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A future Leo is laughing at your pathetic image of god realization. Wasn't it always like that

Just order 5-meo. No need to lick toads.

I think many, myself included, have this common picture of God as a loving mother nurturing us with endless love, forgiveness and hope. Which is often called the "feminine quality" of God. However there is the masculine side of God, which feels harsh, rejecting and why we say "life is tough". During God realization both side are equally important and necessary. Both part of ultimate and necessary perfection. But here in the relative domain it begs the question, how embodying Gods perspective would make us seem harsh and rejecting. In that sense it is God-like to deliberately make others life's tough. In the end, it makes them stronger, wiser and more in tune with reality. You can think about how a wise parent would decide if the toddler cries for unhealthy sweet stuff and would hate you for not getting it. In this scenario you are literally God to the kid. What will you, as a wise, God-emboying parent do? Keeping with that theme, you could say that all your relatives, friends and strangers are little kids crying for your love. How will you act? Feminine or masculine? Especially if you yourself are a lost soul crying in the choir of desperate kids. Right now I would feel criminal if I'd embody the masculine site of God towards others as much as I experience it's masculine love towards me. Pure brutality lately. It makes me hate God so much, yet makes me love it so much more, as soon as I see it's necessity. There is so much to say about this dynamic. Hope for some discussion and insights here.

@Razard86 we are one the same wavelength here. Maybe you have some examples how you experienced reality from its feminine or masculine side? Here is an example how reality switched from feminine to masculine back and forth in my life: Feminine: reality offers me a new job as a fitness trainer with a chance to know hundreds of new personalities and step closer to self-actualization of my highest values. I feel hope, gratitude, new love and appreciation. Masculine: the reality as a fitness trainer feels boring, dreadful, lots of repetitive work, dry personalities with 98% smalltalk. Almost no money and terrible work times. Feminine: I learn a lot of new stuff about fitness techniques, learn what behavior to avoid with fearful and boring personalities. Learn about wage slavery and what drives ordinary people in their everyday life. Get the chance to do promotion and marketing content, which in itself is way more fun that the actual job. Masculine: the realization how even the good stuff in this job holds me back from my true life purpose and that every cool little technique I learn is just distraction from my ultimate goal. Feminine: learn that there is no future with some ultimate goal - this moment right here offers everything that has to be experienced in all of reality. This right here is the perfect playground the for the ultimate game, which stands far above any egoic goal. And then the masculine side takes over and switched back to feminine. Over and over and over and over again. I hate/love being human/God.

@Someone here Have you actually read the post? Why do you bring gender identification into it? This is different topic. My decision how I treat others has little to do with my sexual identification. Paradoxical the more I discover my feminine side, the more I want to live from a father-like perspective to my girlfriend let's say. Please be precise and sharp in your speech, and please listen to your heart if your speech can enhance the present moment even more or not. - This reply was written with masculine love btw. If it sounds harsh to you (The last sentence was written with feminine love )

Yeah Whatever held them back, to talk over money is the only problem I see here.

Wow unbelievable quote. Thank you Tristan for sharing

If analyzing a casual problem and elevating/integrating its core dynamic to the metaphysical perspective was a muscle, you'd beat Mr. Schwarzenegger on stage without even flexing. Excuse for the ass licking, some things just have to be said.

@Leo Gura's take about this topic could be extra relevant, because he is not purely brainwashed into the common american "Anti-Putin" politics. His russian background and understanding of political decisions could be worth making a video about it.

@something_else I know sourcing is banned here, but can you give me a hint, where to find a good protocol or place for more advice in regards of exploring the deep web for trustworthy vendors? I researched for about 2-3 hours and only got headaches and frustration. For now, the deep web feels like an online mental hospital.

This is what happens when you meditate correctly. You are on a good course. Your egoic mind, the inner voice, which identifies with "mine" and "I" struggles to let you be in "no mind" and "non-egoic presence", because it fears its own annihilation. This is one of the first big waves every meditator has to face. You will soon see how ridiculous this fear is. Your ego will always come back with different strategies. Get used to it If the routine of sitting down and meditating for a specific time stirs havoc and resistance in you, add or change to other mediations techniques. Body scans are great. Or just becoming super still to notice all the auditice sensations in you surroundings. In the presence itself, every thought is gone, you cannot think and be present at the same time. Thats the only thing that matters in every kind of meditation. Replacing thoughts with presence.

