Lucasxp64

I'm reaching out for LLMs too much, and it's atrophying my own ability to think deeply for hours. It's an enabler of getting mentally fried further by technology if you don't inter-space its use with alone time. I noticed I began dumbing down to its own level. I'm not calling myself a genius, what I mean is that, the AI is full of knowledge, but it doesn't have embodied wisdom/knowledge at all. It loses coherence in long contexts, with too many variables, for great spans of time that our actual embodied lives have. Just look at how they struggle at computer coding the "agentic" capabilities are laughable, it becomes rotten due to holes in its logic and knowledge that even a human child wouldn't have issues with. The only rules LLM needs to follow are the rules of language itself, they were trained on language, and only bound by language, it has no stakes, it can bullshit us all day with half-baked sort-of-relevant knowledge that might or might not work, or might or might not be the deepest, or most relevant truths. Those LLMs have a tendency to make your mind float around like a leaf, sure it's better than a 1 minute video, but it has little concept of relevancy, and it can just work as a landslide of information. It has a lot of broadness but not enough depth, unless you know how to prompt for it, which needs deep inner reflection. The problem we face today isn't knowledge, it's relevancy. We are drowning in knowledge. Your mind has more context about yourself than any external entity could ever have. I love them, but like anything else, it has its toxic uses.

But its modern's biology greatest mystery the News Man says, and the Science Man says they were looking for it for decades! 🔬

This is basically how scientists are looking at the world. It's like they have never seen two dogs fornicating, because they don't have enough data or a way to "falsify" it.

Is it worth abandoning introspecting/intellectual career or life purpose just to hyper-optimize for sociability, like going into sales instead? Just for the sake of getting a 8/10 girlfriend? I don't prioritize an absurdly high lay count, just high quality (I know I need to lower standards at first)... Just doing it as a phase, and once I'm satisfied I drop it. However, it's a big concern I'd lose those skills due to high introspection/intellectual work due to career/life purpose... And if I lost that one girlfriend, I'd have been rusty due to not having a hyper-social career/life purpose. I prioritize being in high touch to my intuition and emotions, but not on being social. I'm not social, but I do prioritize being in high emotional touch one-to-one to a specific girl, that brings me immense joy like nothing else. But I have very little social experience to strangers. I go to high emotional depth which also translates into high sexual acuity to what turns them on, and that seems a flaw in game? Do I need to be more caveman?

I think people see all of those variables within social dynamics, those data points, and then they start making absolutist strategies to navigate it. Humans tend to get pretty extreme when some topic is highly emotional to them. We are all intellectually obese. Read carefully those two sentences: "I am starving because I am unworthy of food." vs "I am suffering because there is no food on my plate right now." We mistake the pain of unworthiness for the pain of hunger. One man thinks, 'I'm starving because I'm unworthy of food.' All the information he consumes about nutrition, status, and competition only deepens his shame. Another man thinks, 'I'm suffering because there's no food on my plate.' His problem is situational. The first man, if he ever gets food, can't be nourished by it. The meal only feeds his anxiety. The second man simply eats and is satisfied. Nobody fears that a fat guy will mog their food. Food and sex is abundant given the right circumstances, it's pointless once you have it and feels satisfied unless you're also feeding the hole of unworthiness with more and more. My point is: Our primal brains modulate our feelings of abundance (social, sexual, safety, power, etc) through various mechanisms such as hunger, loneliness, access to high quality sexual partners. However, since it's biased towards not being satisfied due to hedonistic treadmill, people fall into the trap of death by indigestion of too much abundance, their souls are obese and they still can't get enough. Meanwhile others are beating themselves up for not being obese, for being "unworthy" of food or whatever they want to focus at. Nobody needs to look like a 10 to cook their brains out with sexual desire. Just their hand and porn. Nobody needs to be a billionaire to eat to death. Again, the point is... To which point do you actually need to maximize: Looks, Money & Social Capital to be enough to satisfy your cravings? It doesn't fucking matter to know to be born a billionaire, or attractive gets it better, any idiot knows that. Don't turn it into an obsession that eats you up like acid, this is exactly what is happening with our society, this stupid internet environment is inflating everything: "YOUR DESIRES MUST BE BIGGER. YOUR HUNGER MUST BE MORE INSATIABLE." vs "Here are the optimal techniques to satisfy your desires through using those tools: Looks, Money and Social Capital". Do you focus on getting feed, or on the anxiety of not having food, and how much some have a lot of food, and how someday you will be a fat valueless slob that shoves food up his ass by installing surgically a food-sucking rectal device, so you can get food through both holes, because that insatiable hunger for feeling worthy of food can't be filled?

