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Yes there is an attachment of wanting to look behind the curtain of reality. That's also the reason why monks and spiritual people invest decades in meditation, contemplation and inquiry. That is attachment to life.

Intelligent design also includes bad luck. And every other random or not random thing. Using good luck as a sign of intelligent design and God would not make sense. In my mother language (german) luck has the same word as joy, which can lead to this biased notion, among the people here.

Watch Leo's episode on psychedelics, which covers most of the essential information. I suggest a strong meditation habit as well, for you to train your "introspection muscle". This really helps to make sense out of psychedelic experiences, rather than just doing it for entertainment reasons. If you just want to have fun, try some microdosing with psylocibin or LSD. But if you want to seriously get the most out of psychedelics you should really prepare for a breakthrough dose, which should never be done without proper preparation and experience.

@Flim You can become directly conscious of how you imagine them to think. Even the most fucked up thoughts and irrational thinking, which could never come out of your "human mind" is imagined by the universal mind into others. Dont rely on your "human finite mind" to understand how that works. Up your consciousness and experience how its done.

@Yali Thats some excellent victim mentality. Value is so dependent on behaivor and charisma, from a girls perspective. Think of how women feel attracted to funny guys. Men devalue that too easily. And even when it comes to the looks, you can certainly do more than you believe. Posture, muscle growth, good skin (healthy, nutrient dense food) are all just examples how you can increase you "chad-ness". The ultimate attractor is when you feel unconditionally good about yourself and naturally radiate this feeling into the world.

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Increasing your baseline consciousness will get you off porn long-term instead of forcing yourself to quite for 7 days and relapse afterwards. I was in this downwards spiral of "wanting to quite" and "relapsing because of boredom and cravings" for many years, which lead to guilt and self-hate. What solved this problem was a massive shift in consciousness mostly through hardcore meditation - 1 hour a days for 5 months. I can get horny and still think about porn, but it isn't as appealing to me anymore. If you tasted the sweet flavour of true mental freedom through consciousness work, porn "tastes" like a soggy toast for your mental taste buds. Don't try to quite porn. Upgrade your consciousness. Your cravings for porn will dissolve in the process.

Im writing this to get a deeper understanding of what "other" humans really are. Precisely how awakened people say they are imagining me, even though there is just one source of imagination. But let me explain. I became fully conscious of how im imagining my body, other humans, plants, animals and basically the whole universe in order to discover my true self again via creative doing/being. That means that there is just one infinite consciousness, who imagines all that through my direct experience. So right now in that moment im the only existing consciousness in the entire universe imagining you guys interacting with me. But what happens if we sit site by site and take some powerful psychedelic to experience infinite consciousness again? Who imagines who? Obviously its me imagining you, but you can tell me how you imagined me. Thats so paradoxical and twisted. Its the dog chasing its tail and i dont know what part of the dog is the truth.

@impulse9 you're right. I think this urge to explain and describe gets fueled up, when you listen to a 3-hour video of Leo effortlessly explaining deep mystical experiences. My ego really thinks there is a shortcut to these insights and wants to figure out everything within a blink of an eye.

@WaveInTheOcean I get that trying to understand stuff won't get me anywhere. But it is possible to understand reality. However, it seems like Impossible in this sober/sleep state of mind. I think the real challenge would be to silence the mind and experience reality instead of understanding it. I think you could measure the ego-mind activity through asking yourself if you are really experience reality of just describing it.

I cant speak for Leo but remember that there are not ants outside of you. They exist like every other form just "couched in your consciousness". So there is no perspective of being an ant.

@RMQualtrough Interesting. I once had a trip with about 5,5 tabs and was fairly sober after 5 hours. There is always this point of fully surrendering when the "trippiness" eliminates itself. Then i just be in peace and silence.

