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In one of Leo's videos describing Absolute Truth, or glimpsing Absolute Truth (God) first hand with direct experience, and that this experience is so indescribably gigantic as it deals with the core of what holds your human life together. Leo described how there've been people that went away from society for years to Awe in what they saw and how it can derail your entire life as you knew it. And in these deeper states you can see various supernatural phenomena, angels, demons, etc. Could this be described as breaking the Matrix/escaping the Matrix mind control for the first time? This can be fucking terrifying wouldn't it? because now all that's true is your perception and imagination. Pure consciousness. You can imagine some horrific scary things or beautiful constructive things without the security blanket of that mental construct, because you've broken out of it, even if it's a glimpse; you've broken it. It's like when you walk through to the other side there's no turning back. Thus, yeah this can completely de rail the course of your life forever. A year ago I was really focusing on myself, had profound spiritual experiences and I remember on my No Fap challenge I came face to face with myself and it was the most counter intuitive move I had ever fucking made in my life, like I pierced straight into the darkness of my ego consciousness. But on the other side was this pure light in my being, and it was as if I truly elevated and evolved on the right side of evolution. Ever since then my perceptions have been left to me, and at first it was glorious, beautiful and bright. I found my highest path! But lately I have been seeing how it's not all light and rainbows, but there's a darker side, or an "underworld" type of realm, where your perception, which is all there is, can have the possibility to imagine some fucking terrifying shit, dark/evil places, usually I've found at points of spiritual weakness and deficiency, and/or based on my relationship or lack thereof with that pure Truth/God and connection to the most high. It's like your consciousness is drawn to certain frequencies based on where you're at in life. Could someone with experience clarify is this overall an accurate description of what it's like after glimpsing Truth? And does anyone have any recommendations to keep on the right path? Thanks.

I know this sounds crazy, but whelp, here we go, this is my experience: Its happened a few times at our new house, I'm asleep then randomly during the night I will feel this fearful presence dawning in my dream and then my dream turns into fear. But it's when I let it happen, or I let the spirit/energy tap my body, I think out of spiritual weakness/low will. I then make noises in my dream (like hums), and when I wake up I have this intuitive sensory that my Soul is picking up on some kind of foreign energy and my thoughts go all over the place, the presence of my room and how I feel in my body turns generally into fear, rather negative and more chaotic. It's like my soul gets blanked out temporarily. I have this knowing deep down that in the spiritual realm I'm picking up on something foreign, and then after a while it feels like my true identity/soul turns to it's normal state and everything returns to calmness. Then I was thinking about love vs fear for all creatures throughout the universe/spiritual realms/astral realms, and how love really conquers fear and everything is connected. As weird as all this sounds on a material level haha, I'm pretty convinced more and more when I experience this kind of shit that the supernatural and everything Leo talks about with consciousness etc. is actually very real and a very serious deal. Does anyone know good ways to protect yourself from any unknown energies during sleep. Cheers

Newbie here too, tried mushrooms once. Absolutely highly recommend, they can do so much for you in terms of healing and psychological development, also helping you connect with being and shadow work

Thanks for the responses, life purpose is definitely irrelevant from Minecraft for me, it'll only ever be a hobby/interest, I think at this stage survival comes in and should really develop some real world skill or trade to give to society.

I'm 21, throughout my teen years I was extremely passionate in Minecraft as a game, loved the creative aspect and freedom to build and survive however. I built my own server, hired a team of staff and invested literally thousands of hours into it, ended up making around $200 a week at one point during high school just off donations. Did this for around 2-3 years. Like the people on my server could sense the passion and it was a community of like minded people, but slowly I changed due to addiction and ego indulgence and lost all my authentic passion for life as many out in society do. I've just recently visited this passion after so long of stopping, and after doing some personal development. I feel that spark that was there years ago. Like I truly enjoyed and found passion in the game and I know I could provide value and enjoy it heaps. But the value wouldn't be like providing some conventional service or labor for a company like out in society, it would be more personal, entertainment, creative/inspiring value. That's where my question comes in, how do I reconcile the pressure of what a "conventional career" is versus just authentically pursuing what I enjoy and find passionate. Like can this kind of thing, Minecraft or any gaming, be a viable thing to pursue long term? I also don't want to spend so much time and effort into something I don't enjoy, even though it would be "conventional" and standard work like e.g. engineering. I don't want to make loads of money I just want to be happy doing what I truly enjoy.