From the moment he understood the weakness of his flesh, it disgusted him. The priest of the material god, who sees his body as a machine to be maximized for status. He's 19 year old and already had several plastic surgeries, and bone smashes his face with a hammer, he crushes and tugs on his skull as if to struggle against God himself. He spreads his gospel to his followers and injects his girlfriend's face with peptides and prescribing dangerous drugs to his teenager audience members. In his words, he wants to ascend, because he rejects the human form, in its mundanity. He believes perception is reality, taken to its extreme.

It's definitely not normal for me because I'm too much of a recluse working on some inner stuff, and I ended up wasting years coping by getting my romantic and sexual needs half-fulfilled with women online that lived too far because I was doing it unconsciously. It's very easy to get stuck in comfort zone when it comes to women. Was that some kind of success? It gave me at least insight into their psychology, but it wasn't fully fulfilling to me not getting women in person. Like I said, I repeat, I have a lot of stuff I'm working in my life, otherwise if I continued with that online addiction I'll distract myself too much and won't have the kind of life and kind of real world relationships I want. It's possible to be a loser like me too stuck in a limbo, there are all kinds of gradients lol. I'm sure there are probably guys out there that are very wealthy, but the women that like them are leeches. Or they are very physically attractive guys, but they have inner issues that makes all of their relationships toxic and draining. Or regular guys that can't get girls that they feel are attractive enough to them. I hope she is all you want and need.

That one I realized the strongest after learning a lot of history. Humans through all cultures find sneaky ways of using their current "sacred things" for their personal benefit: - Race/Ethnicity/Group: The every changing definitions of groups based on what you want and who you want to manipulate. Like the every-changing definition of who is "white" and who is "American" in the USA, like giving poor "white" American southerns some KKK larping over almost as equally poor freed slaves just to pit the poor against the even poorer. Or seeing French, Italians, Spanish, Portuguese as not white enough, or even Germans as not white enough at some point. Or the countless genocidal wars across the world of people (to an untrained eye) that are exactly the same (same religion, same race, same class) but different tribes, or patriotism. - Spirituality/Religion (Pharaohs "appointed by god", modern political conservatives, etc) - Law (King's power is law, bureaucracies that kills and steals people in a "legal" way, or making something illegal to fuck with some people) - Social Justice or order (how we ought to behave) or correction of bad deeds done to a certain people group (i.e. Israel genocides) - "progressiveness" (A better way than the status quo... Tech oligarchs and corporations love this, framing it as "the future" of infinite progress) - "conservationism" (The good old way), or "others do it this way", etc. ---

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cultural_universal Those are the most interesting:

Queen Maria II. I couldn't pull it out, "come inside, honey". The crocodile will be the godfather. 😂

I don't think there is lube for bad luck 😂. ... But, actually I found 40 dollars a couple of days ago. Two 100 Brazilian real crisp bills. It pays for a lot of condoms tho.

🤣😝 I'm afraid the damn thing will explode into pieces with my sheer dryness of a lifetime of lack of good sex.

