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Yesterday I had a long convo with a friend, who just rowed alone for 131 days across the atlantic and we talked alot about personal meaning, inspiration and the right way of living life. He said one thing, that struck me in particular, which I adapted in pick-up today. He said, that you have to play the game of life by your own rules. Acknowledge, that, not only are you completely free to choose whatever reality is for you, but also nobody is gonna stop you. There is no higher authority, that tells you what life should be for you. You construct it. Become aware and be responsible and conscious about your construction. And today as I was doing some dating app stuff I noticed how foolish I was, thinking, that women are gonna judge me if I was approaching them directly. This is mental construction. Taking ownership of reality, means to construct new meaning into it. So my new meaning became, that women on the street are just my imagination to approach them. They are my present to myself. Of cours rejections are also my present to myself. Because they make me wiser and better. And thats what motivated me to approach super beautiful women today.

Session 13: 20 minutes Took me some weeks to get into breathing again. So only 20 minutes. Was worth it though. Felt love, forgiveness, beauty, wholeness. Really no reason to procrastinate on holotropic breathing, since it always heals the mind. Namaste.

I understand the perspective from which you are argumenting. Even after some awakenings, I still held this frame. Consciousness is infintely tricky. But notice that all argumenting and interpreting won't bring you closer to truth. If you consider the materialistic paradigm, you have contradictions. If you considering another paradigm, you have contradictions. No mental theory about reality, without contradictions. So your best bet is, to dumb all paradigms, dumb Leo, Actualized.org and your entire knowing, and stay completely open absolute truth. That is your consciousness. This is literally the only fucking thing, that can absolutely be true for you. Thats a good start.

@Cireeric I can relate so much to you. Especially the point when meditation becames "automatic" in every day life.

Have done it in international flights. No problem. Just put it in a book. If you want to be super save, put it together with some other cutted paper pieces in different shapes.

More precisely, I want to know how you guys and girls feel about the fact, that awakening happened so early? I see so many rather young folks here and want contemplate this question right now. The absolute "Love-Infinity-God" awakening leaves nothing more to desire. Nothing to reach and nothing to know. Yet many, like myself, are in their twenties and wonder how knowing the ultimate structure way before death will play out for the next 40-60 years. Not that i'm complaining. I'm hyped to integrate Self more and more. Embracing every form as myself and be Love. But 60 years is a long time, considering the current pace @Leo Gura You surely must have thought about your early awakenings (in combination with your health situation), that your life will not be that long, and therefore you as God take you out of the mundane dream earlier.

Interesting. Keep going and share your experiences. I want to try it out soon, so advice is appreciated ?

Loving Leo is pointless. Awakening, and loving Leo is Self-Love.

I experience most of these + the tinnitus and skin aches. Top solution for me are: Sport. Especially cardio-vascular training and high heart rate training resolve the symptoms Clean food. Mostly processed and high-carb food trigger all this nasty stuff. Stick to high-fiber, nutrient-dense plant food. Connecting with people I appreaciate. - This one is highly underestimated. Social connection is so crucial for a well functioning body and mind. Even for more introverted people like me. There is this rule of thumb, that loneliness causes as much damage to your system as a constant smoking habit. Fresh air and sunlight. Hiking, walks in nature and sleeping with an open window all have a big impact of the symptoms you listed above.

It seems that way, right? In non-dual states of consciousness you will discover that actually there is no causation to anything. You imagine your pen falling down and than you imagine a sound a pen would make if it hits the floor. The cause here is your "higher self imagination". And this imagination has no cause, it is the eternal cause for everything. It is infinite. Don't bother to understand this intellectually. Bother to awaken

No, please don't. The internet is full of distracting entertainment. This is not the right place for bullshit.

Actually, I'm excited to "die". Im completely serious. One if my main motivations in everyday life is to die, and seeing all of creation again and falling in love with myself so infinitely, that even Leo Gura has no idea how "deep" Love can go

Yes the molecules are the same, but the fibers in actual fruits make the sugar metabolize slower. So no high spikes in blood sugar. I never felt bad after eating 2 bananas or some oranges. However eating sugary, white bread stuff makes me feel horrible for the next entire hour. Absolutely! This notion, that juice is somehow healthy needs to end.

@Someone here If you actually want to be scientific, you find that, there is zero evidence, that consciousness is produced by the brain. All you have is correlation between parts of the brain functioning/malfunctioning in correlation to ordinary/non-ordinary consciousness. Conflating correlation with causality is not scientific. Nor is it evidence of any kind. In contrast to that, you have 100% proof that your consciousness exists, and contains all the stuff like brains, science and what not. So maybe you keep yourself from mental masturbation, and do the actual work. Find truth by yourself.

