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WOW! This phenomenon is lingering in my mind for months now. I'm so into appreciating beauty in humans, but it always gets misunderstood as sexual desire. For example I absolutely love the male body. Nearly as much as I love the females. The way how muscles move and contract... The way there are built and coordinated in perfect proportion. Its really a shame, that men let this precious gift of a healthy, trained body down. I'm even open for homosexual love at this point, just to appreciate the male body even more But its a different attraction, than what I'm used to with women. Thank you for this quote

Actually a good opportunity for you to practice love with them

Clarified butter (Ghee) is also super healthy and has a distinct flavor, which I absolutely like. Plus, you don't need to refrigerate it.

Which is not a bad thing per se. The rule of thumb is to limit insulin spikes to 3-4 per day. Snacking is a big factor in unnecessary insulin spikes. Because even a half banana will spike your insulin like a big meal would. Also look "what" spikes the insulin. If it's long chained carbohydrates, mixed with a lot of fibre, that's ideal. Beans, nuts, vegetables and high protein plants will give you the best insulin behavior and gut micro biome. So much more to say... One easy rule for me is to simulate how our ancestors would eat: High fibre, long fasting periods between meals, no sugar, no processed junk food. Drinking Non-caloric liquids. That works super well for me.

My question comes from a core aspect of spirituality, which is that spirituality cannot be brought to others by words and communication just like that. It usually takes months and years of indirect "radiation" of ones spiritual being to have an effect on others. Do you see changes in others consciousnesses, when they spend time with you? It not, does this frustrate you? Isn't it more satisfying to see your direct friends to become enlightened than some pictures and names in a forum? How do you treat the people around you, in order to let them taste the beauty of consciousness without pushing them? Don't they feel inferior to you, when non-duality and spirituality is discussed? How do you give Love without shocking others? Love you all, have a great time guys

Session 14: 30 minutes Felt rough. Was not motivated to start. Watched the clock every other minute. I was impatient for the "end bliss", which did not come. Now I feel dizzy, somewhat relaxed and conscious, but not loving or hopeful what so ever. Life sucks right now. I'm conscious of this "life sucks" feeling, and hope if I endure it "well-behaved" I get rewarded with peace and love. Nothing like this seems to happen. God can not be "ordered" by the ego. I feel depressed and lonely. This has surely something to do with the current ego backlash I'm struggling with after a long time of spiritual bliss and understanding. Even holotropic breathwork cannot pierce through the vail of ego backlash. Good luck to me.

Today i made the decision to implement holotropic breathwork into my spiritual practices. After some doubts i consider it solid spiritual work, which can easily be integrated in ones life. Especially compared to LSD trips, which take the whole day and can be mentally and physically demanding for the following days. I've had two small awakenings right at the end of each 30 minute session. I will slowly amp up the duration in steps of 5 minutes. My goal is to reach 60 minutes by the end of the month. Let's see what God (You/Me) has planned for US.

I see... You sometimes said: "Truth will never be popular". Is this just a realistic believe, or has God purposely designed reality to be that way?

Ofcourse "converting" would be something the devil wants. It's like the exact opposite of Love. However, isn't "bringing Love and consciousness to this world" your entire life purpose and agenda? Thats why Actualized.org is here I thought. And if Actualized.org seems valuable to you, don't you want to see a offline version of Actualized.org around you?

Why do you feel that way? Leo puts so much effort and time into giving love towards some online members, that I can only imagine how much Love his friends and acquaintances get. Not in a "let me give you all my money, and suck your dick"-Love, but in a holistic, God-like Love. I'm interested in how that practically looks in Leos everyday life. For example, if i'm present and comfortably couched into my own consciousness, I feel love in a supermarket for the guy/girl at the cash desk. What would be the most loving decision towards him/her. A little smile? Even a little talk/joke? Asking them how their shift went so far? At some point they would feel uncomfortable at the level of Love I would want to give. But sometimes I feel I could've given more Love. Thats why I asked @Leo Gura

The last weeks were packed with awakenings and egoic mind deconstruction. So right now, I'm in a conscious ego backlash. I crave for anything distracting, arousing, mind fucking and entertaining. I nearly ate twice as much as usual. I fear that if I stop with this, the urge will just came back tomorrow even stronger. So right now I feel into this sensation of egoic craving and external fulfillment. Any tips to integrate this sequence of consciousness even better? Love you guys

If this is true, our only hope lies in the russian people. Their consciousness has to step up above western and russian media, so they can contemplate the terrifying potential of a dying dictator.

