Vynce

Session Five: 35 minutes After resisting to do more session day after day I set the schedule to do them once a week. Today it was quite easy to perform, but nothing really happened during or after the session. I was very relaxed and had a really still mind at the end. Very comfortable. No deeper insights.

When you are God realized, there is absolutely no need to watch actualized.org ever again. Nor to read the Bible, nor to read anything else. This is what Leo's work is about. This is the least dogmatic form of teaching. But you gonna figure that out by yourself. No need to believe that.

@Leo Gura How can they get deeper? How can you ever realize something beyond Love? I know this question came up here a lot, but you also say that you are just a beginner at this work from the highest perspective. From what perspective? Its all Love isn't it?

Maybe I have misunderstood you but be careful not to judge "the masses" for dumb and "grateful" for Facebook technology. This is so common in conscious developed egos. When Oculus Rift (first VR headset) came out people thought, that "gamers" will now completely lose their sense for reality, because they now have this immersive alternative reality. Nothing alike happened. It was not even a big trend. Another example would be the gene manipulative technology CRISPR. I remember discussions about designers babies and how North Korea can make "super warriors" now. The same with Elon Musks Neuralink. The structure of these concerns stays the same: The most horrific scenario gets projected onto the "masses", without seeing the practicability of such technologies and what has to happen until your parents and co-workers actually implement a chip in their head. There are just too many developed beings nowadays for these horrific scenarios to play out. And the technology is mostly not even 1% as immersive as this dream you are in right now.

For the last years i really had the attitude to hide my low conscious desires like video games and porn. Especially as I developed spiritually, I really had to make plans to "cover" these desires to seem more developed. Exhausting the desire for video games seems pretty easy for me. I feel how every game gets boring really quick. Nowadays its just one game, which I probably de-install pretty soon. Exhaustion is happening. However, with porn it's another pair of shoes. I was addicted for like 9 years since I was 10. At 19 the pendulum swang hard to the other side. I was into NoPMO and NoFap. All in all I thought to have solved the desire completely. 3 years later, my desire for porn has not shrank a bit. I don't even want to cover or hide this circumstance. Its just that i really feel that porn doesn't do my life any good. But I cant ignore it either. I really need a concrete plan to exhaust this desire. But what shall I do? Have sex with lots of porn stars? Go make porn movies myself? I welcome a serious talk about this, as I intuit that most of us struggle with this or similar unconscious desires as well.

Everytime I see an answer from you im prepared to not understand anything. This time it's suited for my cluttered mind. This makes it easier to see my futile approaches to understand consciousness as something, which is done by mind - not the other way around. Thank you

@Kksd74628 Oh thanks for this post. The video game analogy really resonated with me

I don't know why you want to watch TV shows, when taking LSD. The point of these substances is to make you more aware of your inner stories and concepts, not to watch them in TV. If you allow yourself to let go of concepts, deep wisdom and creativity will form.

I never tasted anything specific. I had Creatine monohydrate if that is helpful for you. I took it for months. It has some concrete benefits, if you want to increase your first-reps-strength in the gym. In other words, your 3-5 rep strength increases. Endurance stays the same. I actually started to take it one week ago every day. A little less than one tea spoon, everyday.

I get what he thinks about "spiritual egos", and how they subconsciously separate themselves as "more developed" or "wiser". But if he'd know a truly spiritual person, he would think otherwise. Conveniently you can see "fake spirituality" super easy, if you are serious about it yourself. Just notice if people see themselves as spiritual if they think and talk about it, like someone into math would do math. Spirituality is not done like math. It is not done by any mental activity. It is being. Being there with what is. Being, without any ideas of how being has to be. This works without secret knowledge, mushrooms or some dude from Austin. In fact, all those things hinder you from being there with what is.

Session Four: 40 minutes Had fear of twisted and dark states of consciousness without resolving them. At session three every twisted state resolved itself into oneness and love, but you never know this before you go into the session. Time went by fast again. I even thought to use this technique whenever I had to wait for an hour at the airport or so. Originally i wanted to do 35 minutes, but i felt confident to do 40. I don't really had a clear awakening state, but the end was blissful, completely relaxed and without any fear.

Session One: 30 minutes with Joshua. Start of the session felt like it would take ages to endure. Not really spectacular. Tickling limbs. Tickling everywhere after 15 minutes. After 30 minutes had passed, my consciousness became so clear and direct, that i noticed the structure of God in feelings, thoughts, visual appearances, auditory sensations and consciousness itself. Consciousness shrank, but Love stayed. Session Two: 30 minutes Like session one, with a slightly increased realization of God structure and consciousness at the end. Love. Session Three: 35 minutes First time to amp up the duration of breathing. Felt unmotivated and frustrated beforehand. Had a lot of porn consumption and masturbation this day and felt miserable about myself. 35 minutes gone by fast again. Became conscious of God structure again and noticed that consciousness always is part of Gods perfection. Even bad thoughts, miserable feelings, experiences of loss and frustration are part of God ultimate plan of infinite Love. I also had the strong intuition, that my porn consumption had influence about my world view. Every bit of consciousness is getting dulled out because of that. This insight might be strong enough to get over constant cravings for porn.