No, but also through a substance, which in my case sharpens and opens consciousness like thousands of micrograms of LSD. Just for a brief moment though.

My last awakening gave me some deep insights how what we call will is created. The notion of free will only comes into being, because you believe you can decide and change however you want. So this here is your current decision, maybe to read this text, which is surrounded in your mind by all sorts of alternatives. You could read something else, listen to music, go eat something. Also, if you chose to eat something the possibility of reading this text comes up again as an alternative scenario. So you never trapped in an decision you can always decide back. That's what is meant with infinite free will. However, the line of decision throughout your entire life follows an ultimate path of perfection. That's why there is no absolute free will. But because this line follow infinite love, every dot in this line is surrounded by infinite alternatives, which you can explore. But regardless where you explore, you will follow absolute perfection. So No free will and infinite free will are absolutely the same.

It only does to the degree of you not thinking. Thats the reason sunsets can feel "mystical", because your thinking stops at the beauty of such events. Your post also reminded me about an insight, which came up about why spiritual growth is often associated with being in nature. That is, because just like with the Mandelbrot set, plants and animals also growth and behave in non-rational, fractal-like pattern, which cannot be comprehended by the mind if you look closely. So looking at astonishing landscapes and flowers will stop the mind, if not for some seconds. Meanwhile an accurately shaped room can be comprehended super easily, so your can produce toxic thoughts and stories again without hindrance.

What protocol? There is literally zero good advice, what and whom you can trust there. The deep web feels like a mob of drunk children.

So after suppressing sexual energies in all sorts of untruthful ways AND becoming more conscious I noticed many interesting aspects about masturbation, fantasies, guilt and how it all comes together. So basically most guys experience symptoms of shame, weakness or lethargy after masturbation. Some times for days. Especially if it was accompanied by porn. They think this is a natural state. "And it's normal to feel that way, because masturbation and porn is bad." And therefore NoFap and other kinds of sexual energy suppression exist. This works for some. For many it does not. - Having to restrict oneself is not really aligned with a truthful, free way of life. So here is the key insight: Your shame, weakness and lethargy will show itself in relation to your mental fantasizing, while also being detached from the body in the act itself. Here are some life-like examples how sexual energy is usually acted out, versus how it naturally would never give you any bad symptoms. Scenario one: You are feeling horny, because you saw some arousing pictures or because you let yourself drift into sexual fantasies with an idealized imagine of a seemingly perfect women. You go after this vortex of arousal, fantasizing, thinking and end up opening porn sites. All of this plays out unconscious, just to keep the flow of the horniness going. You found yourself the perfect clip and get to the orgasm super fast, without even looking at your dick or feeling the sensation in your body. Even if you were conscious of your body here and there, you soon shifted your consciousness onto the video and even more importantly onto your own fantasy having this sexual experience for real, and even more extreme than it is shown. Now you just sit there, like we all sat there, thinking what the hell came over me to be dragged into this hedonistic spiral so fast. There is a scent of guilt and weakness, which accompanied by even more thinking, makes you mentally unstable towards real women and thirsty for the next wave of horniness. Scenario Two: You are feeling horny, and notice that your horniness is feeding from your thoughts and addiction to your thoughts. You could go into this gravitational pull of sexual thoughts, but you stop yourself and really feel into your body, if it wants to experience sexual energy right now. If yes, you go about masturbation, but this time with full awareness about your hand, the intelligence of your veins, and muscles in the arm and of your abdominal feelings while pleasuring yourself. There is awareness in your dick, there is awareness in your bottom - awareness everywhere. You will also notice, that you stop yourself from masturbation, just because your body felt like it. Then, as you go on, you notice how your minds really longs for sexual fantasy as you approach the climax. This is when 99% of guys give into sexual fantasy and start masturbating in the mind again. But this time you stay with your body. It is not enough to be just a little bit aware here and there, you have to be and stay aware through the whole act. If you have to watch porn, fine. Just be really conscious about what is going on and don't drift away into fantasy. Notice every detail and be aware of the experience holistically. Also notice the room in which your experience it, be completely present and aware of everything. With this approach, I noticed no exhaustion, no guilt, no shame, no lethargy, no mental attachment to what you have watched and what you should not have watched. Just peace and freedom. This also breaks any addiction, because you are never addicted to bodily sensation. It's rather the fantasy that sparks and keeps the dopamine flow alive. By the way, this insight forms also the core of Tantra, if you have not noticed yet. Cheers and amazing, aware masturbation

You would be the first healthy man alive, who could turn off it's sexual cravings by some push ups. It's just a matter of a time when you want to have sex again. That's why the OP was written down.