I have a track record of several years and thousands of hours wasted in long-distance relationships, including some that they wanted A LOT to have children from me, but they were not right for me. And, I had success with cold approach recently for women that live closely. I do approaches sometimes. I might end up succeeding again. I want to lock-in. I don't want to make future mistakes that are even worst than my past mistakes. Although, I can't go full monk mode for too long, I'm weak about women, I know myself. I've fallen into the trap of letting relationships dominant in my mind, distracting me from the purpose and life I should build. Here is the thing: I desperately want a woman and a stable committed relationship even, I'm not against commitment. I'm actually too much of a bitch for it, I'd get easily swayed into having a family under non-optimal conditions if she ends up wanting it (and if she seems the right person, and I didn't burn through that karma of relationships yet), and at the same time, I'm completely financially broke right now, and my career/business won't be optimal for quite a lot of time. I literally have 50 dollars in my account and living with my parents. I cannot afford to take any risks that would distract me anymore, the small chance of getting someone pregnant even stacking all of that sounds weird, I know. I'm basically wanting to tie my hands on my back to not let the siren's song lure me in the future. I need to give myself a buffer against bad mistakes. Also I don't want kids, but I'm afraid a great future wife I might find would want them, and I might change idea, because I'm a very emotionally sensitive person.

It's not about the financial and personal freedom so much for my own selfish purpose. I see the idea of using kids to force me into purpose, the completely opposite. They can only happen in my life if I'm full of purpose and abundance. If I'm in lack of purpose and abundance, my kids will be miserable, and my wife will treat me like complete shit, and reinforce a cycle. Growing the child PREMATURELY. Instead of doing it later, eventually, in a fully planned manner, and give them a good life, and being a fully well-developed figure for them. I see it the other way around, I see it as utter irresponsibility to my wife and children (if I decide on them). If it happens I must be completely ready.

27 Year Old Male, Brazilian. I can do it for free here, it has a wait time period of at least 2 months (60 days) even if I schedule it today. I don't want kids right now, and I'd only ever want to have kids if I'm well developed in my personal development journey: Business, Life Purpose, Spiritual alignment, maturity in general, and having actual experience with romantic/sexual relationships. I have no girlfriend, and I'm not hooking up. Even though I'm not actively looking consistently for a sex, I once in a while do approaches, and I'm afraid I'll succeed and due to my dry spell of a lifetime I might end up being reckless. I did succeed 2 months ago, and I almost ended up fornicating without condom (she kept me from doing it, I did just finger her instead when we slept). But on the other hand, if my future self wants to have children, the financial/medical barrier would work as a test to my willingness and a test to HER WILLINGNESS. (and financial wealth, c'mon if I can't pocket the money I shouldn't have kids) - In vitro fertilization, extracting the sperm from my testicles, or doing the reversal surgery, which I know loses effectiveness overtime, specially after over 10 year so the extraction from my testicle might be necessary and I should keep that in mind. - Also I know possibly even with all of this, she might be unwilling to do the IVF procedure which can be somewhat painful to her, however, pregnancy is a hella of a risk much much greater than artificial insemination. Which I know, it costs the range of a used car to an entry level car price (20k-100k BRL ~ 3.7k - 20k USD). Here are my estimates (I didn't do deep research, just brief): - I also see, if I'm going to have kids, I should have their embryo and my future wife screened for genetic diseases and incompatibility anyway to save the child, my wife and me the suffering of birthing a child with diseases that could have been screened out. And having kids at the wrong time, with the wrong woman will be absolutely catastrophic to my self-development, and even to the health of a relationship and the child's future. Most woman that liked me, they always say they want kids. Well, unfortunately, I don't think I'd have had kids with them because I didn't find them fit so far, but if I ever found someone, I think having to go through all of those procedures to get her pregnant would make it a deliberate move instead. Or is there anything else here that I'm missing, that I'll regret? I'm just concerned I might be burdening my future self with having to pocket a lot of money if I wanted children in the future, or making it impossible to have kids. But the risk of unwanted pregnancy for means to me much more than not fathering biological children. I'm not a fundamentalist. I want just girlfriend, not raising a family.