Thanks for your response Yarco, and yeah I had people message me and tell me about how its saved them from their horrible situations, how they got to meet people on there, and all the positive feedback etc. and it was never for the money originally but I ended up turning it into more of a business than a passion and then it went downhill from there. Will definitely keep my doors open to new possibilities and pathways though I think that's the main thing

Tomorrow I start a new 9-5! Time to dumb down and play stupid for the masters. Time to be fake. Time to play their game but skew it to my benefit where I can. I'm fully aware these bastards have not got my best interests in mind! I despise corporate rule over my freedom, but I also am a young fella that needs to survive. Welp, wish me luck

I did them with my dad and friend at the time, I took a small dose but definitely tripped. Time slowed down and like I melted into the couch I was sitting on. Was at a very low point in my life tbh, lots of wounds and addictions. It was a real healing experience and I remember crying at one stage. When I peaked I felt elevated like in pure being like I was God and my ego quietened. But I didn't think much of it at the time. Objects got high definition and colors intensified as well.

Does taking 0.5-1g of mushrooms leave a lasting effect on you months to a year after the trip? I feel like it did for me, because my life started changing for ages afterwards. I still had that awareness and wiring in the back of my head for months up to recently after the trip and received what felt like "downloads" and spiritual experiences, connecting with my heart, the universe, etc. Truly flipped my whole life upside down, but it put me on a path even after the trip was over, and ended up learning so much about myself and had some of the most beautiful and joyous experiences. Like stepping back from my ego and into my higher self. But the past few months I've noticed it fading away and crashing back down into my ego, even though it's been like nearly 2 years. Like it's ran it's course now the wiring has completely left me. I've really been contemplating another trip to help me get back to my spiritual journey.

I currently have $5000 saved up from recent jobs. I'm 21, have own vehicle, no debt etc. There's things material wise I would love to get for myself. But I don't want to make myself broke. I feel that higher nature in me telling me do what's difficult; either hang on to it until an opportunity to invest it arrises, whether it be a course, education, health investment, financial investment. Also what do you think about Gold/Silver investments when the market dips? What would you do with 5k in the bank?

For the past year I've really had a lot of time to work on self actualization, and have been. Did uni 5 hours a day for web design all 2020. I'm almost 21, live with my mum and brother, I have $5000 saved up and own car. No current debt. Recently I got accepted for a role as a Sales & Market Support, which involved computer work and managing their website, social media, phone calls, taking orders etc. It was a marine and RV electronics company, a wealthy company, and nothing wrong with it. I spent 1.5 hours in traffic/commute, and 8.5 hours at work. Mon to Fri. I worked 3.5 weeks then resigned. $779/week. Job consisted of me sitting down looking at a screen for 80% of the time. Barely saw sunlight outside of work hours. And outside of work I had little time to focus on developing myself, Gym, relaxation and just my own sense of purpose and freedom in life without running around stressed and tired. So, I resigned, to get my life back, and will continue working on my self, health, exercise, socializing, etc. and look at a part time job. Would you say this was or wasn't a strategic move? I think it's much better to live in the present and preserve yourself in all ways, focus on yourself and live treat you right. My question is -- Is there a way out of the rat race without being homeless or broke? Because we all need to survive, I get it, and I don't think I'm "lazy." But I will be damned when there's a boss of me. I'll be damned when I give my up self, my life, my time, my dreams, to essentially become a slave purely for economic output. Most people are so fine with this, they are so complacent they don't even question it. But these people are always running around busy, complaining about the world, negative and mad. But with what I know that isn't a life worth living. Anyone have advice to break free?

