Vynce

After some massive awakenings, my love for consciousness became so intense that I absolutely want to share awakenings with others. But awakening is ultimately the recognition that you/I am one and if I guide someone into that realization I have to lie about that he/she is the only one conscious. For example if I listen to Leo's God realization video, I totally see and know that I'm the only conscious thing in the universe imagine everything existing. However if I stay in sleep conscious and guide someone into God realization on some psychedelic he/she doesn't get Oneness if I talk about how I AM the only thing, and how I imagine him awaken. So what would be appropriate in this situation?

Hey Irina, i struggle with the same thing. Since about 6 years I bite my tongue on the edges constantly. It's so strange to describe someone the quick satisfaction of ripping little bits of flesh from the tongue. It doesn't hurt either, which means I don't notice it at all. Just occasionally when I see the big white scars on the edges in the mirror. Then all my efforts to stay conscious about not biting my tongue get flushed away in unconsciousness. Gum chewing seems to make it worse, since my jaws get used to the work and want to grind something after chewing. My tongue most of the times. I will follow this thread in high hopes of genuine advice. Especially because I dissolved most bad habits quite easily. This one stayed untouched till now.

It did it for me. I was so stubborn about the idea that "this" here is somehow love, but eventually 5,5 tabs of LSD made me conscious of infinite love and the structure of the universe. Something I will probably never forget for the rest of this life experience.

We all have topics, science fields, books, movies, YouTube videos, people, animals, music genres, clothing styles, sex practices and thoughts, which are more interesting than others. Some are so interesting that we devote our entire life to explore these rabbit holes. And than there are topics, which are so boring, that it feels like pain just to think about them more than necessary. What causes this distinction? Is it just the ego trying to use reality as a tool for it's survival? In which case the ego calls these tools "interesting". Than why do insects look interesting if they hop on our hand? My ego doesn't get anything from insects on my hand. Is interest just another form of love? Than why can we be interested in stuff we hate? This feels worth contemplating for me. But I'm sure people on this forum ponder about this a lot. Insights are welcome.

That's because your current ego consciousness is way too low. Increase it forever. Than you'll see how everything is imagined by YOUR consciousness.

@Tyler Durden he fills it with infinite love. The exact opposite of boredom

I've done plenty of high dose LSD trips and wonder how 5meo will differ, and if my attitude "just let everything happen and stay conscious, without attachment to my ego" will carry me through breakthrough 5meo trips. Is someone here, who has done both +600 mikrogramm LSD trips AND 5meo and can tell me the difference?

@FlyingLotus Thank you.

To have had a god realization makes it possible to understand all religion at its core. But I still struggle to see the roles of angels. What are they in direct experience of consciousness?

Everytime I see the perfect design of reality in all it's beauty I wonder why god designed sleep as such an important part of our life. Why give away 1/3 of our life unconscious to sleep? Maybe Leo can say one or two things on his blog about that

I just wanted to say that his latest post on the infinite insight section is just brilliant. Most teachers make it sound so complicated when they talk about "delayed gratification", but Leo nailed it right on the head.

As Tyler said, God is in love and interested in all your states of consciousness. Even the most twisted, depressed states are just as important for God as your enlightenment states. He loves it.

Especially during "heroic dose" trips simple kitchen work like brewing a tea can be overwhelmingly difficult. I'm speaking from a lot of personal experience So prepare everything beforehand. The best "trip-food" has to be practical and healthy. That includes food like Sushi, ready made salads, berries and fruits. However, my biggest recommendation are soups. Especially if you aren't feeling hungry, soups can be eaten at every time. The warm feeling of it also goes well when you feel cold and shaky like I sometimes feel when tripping. Also its super easy, because you just have to heat it.

So I remember asking some weeks ago why love has to be equal to consciousness. I thought it is the direct product or main intent of consciousness. However in my last awakening I got proved otherwise. (Btw. thank you all for being part of this journey) But now I somewhat wish to never have had this insight. Because now, I see how unloving as selfish I really am. And how endlessly good existence would be if I'd love every little dirty, corrupted state of consciousness equally. So how you awakened guys deal with this dilemma? I've heard Leo say "just try to be a little more loving everyday", but every "little bit more love" is mice shit compared to what's possible. And how you guys deal with moments, when you were exceptional unloving? Of course Gods loves my inability to love, but this is precisely my point. Why is my mind so incredibly unable to love finite, corrupted stuff. It wouldn't endanger my survival if I'd love that fascist just as much as the hardcore leftist. This really is a Pandora's Box for me. But the awakening is still really fresh. Might need some time to integrate everything.