Yesterday I finally got the chance to be a "trip sitter" for a good friend, who wanted to seriously go into the experience of psychedelics. And since I have tripped for dozens of times, I felt confident to know what he needed and how he felt during the trip. I planned out the day with him, gave him the substance, cooked food for him, organized the music, asked him whenever he seemed to need something. But most of the time I kept myself quite, so he could get the most out of the experience. Today he drove home and I feel a strong ego backlash. It's as if you'd gave every bit of love you had, and received nothing back. Interesting to notice.

I want to point out that this love was not unconditional. I really hoped to see in him an outpouring of love as it happened with me several times during psychedelic experiences. Likewise I made this post to maybe get a little bit of love back. This is probably the cause of ego anger and frustration. We are all selfish bastards.

While meditating and especially in high conscious states via psychedelics I notice that being mindful can have two very different qualities. On the one hand, there is mind activity with itself, like contemplating, playing with thoughts and memories and doing life related think work. All happening in the mind. On the other hand, there is mind activity with what is. Noticing sounds, feeling body sensations or noticing neutrality or nothing specific. All happening in the mind. (Given that you awoken from the materialistic paradigm) But why does mind activity with itself make me miserable, shameful, depressed and lethargic? Contrary, mind activity with what is, makes me creative, joyful and most of the times fills me with liveliness. But if we transcend the boundary between mind activity in ego mind and god mind, there is just mind. So my thoughts are just as part of reality and this laptop here. Why do these two things couched in the same mind produce such different states of mind?

After some massive awakenings, my love for consciousness became so intense that I absolutely want to share awakenings with others. But awakening is ultimately the recognition that you/I am one and if I guide someone into that realization I have to lie about that he/she is the only one conscious. For example if I listen to Leo's God realization video, I totally see and know that I'm the only conscious thing in the universe imagine everything existing. However if I stay in sleep conscious and guide someone into God realization on some psychedelic he/she doesn't get Oneness if I talk about how I AM the only thing, and how I imagine him awaken. So what would be appropriate in this situation?

Hey Irina, i struggle with the same thing. Since about 6 years I bite my tongue on the edges constantly. It's so strange to describe someone the quick satisfaction of ripping little bits of flesh from the tongue. It doesn't hurt either, which means I don't notice it at all. Just occasionally when I see the big white scars on the edges in the mirror. Then all my efforts to stay conscious about not biting my tongue get flushed away in unconsciousness. Gum chewing seems to make it worse, since my jaws get used to the work and want to grind something after chewing. My tongue most of the times. I will follow this thread in high hopes of genuine advice. Especially because I dissolved most bad habits quite easily. This one stayed untouched till now.

It did it for me. I was so stubborn about the idea that "this" here is somehow love, but eventually 5,5 tabs of LSD made me conscious of infinite love and the structure of the universe. Something I will probably never forget for the rest of this life experience.

We all have topics, science fields, books, movies, YouTube videos, people, animals, music genres, clothing styles, sex practices and thoughts, which are more interesting than others. Some are so interesting that we devote our entire life to explore these rabbit holes. And than there are topics, which are so boring, that it feels like pain just to think about them more than necessary. What causes this distinction? Is it just the ego trying to use reality as a tool for it's survival? In which case the ego calls these tools "interesting". Than why do insects look interesting if they hop on our hand? My ego doesn't get anything from insects on my hand. Is interest just another form of love? Than why can we be interested in stuff we hate? This feels worth contemplating for me. But I'm sure people on this forum ponder about this a lot. Insights are welcome.

That's because your current ego consciousness is way too low. Increase it forever. Than you'll see how everything is imagined by YOUR consciousness.

@Tyler Durden he fills it with infinite love. The exact opposite of boredom

I've done plenty of high dose LSD trips and wonder how 5meo will differ, and if my attitude "just let everything happen and stay conscious, without attachment to my ego" will carry me through breakthrough 5meo trips. Is someone here, who has done both +600 mikrogramm LSD trips AND 5meo and can tell me the difference?

@FlyingLotus Thank you.

To have had a god realization makes it possible to understand all religion at its core. But I still struggle to see the roles of angels. What are they in direct experience of consciousness?

Everytime I see the perfect design of reality in all it's beauty I wonder why god designed sleep as such an important part of our life. Why give away 1/3 of our life unconscious to sleep? Maybe Leo can say one or two things on his blog about that