Thanks for the reply, I thought along those similar lines by continuing to develop my web design skills and then do freelance work, growing residually and exponentially over time. Yep well aware of the trap of materialism

What example do you mean by unforseeable factors? Thanks for the reply

It's also about building a relationship with your self so that you aren't swayed by the mental judgements and thoughts.

Do unto others as you would yourself and forgive them for they know not what they do

This is out of my own experience. Most people would think that the supernatural is crazy and weird, but I think that it's actually more real than not. What I'm learning is that the real world is Within you. Located in your core/heart. It's like a doorway to a whole universe where anything can be possible. In my own experience I had to do "Shadow Work" like Spiritual Work. Literally I remember coming face to face with my darkness and I would say "renouncing the ego" in staying true to myself like a Warrior ready to die for his cause. What is left is the Truth. This Truth is not in the mind, but in your core (heart region), it's like you explode into God and a whole universe opens up. This is where the Supernatural now becomes possible. You made the most counter intuitive move, and now you've crossed over. There's no going back. Reincarnation, Spirituality, Soul, Telepathy, Energy, Spirits, Higher Consciousness, all this stuff now becomes a new reality and starts to make sense when you don't identify with the "Mind" and that there is a higher self, a higher aspect to the Human Animal, a spiritual nature capable of transcendence. You wire in that "God Vibration." My whole life has completely changed after getting a glimpse of this Truth, the trajectory of my life is totally different, it has absolutely changed me in every way. I find myself in a good place in life, this is the healthiest and strongest I have ever been mentally physically spiritually in a long time, I felt like I've truly evolved. There are certainly things in life that are worth your Will. Anyway this is my view on it

There was a point recently in my Journey where my mind was connected with my heart, like I was in tune with myself and I had a purpose/mission to fulfill. It was an existential level, like I was living from my Soul, could actually ask myself the big questions, why am I here, etc. My mind was connected there wasn't any turmoil. I then hit a wall, and then went through "Ego Backlash" and the spiritual pleasures dissipated, I felt like I fell back asleep from my heart felt dreams and high ideals. Quite disheartening and disempowering, flipped my whole world upside down, but nonetheless, I am here now and still maintaining my good habits for the most part. I've taken an uphill battle against my Ego, even though I am maintaining my good habits. I'm not noticing the fruits of my labor, I feel emotional like ungrounded, and that I don't have that intangible spiritual drive to rise up or go further. I could say that, I'm not walking my divine path at the moment. How do I connect my mind with my heart or get back to my purpose, my spirit, what I really know I should be doing. The mind can't walk that path, so at the moment it's like I'm trying to fight fire with fire. My mind really doesn't want to turn inward, like I just don't know where my hearts at. Mentally I'm good, I'm healthy, I'm not suffering, but does anyone have any advice for me. Thanks.

About a month ago I was living from my Heart & Soul and I was actually out here feeling alive, working on myself, it was like my mind was connected with my heart and soul. I was living my purpose, could actually go within myself, lucid dream, meditate, question existence, get the answers for myself, etc. and it was amazing, I felt truly ALIVE and on the right path. I hit a wall, ended up relapsing on No Fap (gave into the ego) and pretty much hit rock bottom on all levels and went right back to square one. I can't seem to find my heart, my divine inspiration, like my ego has taken over and I'm identified with suffering. Lost touch with Spirit. It's hard to discipline myself or work on myself, or do anything inspiring. I feel uninspired and lethargic, in a sense a bit frightened of personal development after that crash. This is causing me a big deal of stress, confusion and stagnation within myself and the trajectory of my life. I need a love experience to trigger that inspiration within me, but I can't find myself surrendering. I know that the only way to live an authentic, alive and meaningful life is to live from the inspiration in my heart/soul (an existential level) but it's difficult when it's like there's no calling. There's nothing calling me back home. It was a dreamlike state (my "Soul" projecting my awareness into my body) but now it feels like the opposite (identification with body and suffering, and mind creating awareness, trapped in 3D) I've watched Ego Backlash, Dark side of Meditation, etc. but does anyone have any advice on surrendering to the Truth and how to get back to how I was? Is it normal to go through periods like this for a few weeks? Thanks

