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I think it was worsened 100x because I went cold turkey on trying to find somebody to go "monk mode" into my personal development/financial development, but this Limerant Object kept pounding on my head. As I learned more about this last chick because I began talking back to her this month of april, those delusions about her all went down hill. As I gave her comfort and acceptance to say anything to me, eventually she opened up to me she would have NEVER would have monogamous with me (As much as her words would say otherwise), and she would have cheated, because she is looking for experiences with many guys but she likes to experience it through a romantic quasi-monogamous lens, and she said she couldn't open up about that early on because she would get low quality people, etc. This whole thing with her revealed this massive shadow I have, which I began exploring closer, which is my addiction to falling in love with someone (Limerant Object), in this kind of delusional dark way.

I have a patological psychological relationship which can be called Limerence (Liberant Object), which amplifies because the game I had done so far ended up being women that live very far. I had stopped doing it, but the last girl in specific that I had to let go due to ber bipolarity got stuck in my head as a strong Limerant Object. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Limerence Here is an analysis of a recent one: > # Limerence is to love -- to masturbation is to sex > ## It might feel like the real thing, but it's not. 1. **You have a terrible fear of reality intruding upon your fantasy world**. 2. **You go through significant periods of being more and less limerent, and you don't know why**. 3. **You feel whole and lovable and complete in your own limerent fantasies in a way that you don't in your everyday life**. 4. **You prefer reflecting on the interactions you've had with your limerent object more than you enjoy actually having them in real time**. 5. **Your romantic fixation on a particular person is serving as a replacement for your genuine needs for intimacy, vulnerability, and true connection with other people**.

Hahaha. That's right. The rest was about simply not fucking it up.

I'm VERY concerned that this won't be satire anymore sooner than what we think. This isn't even just satire at this point, this is why I got it into the news section of the forum not on the fun/off-topic.

WARNING: THIS IS SATIRE! Seriously, how long this sort of shit will take to happen in the US where killings of protesters (to suppress free speech) will happen? I wonder historically, comparing with Nazi Germany would be a good idea (the breakdown of the government into a dictatorship), perhaps some other country's history.

I was thinking about this. Why the heck WASN'T I using those advanced spiritual insights to journal and visualize and create my matras that I can repeat over and over again to keep remind myself not to get lost in ways to see things that causes me, or has potential to cause immense psychological suffering. For example, when it comes to dating and relationships. What is the big fucking deal if I got cheated on? Why do I cling to that so much. And then, it originates all of those idiot behaviors that makes you behave clingy to a girl, making HER and YOU feel like SHIT by doubting her all the time. Why at this point not be like: "Oh well, I guess she was my monogamous girlfriend, but I think she is more like a fuck buddy" if some crap happens. My point is, your INITIAL EXPECTATIONS in EVERY SITUATION encodes emotionally in you powerful emotions, and those will keep getting triggered and calcified in your emotional brain and keep fucking up with your happiness. BE AHEAD OF IT, handle your expectations before it fucks you up. This isn't just about that, this is just an example. Another example is being a guy that has no girlfriend at all. How much undue suffering do we go by? Or all the suffering from doing approaches, being stuck in our heads, etc. Or making decisions in life, being in this CONSTANT dark cloud where every decision you try to make is always tainted by all of this emotional pressure coming from all sides. What if you just dropped that by framing from an enlightenment perspective? And you from that point on really take it seriously, really began talking to yourself like concepts of non-duality are actually the real deal, to stop hugging so tight on to your present moment emotional interest. Look around and see all those feelings, these people, those emotions, sights, sounds. They will be ALL GONE in your deathbed, and would you have wanted to waste your life suffering so much for no reason, because you take the present moment way too seriously, you let it get over your head and control you. Slow down. Look it from above, look at it from the detachment of a 10-year perspective. What if you had the chance to go back in time and redo all of this decade? This is your chance. See every moment as already gone before it even begins, and don't let it get under your skin. Don't build and fuel views of things that are clearly going to let you down eventually. We should go out there and live life, but inside, you're protected by BEING INTENTFUL that be against letting your mind dwell on suffering. Because for I, personally. I don't want to be an 80-year-old and seeing all of the life I wasted by suffering so much due to wrong expectations, due to ignorance that leads to suffering when expectations are not met, when we are away from the objects of our desire. Do not go so deep into desire unmindfully, always at every moment see pleasurable things by what they are, and that you will crave them, and you want to be free from the inevitable downfall. So that you can live fully and not be afraid of the suffering it will cause you to having those things removed from you. AND this must be done through daily practices in which you keep remembering yourself of those correct views. I think THIS is the kind of enlightenment most people seek. Where they can be finally able to see clearly every moment, and frame it in a way that doesn't echo further their suffering, over and over again, same karma, same shit repeating itself. You're like all of those other beings in existence, suffering over and over again crying over due to your wrong expectations and view of what reality actually is... Because you don't take it seriously to see it like that, you don't put in the time and effort everyday. You take more seriously getting pussy, or getting more money than this. Not that those things shouldn't be pursued... The key here is you must think about this about THE PLEASURABLE STUFF, and things are good fine in your life, and when things are also going terribly wrong for you or just neutral. --- AI generated thoughts from my insights above, using my GPT/SYSTEM PROMPT

There is also that book: "Antifragile" My Question over the book: What about for a personal routine? How can I make my daily routine anti-fragile in relationship to me always delivering on my daily key results/metrics of my main focus domain in life for a specific period. Answer:

From: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mood_swing "Graphical comparison of mood swings, compared with bipolar disorder and cyclothymia":

Those family disputes are so energy draining. My mother literally tells me she wants to kill me with a knife, and I can't speak of what she truly is out loud when I do sometimes: A vengeful old person full of inner built up hate. Fortunately I know she isn't so deranged, she only ever once pointed a knife at me which I neutralized immediately. But be careful with crazy family members, if it gets too heated get the heck away temporarily, go take a walk.

She feels to me the female version of Rupert Spira. Nice soothing southern american accent.

I think this can also even be a workflow for creating things. Most of the times my best ideas and insights comes from being in the flow of talking four several minutes, a lot of it will be pure repetitive ramble where you end up saying the same thing but slightly differently, but then at some point, it just clicks. The key point here, is that it just FEELS DIFFERENT TO TALK, than to write. Doing journaling by writing feels more dry, when I speak I'm able to be much more emotional and there is a certain energy. It also makes me feel better, I pretty much do that even when I'm feeling alone and I don't wanna dump to somebody all of my quirky specific problems, I just speak into the mic, or I make long pauses of several minutes to think deeply, with no pressure to respond to somebody at the other end, or getting my train of thought disrupted by some real time voice AI or a person on the other end. (just regular audio, none of that tap-to-talk bullshit specific AI interfaces will use, that makes me feel anxious).

I just talk away for hours like talking to a friend in private audios, then I dump the last week or so of audios it to an AI like notebookLM and ask it questions. I use Syncthing on my phone to Sync to my computer, so it's easier to dump it there. I talk to myself in those recordings, extremely unstructured rambles, I try to dump as many of my insights as possible. Sometimes I pick my phone at random during the day and I speak away my insights, my worries, concerns, solutions to my problems, etc. So I can always pick it up later by asking this AI about what I spoke about.

Applied Intelligence is definitely the most important for success, pretty obvious.