1V-LSD. It's legal in Germany and in some other european countries for the rest of the summer (at least in Germany). You can buy it in the clear web with ordinary payment methods. And yes its completely mimics normal LSD, because it gets metabolized into original LSD in the body. No other side-effects.

@bambi I think you are conflating death of all conscious forms with the vanishing of the ego. I had both many times. Of course during a God realization, you will not have any ego, but you can loosen the grip of it right now. This loosening will eventually even lead to awakenings, but that needs decades of training. The basic definition is this: Ego is just the identification with thoughts. So when this identification dies, there is just peace and wonder.

Ego death on psychedelics is exactly the same like without. The way there can be a little dramatic. But only if you are firmly identified with your thought structures as you. Meditation is good. Watch your thoughts and see how they trick you into making more thoughts Ingenious tricks at play there. Don't believe your thoughts. Be conscious of them and then conscious about your surroundings, the sounds, the colors, your feelings inside the body AND of course your internal voice creeping up again saying: "wow sounds and colors are so ordinary I cannot do something with them - do something else!". That's the trick - the voice wants you to use it. The ego wants to be used. Don't worry about the ego, it won't go anywhere, even if you have thousands of ego deaths. just sit there and notice what is happening. Thats the most important aspect of life, you will figure out why without me

Stop it! Your ego does not want to die. It's only natural. But you will build your own hell by believing this fear is genuinely yours. YOU are not the ego. Totally disidentification with thoughts is the death of the ego, it cannot survive when its structures (thoughts) get noticed by you. Your only job is to notice your thoughts and feel your authentic deeper, underlying, still Self. If you can do that, no psychedelics or mystical experience will EVER give you fear. It will only you give endless love for free.

So you notice there is a subtle background thinking? Thats YOU "formlessness" noticing the faint structures of you "the Ego". Keep going, the split between awareness and thinking will become bigger and bigger. You can have hundreds of little ego deaths or "Satori's" per day with that awareness about the subtle voice in your head Just notice it and notice the stillness, in which the voice speaks. This stillness - Thats YOU!

Do you want to know how an ego death feels like for some seconds? Just become completely aware of your surroundings and/or you inner body. Engulf yourself completely in the sensations, without any interpretation. It's actually pretty easy. That's no ego. During psychedelics you get pushed into this state. Right now you can sense how your mind will fight against your awareness. Thoughts will come up to pull you back into ego thinking. The stress between pushing you into the presence and pulling you back into thinking is what can be challenging. Now you have all the cards of the table, what it needs to have a terrible experience versus a beautiful experience.

During my last meditation retreat I completely became aware how flow works. By that I mean the state of comfortable excellence and enjoyment in anything you do. Many, myself included think that this state is somehow mysterious and only comes with certain activites, which you have trained for thousands of hours. It's like a random gift by God. Forget all that. The only one thing that puts you directly without any ambivalence into flow is complete surrender to this present experience right here. If you are doing something, give all your awareness to this doing as if it was the last and only thing you could ever do. Do it completely for its own sake. For example of your are writing some text here on this forum, treat this text as if it was the point of your entire life. You were born to write this text NOW - this stops the thinking and construction of some other goal you might developed while writing. If you do it to reach some end, you immediately notice how the flow subsides to the degree of your "wanting to reach something with it". Treat it as if it was the point of the whole universe. Spoiler alert: it is

Good decision. Now completely stick to it. Porn isn't going anywhere. You can waste your sexuality for decades when you are old on porn. Now is the time for real intimacy and sex. Here is what made be get laid pretty easily. Working out Doing a job or activity that made be proud Having a strong social circle and friends to go out with Meditation Self-improvement habits, like cold showers, reading books, journaling ect. Cold approach, no matter the outcome Notice that all these don't directly get you laid, it's rather the self-confidence that comes with them, that gets you laid. If you continuously stick with this, you automatically will have sex sooner or later.