationship". This was a dumpster fire that burned like radioactive waste for 2 straight years. That push and pull. I fucked up. I must admit this here. I logically know that's a shitshow of nuclear proportions (even back then), but I feel for it emotionally, I wasn't just trying to be sneaky, I genuinely was trying to also fall for all of them too. I bullshitted myself. Wasting a week building rapport with this girl was me falling back into those old sub-conscious patterns, and I realized it strongly after years of staying away from those "long distance relationships" and looking inwards into the emotional wounds. Thanks GOD this girl (A few others too) this time didn't get romantic back. 💀💀💀💀💀 Do your shadow work, guys.

@numbersinarow Of course not, in retrospect, she was just being chatty. I should learn to waste less time like that.

😂 What the fuck, on my last post, some similar stuff happened. Thanks god, it was just a week for me, and I'm not at her mercy. But it just hits it differently when they are gorgeous.

Btw, I send her an apology (I said that I thought she was single and that it was ok to say those things), I didn't see her answer yet, and I don't want to see it now, or if there's an answer at all... Because I'm procrastinating on getting shit done, and I was mismanaging my mental focus when I was talking to her, and when I talk with other girls like that. That's something I need to work on.

By the way I was really in a social flow this month/last week. I had found another girl of my country on that app too, and I had long many phone calls with her at night before sleep, that was a nice confidence boost, and she said she liked listening to my voice (I'm working on it, my past long-distance GF hated my voice, but we barely spoke and she made me feel like shit all the time). I was learning how to have good conversations: For example... I talk too much and don't leave room for her to think. I fixed that as soon as fast as she told me that. I'm already talking with another girl daily from mexico (She speaks english) - she is doing a psychology major (we had some great deep conversations), got her contact roughly at the same time as girl on the post. I got back on the app this week after being out of it for a while, after the first girl had some death in her family and she wasn't as chatty... I got back on it, because on a rainy day, I went out for some errands and I opened a conversation with a cute girl on the bus station that I walked by (I didn't go for a number close, didn't develop the conversation beyond neighbour stuff). But I think I'm getting better. I think that Just being able to have those neighbor-like conversations, or friend-like conversations for hours is quite valuable for building comfort and some basic social experience.

LOL. Most of the highest quality comments I found through searching on the forum through Google for very specific things I'm facing. Most quality answers I saw someone organically wrote somewhere, and it got buried and forgotten by the noise of the discussion.

I can't say that others physically exist, my brain could be in a matrix, but that doesn't change the figments of consciousness that appear in my stream. It's like someone saying that a character that ChatGPT is playing is actually him, and ChatGPT tells you: "Oh, no, they are just characters. And for I, I'm just a large language model that takes inputs and outputs textual tokens". Does that make ChatGPT any less real? I mean, we literally know it doesn't exist as a person. The ego isn't an "unreal", its merely a fabrication, and humans traditionally are capable of perceiving that fabrication with the appropriate mental views and practices. Just the same way that others are merely a fabrication. There isn't me, and there isn't them as something that's not fabricated conceptually. That talk he made is so naive. What is other? What is mind? What is my mind? Even my mind is comprised by different elements I can perceive, and they are just as real as the elements I can perceive of other minds: I can read their writings, I can hear their voices, and see them. But I can also see my own body, hear my own voice. But, the entity that I call "I" is just OF THE SAME NATURE as all other entities that I ascribe any meaning to. Fundamentally, all that we traditionally say exist, does really exist. But, the nature we fundamentally give to it, isn't quite so romantic. I can't hear someone else's thoughts, be on someone else's body... And that's just that, I simply don't perceive that part, and I can't possibly ascertain their existence. It's just a stream of data following, some of that data is what we traditionally call me (as a person) and some of it are of other conceptual entities, they are just as conceptual as the parts of that stream I perceive. There are others. But... The fundamental nature of them is one where we take for granted our conceptual understanding. But... Fundamentally, all of that exists are figments of consciousness like Leo would describe, and those build help build up conceptual understanding of the phenomena behind it. But we can't possibly say what they are.

With the risk of just paraphrasing you: The human civilization has always been really toxic, only now things have been improving. Essentially, whoever gets paid the most is whoever has the most power to bargain, which means, we are still fundamentally very power and survival driven. But that's it. It's just a fact of our current state of affairs, evident to everyone in this forum. 😉 Personally, I'd recommend you to do ASMR videos on YouTube, personal attention, emotional talks, roleplays, "reiki", etc. Checkout EdiyASMR for example. Most ASMR videos are just a front for receiving that kind of feminine energy. Some artists even receive some monthly income even from donations from people that expect nothing back, many times they don't release a video for months and people don't stop the monthly donations. They form some sort of parasocial bond. My best regards to you!

@Princess Arabia You are defining bad game traps here. All of that happens with the least conscious and most toxic men (Machiavellian on purpose), or the ones that are severely lacking (Not being Machiavellian, just lack of experience, social awareness, very neurodivergent, etc.). All of this talk that a woman can recognize this or that in a man and be correct with 100% accuracy about their assertions is flawed. They will get some rough averages, and also, they cannot deal with the entire complexity of the man's inner states that are completely invisible, only with the external representation which will only tell to some extent about him, and will work mostly just on the average, like I said. A man can be absolutely marriage material and even spiritually enlightened, but still give bad vibes (i.e. you think someone that appears detached from results seems creepy, etc) or give too friendly vibes and not get results due to lack of experience in dating BUT ALSO, a man can be a literal psychopath that has even killed, absolutely cunning and Machiavellian, but due to his experience and control over how he displays his emotions (he can turn on and off his empathy on command), he can appear the most charming and all other parameters that wound appear natural in the interaction, while being completely premeditated in his goals (i.e. lead her to whatever, while keeping interaction unpremeditated at a visceral level). What happens is that most people are not skilled enough, neither they also are absolute masters over their inner emotions, so there is a lot of room there for creepiness or lack of success, etc. Of course, that's based on HIS OWN POTENTIAL. Compared only with men that looks similar to him.

Quoting myself retrocasually.😉