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Eating cakes at birthdays. I hate cakes and I hate birthdays. Whenever I think about celebrating my birthday it feels like I'm a 8 year old dumb stupid-boy who has no free will and needs this stupid societal rule to allow for a celebration. And you can't imagine my hate for cakes. And even if I liked it, why would I need to wait for someones stupid birthday to eat one.

So if God gives you specifically endless blowjobs/day God = Good. Otherwise he is wrong and evil? Got it.

Apparently when you zoom deep enough into your body, you see AI slop.

Simple setup: Imagine the darkest, most hellish forms to experience reality as a human. Some imaginary day you as God are going to live through that from every perspective. Of course also from the victims POV. Do you love that? Are you excited about that? trigger warning: @Leo Gura have you had experiences/insights of love and excitement towards the perspective of (for example) getting raped by your dad for 16 years in their basement, being pregnant over and over with him? end trigger warning In what ways can I get so conscious of victims of cruelty that understanding and love start to emerge? Not that its completely impossible, but how can I say I'm Love if I push away those aspects of reality?

I mean its not part of REALITY, so yeah history books it is. However my point was directed into a totally different direction.

Maybe the rest of your life doesn’t offer as much pleasure and therefore sex has to compensate for it?

What is something where he is definitely wrong, in a field where he claims to know truth?

Tobacco company CEOs declare, under oath, that nicotine is not addictive (1994)

Yes, there is something to be said about straight problem solving without the endless ping-pong of congress, senates and campaigning. All the political drama would be cut out. Given that you and your needs are not too pruned by the state. Billions of people live under authoritarian states just fine. Its really just a question how much one values individual freedom and soverignty by itself. I think if I actually lived in China and was unconscious of the downsides of the regime, I would be totally happy with it.

Wow, I fully support your idea to do actual in-person retreats. No one I would trust more. Great next step of Actualized.org!

I guess there is no human bar low enough for american citizen to not vote for. Seriously, when is this vibe politics bs finally gonna end? I feel its just ramping up. I openly feel like a solid authoritarian government like the chinese model seems like the better option.

@Leo Gura Do you never get grossed out by the thought that some imaginary day, you will be in the perspective of a mormon fake-prophet sticking his child molesting dick into his 14 year old follower girls? I have a hard time not cringing out when I imagine that I will be the one doing this, by the laws of infinity and unity.

Wow, well thanks for this. I will go through everything here I may missed. Practically all of it makes sense from my experience and perspective so far. Next in line is LDN and magnesium to test their value for my situation.

Does anyone else experience/experienced Myalgic Encephalomyelitis / Chronic Fatigue Syndrom (or Long Covid, which is very similar)? Since about a year I'm researching why my fatigue won't go away. No matter how long I relax and sleep physical fatigue prevails. And since I'm not effected by junk food, drugs, sleep deprivation, brain cancer, depression, burnout ect., I'm really suspecting my nervous system caught something very similar to me/cfs somehow. I did all the typical tests for blood, MRT scans and basic check-ups to exclude anything more obvious. Nothing seems suspicious in that part. However -> The cardinal symptom for ME/CFS is PEM (Post Exertional Malaise), which means that fatigue symptoms get WAY worse after physical exercise or even mental stress. So that some 20 minutes of moderate exercise can send one into weeks of fever like sickness -> Which I do experience as well. On some days it got so bad that I couldn't walk for 10 minutes before having to stay in bed for 80% of the day. Now it got better since some time, without any understanding why. Its not gone though. Still, anything like normal work, exercise, dating, breathwork, psychedelics or just taking a good long walk is basically impossible for me now. For some people this condition can get fatally bad, which I'm luckily far away from. So have you had chronic fatigue like this somewhen? Or some of your relatives? What insights can one have into this? So far school medicine does not have any curative medication or therapy for ME/CFS and still only just suggests to pace yourself so PEM does not happen. I will suggest to my doctor to do a water fast again to see if autophagy can help with them corrupted cells in my body. Still researching though..