Takes 8-12 hours after intake. You might have struggle to sleep afterwards, so take it as early as possible. Meditate beforehand to be calmed when you enter the trip. There a plenty of guides how to prepare properly. Preparation is important. Make sure to save the day afterwards for reflection and Integration. Good trip:)

Seeing intelligence and beauty in reality which includes 1. Experiencing nature 2. Listening to music 3. Deeply understanding other humans

Humor was always a significant part in god realizations for me. In the bible, or every other religious text God is always this damn serious authority figure, whereas in reality God likes to make itself laugh - because why not.

Wonder if vice versa sexuality and identification with gender gets increased if you get more unconscious through drinking alcohol or consume too much junk media.

After awakening many times to the truth that there is no difference between you and me and that ultimately every part of reality is just God imagining it, can you still feel this "Oneness" even if someone hates you, tells lies about you, or treats you in some way wrong? After all how could you hate yourself? Do you feel anger? How do you integrate anger, hate and so on in your everyday life? Or has every negative emotions just died of after awakening?

One additional insight why its hard to find spiritual minded men on dating sites is not quite obvious. Get in the POV of a man, who is somewhat into spirituality and is open for any kind of relationship not just the short-term sexual. He makes his profile and starts to look out for mates/matches. Now two things will happen. Firstly, the man will get just as frustrated as you, because online communication isnt really profound and spiritual women are also hard to find. And secoundly he might rethink his ambition to find a truely spiritual women, because plenty of more "cheapish" ladies trigger his sexual needs. So he wonders if its even worth to invest energy in that "kinda interesting girl, who is into yoga and meditation" or rather go for the least resistant path of easy sex with a random less spiritually minded girl. That means, maybe there are plenty of open-minded and spiritual men on dating sites, who just got distraced and frustrated through the dating sites.

If you could have what ever you want reality would explode in love and joy instantly. That would be great, but after eternities of love bathing, you as God would want to create something again. But you would have to be very intelligent how you create reality again, so that it wont fall into infinite love bathing again. If you ponder about how you would create reality, without reaching infinite love instantly again, you would realise that reality as it is right now is the only perfect way. This feeling in your gut - that you feel seperated from others, that you want something, which you cant have, thats part of the ultimate perfect creation, if seen from Gods perspective, not from your ego perspective.

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As Ivankiss said, maybe its God testing you how deep you see yourself in others. I can relate to you 100%, because i have a job which involves talking to people 24/7. And as my conscioussnes grows i want to spread love and empathy towars others, because on the deepst level of truth, there is no difference between them and me. However the egoic mind thrives on differences, so it wants you to believe in being different from others, therefore the love is not as authentic as it could be. And God, in the form of others "punishes" you conviniently by acting cold towards egoic love. Otherwise God could never be discovered, if you had true love through your ego. You might want to say that you are not egoic at all, but i speaking of "degrees" of egoic love, wich ultimately tend to purify into true unconditional love. I think its wise to believe that we have no clue how "pure" true love can really get. But everytime i feel just a spark of unconditional love in me, others give it back to me a million times, in form of money, time, attention what ever. And than the ego steps in and wants to replay the unconditional love to reward itself with money, time and attention, which doesnt work this time, because its coming from the ego. Its a tricky mechanism, but if you look at it holistically, with the goal to find God in others and in yourself, the cold ignorance of others is a perfect tool for you to awakening and let behind the ego.

This altering state of kindness and ignorance is usually a clever mechanism of the ego, which cannot flourish if everything is predictable fine. It needs the drama and amplitude of emotions to work withing your friend. Sadly I have years of experience with such people. The way to go here would be to talk about her in a complete "non-judgemental" and present way. So that her ego can't interpret this as an offensive. But be open to get possiblity that after she acknowledges your point she will ignore you even more. That's because her ego knows you can't be used stir up more drama. But eventually everything will work out fine and she reflects on her behavior. This will take time however.

One time I became so conscious, that my urge to pee got imaginary. But at the same time i noticed why it was important to imagine pee, toilets and so on. But thats another story with the breath. Never experienced imaginary breath.

@Leo Gura during my first awakening I had the idea that everything that is part of reality is a part of a fractal. And since a fractal is infinitely small (or large) every possible thing is included. Like the in Mandelbrot-Set where every form is manifested sooner or later.