@Asayake Great advice!

This problem was super common when I was in a sales job. People completely forget about you if you don't refresh contact to them. Likewise with girls. Likewise with me. Everyone really. Now, because of my work times, I can only have dates at weekends. But since I like to do day game throughout the week, I have situations like now, where the date is 5 days after the approach. I know we both lose interest in another if we do not have any contact. So what would be the ideal text/contact to refresh interest and not lose the date?

True that's a big part in my daily motivation. However, my friend in the rowing boat worked three years non-stop for this trip. There were so many opportunities for quick sex and female attention for him. His motivation is something way bigger than pussy. I only have one thing in the world that motivates me more than pussy, but this thing is so far away. So I better work on sex for now.

Yesterday I had a long convo with a friend, who just rowed alone for 131 days across the atlantic and we talked alot about personal meaning, inspiration and the right way of living life. He said one thing, that struck me in particular, which I adapted in pick-up today. He said, that you have to play the game of life by your own rules. Acknowledge, that, not only are you completely free to choose whatever reality is for you, but also nobody is gonna stop you. There is no higher authority, that tells you what life should be for you. You construct it. Become aware and be responsible and conscious about your construction. And today as I was doing some dating app stuff I noticed how foolish I was, thinking, that women are gonna judge me if I was approaching them directly. This is mental construction. Taking ownership of reality, means to construct new meaning into it. So my new meaning became, that women on the street are just my imagination to approach them. They are my present to myself. Of cours rejections are also my present to myself. Because they make me wiser and better. And thats what motivated me to approach super beautiful women today.

Session 13: 20 minutes Took me some weeks to get into breathing again. So only 20 minutes. Was worth it though. Felt love, forgiveness, beauty, wholeness. Really no reason to procrastinate on holotropic breathing, since it always heals the mind. Namaste.

I understand the perspective from which you are argumenting. Even after some awakenings, I still held this frame. Consciousness is infintely tricky. But notice that all argumenting and interpreting won't bring you closer to truth. If you consider the materialistic paradigm, you have contradictions. If you considering another paradigm, you have contradictions. No mental theory about reality, without contradictions. So your best bet is, to dumb all paradigms, dumb Leo, Actualized.org and your entire knowing, and stay completely open absolute truth. That is your consciousness. This is literally the only fucking thing, that can absolutely be true for you. Thats a good start.

@Cireeric I can relate so much to you. Especially the point when meditation becames "automatic" in every day life.

Have done it in international flights. No problem. Just put it in a book. If you want to be super save, put it together with some other cutted paper pieces in different shapes.

More precisely, I want to know how you guys and girls feel about the fact, that awakening happened so early? I see so many rather young folks here and want contemplate this question right now. The absolute "Love-Infinity-God" awakening leaves nothing more to desire. Nothing to reach and nothing to know. Yet many, like myself, are in their twenties and wonder how knowing the ultimate structure way before death will play out for the next 40-60 years. Not that i'm complaining. I'm hyped to integrate Self more and more. Embracing every form as myself and be Love. But 60 years is a long time, considering the current pace @Leo Gura You surely must have thought about your early awakenings (in combination with your health situation), that your life will not be that long, and therefore you as God take you out of the mundane dream earlier.

Interesting. Keep going and share your experiences. I want to try it out soon, so advice is appreciated ?

Loving Leo is pointless. Awakening, and loving Leo is Self-Love.

I experience most of these + the tinnitus and skin aches. Top solution for me are: Sport. Especially cardio-vascular training and high heart rate training resolve the symptoms Clean food. Mostly processed and high-carb food trigger all this nasty stuff. Stick to high-fiber, nutrient-dense plant food. Connecting with people I appreaciate. - This one is highly underestimated. Social connection is so crucial for a well functioning body and mind. Even for more introverted people like me. There is this rule of thumb, that loneliness causes as much damage to your system as a constant smoking habit. Fresh air and sunlight. Hiking, walks in nature and sleeping with an open window all have a big impact of the symptoms you listed above.

It seems that way, right? In non-dual states of consciousness you will discover that actually there is no causation to anything. You imagine your pen falling down and than you imagine a sound a pen would make if it hits the floor. The cause here is your "higher self imagination". And this imagination has no cause, it is the eternal cause for everything. It is infinite. Don't bother to understand this intellectually. Bother to awaken