Indeed, from the Actualized.org forums perspective, qualities like Singularity, Infinity and Love are agreed to be equal to God. However, the normie notion of God got stripped away of Singularity, Infinity and Love. For example even a hardcore christian could not convince some materialist, that there can't be "other Gods" or "other universes", because he lacks the experience of Infinity. So the word "God" and literally every other word in the history of humankind can't replace the significance of Infinity. I guess the right move, is to meet people where they at. On this forum God is the perfect word. In a more materialistic environment "source" might be better. For most peeps there is no word, that would be correct and would not make them feel irritated. In the end, these words are only ways sign to what we symbolize with the word "God". Cheers!

Being and "thinking about being" (intellectualization) are so close together, it's hard to distinguish them in everyday life. But the actual difference is significant. Looking at your finger nail seems to be a similar experience to "thinking about your fingernail". But this similarity in experience collapses if you actually look at your finger nail. Look at it now - the actual experience is something completely new. And even if you iterate this process forever, you find, that you can't make a mental "imprint" of your finger nail, that is completely equal to the experience. So if you be/look/appreciate the finger nail now, you are the closest to truth you can ever be. So if your consciousness is stripped away from every possible mental activity, including infinitely subtle thought-bits and pictures, you are left with the pure structure of consciousness! In this state you know, that every effort to make an "imprint" of this experience, leads to "mental pollution" of truth. Thats the ultimate dilemma in thinking and talking about it.

Never done 5meo-DMT. Infinity is not reserved to DMT exclusively. The experience of LSD + nitrous oxide is exactly what infinity is describe by Leo and most others. However, LSD alone can be enough.

@bambi The more you "be" towards infinity, you know yourself more and more. Eventually, at ultimate peak infinity, you know everything about yourself as God. But as soon as your consciousness "shadows" itself into the human form again, you lose that omniscience, degree by degree. Simultaneously your ability to intellectualize and symbolize reality builds itself up again, degree by degree. In that way omniscience and intellectual knowing are "negative correlative". As omniscience grows, intellectualization weakens, and vice versa. In conclusion: Relatively, you can never grasp reality as a whole. But absolutely, you can BE infinity and therefor know everything about yourself.

Did your ego inflate retrospectively on the idea, that you are God?

Have you actually had a direct of experience of this claim? I personally felt, that even "normal" egoic projections and behavior patterns feel terrible with psychedelics. You can almost feel the physical pain, when attached to ego while tripping. But thats just my view.

If you think about yourself, you are actively constructing your sense of self. I don't know you personally, but for an example I just assume you like to meditate. So if that is the case, you want others and yourself to perceive you as a meditator. Because you identify with "sitting Stil", "knowing about Buddhism", "telling others how cool meditation is", "buying japanese scent candles for ideal meditation atmosphere" ect. But all these things are just mental constructions. If you look closely, "Buddhism" and "scent candles" are just mental substance, or thoughts. Thoughts are symbols for the actual thing. But the actual thing can only be felt not thought. That is what is meant with symbolic construction.

@Shawn Philips I sense you still miss the actual experience of Self-Love. My face is not 1% more myself than your foot. That's how radical actual Self-love is. Identification to one specific part of Self (my face) is keeps my limited ego.

So as I revisited Leo's teachings about Self-Love I had so many insights about my own dysfunctional behaviors in everyday life. Two habits I want to address and set in context to Universal Self-Love - or more precisely, set in context with my lack of Universal Self-Love here: 1. Scrolling through media and listening to music non-stop: Because my Self-Love to ordinary people, ordinary situations and occurrences is so limited I take the easy way to Self-Love, when I look at beautiful people, landscapes and animals in YouTube or "social" media.Likewise with music. Because of my inability to appreciate the sound of my car engine or the sounds of birds, I take the easy route and listen to my favorite music for hours on end. However ordinary people, car engine sounds and birds are all me! Psychedelics showed this to me so many times, yet I seem to forget it over and over again. 2. Looking in the mirror: Because I train a lot and like my facial looks, I get addicted to "harvest low hanging Self-Love" when looking in the mirror. You could also call this ego self-love. Problems arise when my looks do not give me the same instant Self-Love and cause me to suffer. Yet when I'm extremely conscious, looking in the mirror is as pleasing as looking inside the organic waste bin. I'm interested to learn about your personal Universal Self-Love avoiding self-love behaviors.

Before we start I know this question is quite redundant, because obviously MORE consciousness solves the problem. But what do you do when reality seems completely "un-inviting" to be conscious about it. Let's say, you are meditative conscious and everything seems cozy and loving. But suddenly the exact thing you have been conscious of feels ugly, disturbing, confusing, cold ect. I am thinking of a good friend, who I absolutely love when I think about him. But as soon as we spend some time together, he seems dumb, boring and repetitive in his actions and wordings. And obviously he is me, so I try to love him through more consciousness. But this is way trickier than loving the car i'm driving, the clouds above me or anything similar. Should I tell him? Should I look him in the face for an hour till my love comes back? Should I avoid him and focus and "easier love"?

Indeed. I've completed the PDF document, you sent me and I have this novel feeling of "a new healthy perspective". Quite astonishing how mental knots can be untied so easily