A specific person I met, who turned out to be my father's best friend from childhood, meeting him was like the missing link between understanding my dad, becoming into a man, spiritual growth etc. Sometimes I can feel his hand in my soul and can feel the love he showed to me, he was wise too like a new found father. He understood psychedelics and how they could've put me on a path to better myself (did a small shroom trip) This and No Fap has been the cause of my deep inner experiences, I'm not big on psychedelics. Will see how things go.

This is not my work, this is taken from the hidden wiki, also is sourced here: https://www.sociedelic.com/the-matrix/ - This ties into pretty much everything Leo talks about, the Truth about the world and human existence. It is a very empowering read. I thought I would share the juiciest highlights, but the full thing is at the link above. The Matrix is fascist, the Matrix is deceptive, and the Matrix is bureaucracy. The Matrix is essentially the rule of the institution over the individual, and in it, the rights of the individual are subordinate to the rights of the institution. Individuals have to believe (or at least not actively oppose the idea) that large corporations have the right to protect their profits above all else, and thus dictate policy and law. They have to believe that this law is just, moral, and seemingly based upon reason. Or, they have to feel unaffected by the law on an individual level. They have to accept the program, and be satisfied with the rewards given for doing so. They have to do their jobs, pay their taxes, and be content with their salary (at least to the point where their salary and the stability it provides are appealing enough to deter risking leaving the Matrix). Rejecting these beliefs is the first step in resisting the Matrix. Furthermore, people must be insulated from the creative process. They have to forget that they are able to produce craft as individuals independent of large institutions, and they must feel entirely dependent upon the system to provide them with what they need. It is mostly through the violation of this principle that many who work with computers come to free themselves, or at least come to see the Matrix for what it is. Despite being products of the Matrix (for the most part), computers and the Internet enable humans to create individual works on a global scale: independent media, self-publishing, Free Open Source Software, computer music, computer art and graphics, and so on. Computers also enable independent people to communicate and build human-serving social structures outside of the Matrix. However, note that computers aren’t the only means of accomplishing this, and this time period isn’t the first one of Exodus. In the 1960s, for example, people departed from the Matrix en-mass and independently created art, culture, and music, largely catalyzed by psychedelic drugs. Unfortunately, much of this structure collapsed due to a number of reasons, the main one being the hasty, ill-considered and unsustainable manner of its construction and the subsequent institutional and legal backlash. Miraculously, however, many of the core ideas have persisted, and their proliferation is largely the reason I am Aware and able to write this document today. It would seem that the present catalyst is a combination of the Internet and again psychedelics. Both of these phenomena provide a way of disconnecting yourself from the programmed reality and assumptions of the Matrix and taking your perceptions into your own hands. However, your “perception” is nothing but your individual dream that you have created as you have gone through life. There is the dream of the society that has been passed down generation after generation and instilled into your mind by your parents, friends, schools, and institutions. And then there is your individual dream. Each step of the way in your life you have lived subjectively, and depending upon how and where you grew up, who you hung around with, and the habits you formed, you created your little dream. Your “theory” on life while you stay completely unconscious of this. Everything that you think is “you”, “I”, “me”, and everything you believe that you identify with is simply not you. It is not the truth. It is part of the giant web of individual dreams that everyone is in the clutches of on our planet. This is one of the main reasons why this world is the way it is, why it is so chaotic. You will scorn anyone who does not dream what you dream of, and someone will do the same to you. It is impossible for us to live the same individual dream because we cannot know everything about each other down to our core. It is a constant fog that grows bigger and bigger and more dense as each day passes. It is your ego and it is my ego. The dream is not real. If we want to even begin to understand what it means to exist as a human being on this planet and evolve, this truth must be learned and it is just the beginning. Somewhere along the way, the entities that have been running the show figured out how the ego works, and they have been doing a damn good job at distracting us from trying to find a way out of our dreams and the dream of society. Psychedelics are simply a tool, but one of many to truly explore and expand your consciousness. However, whether it be psychedelic substances or meditation, it is not the ultimate answer. It is simply showing you the door, but it is your choice whether or not you want to enter into the other side.