No, thats a great idea. I do scour forums, podcasts, blogs, news, articles and conferences for that. However: spontaneous cure for CFS seems to be 1-5% in adults in the first 3-4 years of symptoms - practially 0% after that. And there is not one single curative approach to this illness so far. Not via medication or psychosomatic approaches. Nothing. There is a lot you can do to not make it worse and stable the situation. But resolving it? Nothing viable I could find. I pay anyone on this forum 1000$ for his/her idea that actually makes my fatigue go away, without it coming back.

@integral Yeah, AI isn't to keen on that idea. Also these medications have been studied for decades, so even rare side-effects are known. Maybe they super-charged it in a way. But super-charged what? My cells decision to just work at 5% capacity, permanently? Its just so weird that my body would want to do that, without any infection or serious immediate trauma.

Robots. Robots is what is gonna save our horny balls. Its Robots. If women can have dark fantasy, we can have Robots.

And yeah, No infection, for many months before the CFS started. And even now, all infection bio-markers are silent. Auto-immune is what I largely expect to be the cause as well. But with no good test or screening to see what exactly is off. Maybe also just neurological. Or both.

Already checked out Lyme. Medications are interesting because there were multiple strong agents on my nervous system for months. After a heavy car crash in 2023 and subsequent poly trauma, I did take different opiods (general pain) and pregabalin (nerve pain) for almost 2 years. The CFS did start when I was in the final withdrawal phase of all that. So my guess was I was just fatigued from that. I also startet a treatment with Ritalin in that time period, which I also suspect to have stressed my nervous system to a good extend. If I was just listening on my gut, I would say it was the Pregabalin withdrawal or the Ritalin that caused my nervous system to fall into CFS. Very unscientific though. Could be something else all along.

I'm using the most biodigradable, bio, hippie detergent that I could find. (this https://uk.ecover.com/products/laundry/concentrated-bio-laundry-liquid/ ) - And use and little of it as possible. Nothing else in laundry. Also I stopped perfumes 8 years ago. CFS symptoms are present since one year almost, getting worse over time. Sometimes the symptoms seem gone, and then they come back 1 hour later like I got hit by a super virus.

@integral Thanks for sharing. I don't have MCS nor any gut health issues. - Btw. there are many, many different illnesses that can induce fatigue. Brain cancer, burn-out, depression can induce heavy, even unbearable fatigue. But they all have a spectrum of different side symptoms and differential tests to exclude them from a doctors perspective. Which they did in my case. My inflammation markers are all low. No deficiencies in vitamins or trace minerals. No cancer cells. Healthy heart, healthy gut, healthy blood, healthy lungs, healthy skin and healthy psyche. I have a air filtration system installed that never measures over PM2,5 > 3. So excellent air quality. I stay housebound basically always. I always ate clean. I'm doing a plant based heavy metal detox at the moment as well. I did have a lot of surgeries, medication treatments and psychological stress in the past though. So I'm more keen on investigating in that direction for now. As strong physical trauma is suspected to cause ME/CFS.

You know chronic fatigue syndrome causes me to lay in bed for 70% of the day. Sometimes I'm too fatigued to keep my eyes open. We are not talking about just brain fog here. And many have it way worse than me. Suicide rates are very high in patients. Some suffer for decades till they give up. And you are so sure about "its just poor air"?

I mean if that was true, CFS would be much worse in places with worse air quality. Thats so easy to test. Yet, this syndrome is equally spread out in global population. Everywhere you look. Same in Norway as in India.

First time I hear this. I changed homes and got a solid air filtration system inbuilt. Also, do severe allergies like this just come over night in adults? Some question marks about that. But than again, everybody says CFS is neuro-immunological and caused by constant inflammation. But what exactly nobody seems to know.

Yeah, as someone who was physically very active throughout life I intuitively use all my spare energy to go out and be as active as I can allow myself. Unfortunately though, this does not (as science agrees) initiate some kind of energy upward spiral with actual ME/CFS. Which also limits how much good mood and satisfaction I can have. Makes me depressed to think about not ever doing sport again tbh.