@Vynce I had the intuition, that God designed sleep to experience all sorts of crazy, non-logical stuff that would normally destroy the structure of the "sober infinity". But since God also wants to know how it is being chased by a super massive UFO in the desert by wearing a snow jacket, sleep dreams seem to be a good opportunity for such experiences.

@JuliusCaesar Try hard and engage fully to achieve your desires. But ultimately be open to the possibility that every desire at its roots is somehow the desire to feel love. As hippie-like as that sounds. Even the most "non-hippie-people" like me realize that at some point. You don't have to short-cut to infinite love directly. Your personal path will directly or indirectly guide you to higher and higher realizations about your life. Bit by bit. Just be open for it. That's not concrete advise. Precisely because reality has no concrete path to love. Every path is love which everyone, who is in physical form fails to see. But the more you change physical form for pure consciousness, the more you see that truth.

Someone wise in this from said, that there will always be new methods to do spirituality. So this is what I found: Most of you surely have a Spotify account or a similar music-listening app, where you have all your favorite music listed up. You have specific music genres, which you favor more than others. Also notice that there are some genres, which you have never really listened to (and would never think of listening to). But now I want you to listen to music, which you absolutely don't like and see what happens. What part of your psyche rejects the music? Contemplate why your psyche is causing suffering with some noises, rather than other (your favorite) noises. Also try to see if you really dislike the music itself, or rather the audience, which is most commonly associated with that music. I struggled with the latter a lot. I personally noticed, that I felt surprised by how understanding and almost appreciative I felt, when trying this exercise, with an open mind. I guess you can get a little sneak peak how God's love functions, if you find beauty and understanding in every music. At last: here is my example list, which music I found awful, but tried listening to with an open heart: German gangster rap Turkish Basar music High School Musical Songs Overly emotional love and romance songs Radical political music God loves it all - endlessly and equal

You can never be directly conscious of unconsciousness.

So to be clear I agree with 85-90% of what you say Leo. I have had similar awakening experiences in the past, and I intuitively feel that most of what you say comes from a genuine "truth-seeking" attitude. However, I have one major question regarding your most fundamental statement: "Everything is Love". I totally see that everything from thoughts to feelings and "material" objects is consciousness. There cant be anything other than consciousness. I even got the insight that consciousness has no boundaries and is free to do what ever it wants, therefore is infinite. So logically the main goal of consciousness is to love itself infinitely. Because what is there else to do. Thats how far my empirically grounded understanding of your teaching goes. But why is consciousness EQUAL to love? That would mean that love and consciousness are not PRIOR or AFTER one another. But clearly consciousness is the fundamental source of love. Your teaching says that both are sourcing each other, because they are identical. But when i sit here in my chair and experience all kind of consciousness, there is no way I feel/see love before consciousness. Language is probably not suited to clarify this, but is there a fundamental necessity for love to be equal to consciousness? If so, why?

Enough has been said about crazy intense states of the God head in this forum. Most of you guys (even Leo) don't live in the God head for most of their conscious time. So I want to deepen my understanding of the point when egoic mind "clicks" into the God head. Most of the time it's a random non-predictable moment. But how does this work? And most importantly how does the God mind "clicks" itself in the egoic mind back again? It so mind boggling. It's like you've fallen for a magic trick a thousand times and the magician finally agrees to show you how the trick works. The trick is so simple that you laugh at your ass of at your own stupidity. But then somehow the magician performs exactly the same trick and you completely lost your understanding how the trick worked again. This is so frustrating for my egoic mind. How to you cope with that in the egoic mind?

True. I could listen to them for 24h straight

Wow. The brain is just a little cloud.

So Leo mentioned in the podcast with Kurt Jaimungal that he is writing a book. Presumably about fundamental epistemology and non-duality. So I'm asking directly to Leo here: Are you comfortable sharing any information about what you write and when the book will be published?

Totally reasonable. However most meditators or not superhuman monks, so they occasionally slack off the meditation entirely if they are too sleepy. So this might be a fair method, when meditation won't be done otherwise. But granted, the ultimate goal is without anything besides your mind.

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