Recently I've been experiencing a very harsh ego backlash, I remember I was doing amazing and very positive on my path, went my longest on No Fap and felt real inner growth. Like when you reach new heights for the first time you can almost smell the growth. Really out here in life doing things. Then I remember I hit a wall, felt very negative about myself and relapsed on No Fap, hit rock bottom, ego identification and was fearful and low conscious. Doubting self actualization, the path, my inspiration, etc. and I've honestly really been working through this for a week or two now it has very difficult. Like actual suffering. I think it's getting better. Started to see number synchronicities everywhere too and started moving differently. From what Leo said this sounds exactly like the spiritual purification process, but I was worried that I corrupted my growth some how, or that I did something wrong when I relapsed on the path, or if this is actually a sign I am making real true growth and my inner self is changing. What do you think about this? Would love some answers or thoughts, thanks.

Yeah, thanks for the responses. Consciousness has to be down in order to have up

Recently hit a wall in my growth and fell back into an old habit, was doing super great and then came crashing down to the ego. Became crippled by fear for a bit and barely wanted to go out places. Back to this devil, low conscious and judgement. I know that it's not the Truth or fulfilling going down the road, but I guess I felt like submitting to low consciousness instead of facing myself; the harder option. What I should've done, and perhaps I'm suffering the punishment of not doing so. And here I was thinking I was developed and spiritual and righteous. I hit a wall, chickened out, relapsed an old habit and ran outside myself. (I know that sounds negative self talk, but I'm okay, I don't hate myself or anything) I'm almost looking for any sign, just any, from the universe to point me back within (the right direction). The Ego is a trap I swear. It reals you in with innocent egotism and ignorance, but then you soon realize it's negativity for your soul or the real you. It's difficult because its my entire life style, reason for living, will I live for pleasure or my dreams. At the moment I feel like my dreams have been crushed and struggling to find that inspiration, but perhaps that's all part of the journey. It might take a couple of these episodes in order to really see how important it is to align my will with the universe.

Last night I took 1 cap (2-3 teaspoons) of Apple Cider Vinegar with water, I took it for a few days recently but stopped for a while. Oh my gosh it really hits well. An hour later felt heightened senses and the side effects kick in, and my pineal gland instantly decalcified (headaches etc.) everything became more malleable and flexible as it does in higher consciousness/dream world. Everything and all of physical reality felt more like energy and that I cannot die. I had so many dreams too last night. I woke up for about 45 minutes at 6am then went back to sleep for 2 hours. The amount of vivid dreams in those 2 hours were crazy, kind of gaining insights into my real life through these dreams too haha writing them down, but the real world also feels more dreamy too. That must be the increased melatonin/serotonin surrounding the brain. I feel more "awake" and there is less of a distinction between the dream world and the real world. Also birds outside my door as I'm typing this sound more organic, I'm more tapped into that, like hearing sounds of a bird tweeting really stands out. Any suggestions of what I should do in this state? I'm going to go for a walk and meditate for a short while

Does anyone know any good places to access news sources, forums, high quality information etc. that isn't mainstream, Google recommended, mainstream media or science etc. Like subreddits, websites, onion links, people etc. Just wondering if you guys know of anything yourself. Cheers