Vynce

How is this obvious? I find myself to be inauthentic when I talk about reality as love, because it is not on my direct experience. Where in your direct experience is Love? It has to be everywhere if you authentically talk about love as the substance of reality. Of course in peak states of consciousness love is the only the left. However, thinking and talking about peak states is not the peak state. It's rather draining and confusing to live practically and remind myself of peak experiences in the absolute. I wonder how you handle this, since you don't live in the absolute most of your time. Right now reality is neutral, beautiful, itchy in my hands, cold in my feet and so many more states. Where is the love though.

So after about 12 months of mentally masturbating about selflessness as the highest goal and purpose of life, I have enough. Implementing selflessness on the microscopic scale into every decision stalls me out. Being purposefully patient, kind and „happy“ with others just because some enlightenment experience felt like this has not worked towards anything meaningful this year. In fear of disturbing my selfless Karma I did not start a business, did not start an online presence, did not dared to start meaningful relationships, did not travel, did not work a challenging job, did not contacted important people for my life purpose. Because all these things require you to ignore the comfort of something and be selfish for some time. In the end they can enrich reality with love and selflessness, but especially in the beginning you have to be selfish. Nothing I find meaningful and inspiring right now has ever been done from a selfless „buddha-hood“ style of being. At least not from the start. Take Leo for example: his videos, his blog posts, his affordable life purpose course can be understood as an accomplishment of „selfless Love“. However, his initial starting energy was always „I can make, say, write, and think about XY better than anyone else. Let’s see if I can do it better“. If Leo was completely selfless he would be totally ok with mediocre teachings and would even support false worldviews for the sake of absolute selflessness. I would go on and apply this logic to every world class sportsman, thinker, author, musician, artist, comedian, sales man, speaker … No one of them has ever started without some degree of selfishness. I wish I learned about this dynamic earlier. Awakening experiences with psychedelics have deeply moralized me to be „God like“ on a microscopic scale while completely ignoring the greater Love of pursuing macroscopic goals, which demand some „non-God like“ decision short term. This approach entails ignoring the pointless trash-drama-talk of my neighbors, „friends“, relatives of the past and family. This means to cut out the contact to my twin sister, because she has never brought anything meaningful in my life. This means to dump the ideas of philosophers, spiritual teachers and intelligent book authors if it does not bring peace or spirit into my life. That means to dump hobbies, people and ideas if they do not match my intrinsic values. This means to disappoint everyone, who expected something from me, which does not align with me emotionally and spiritually. This means to be selfish on the microscopic scale. However, this is authentic Love towards reality. This is excitement. This means purposing my inner values. This is following my visions. This is living in tune with instinct and emotions. This is the thrill of having abundant possibilities. This is the Joy of living at my current sequence of consciousness.

Grasping it once is cool. But can you grasp Gods nature here and now? Can you feel it (God) in this random, ambivalent moment? If you are like me, probably no. That's why some cool awakenings here and there will not allow us to see the intelligence of God anytime and anywhere. Which means we have to go deeper

Although, I definitely noticed how Truth won't reveal itself in just a little psychedelics experimentation sequence. Truth and God is the spiciest thing there is. So it does not want to deliver itself so easily. It would ruin the spiciness of it all. My recent notion to speedrun absolute understanding with psychedelics has disappointed me big time. There is no speed run. This game allows itself to be infinite.

Try out many techniques seriously and with diligence. At some point you recognize the underlying structure beneath any technique. Then you'll create completely new methods for yourself.

off topic, but out of curiosity: Have you already witnessed how you imagined the imagination process of an ai imagining art? That would be some triple meta imagining magic going on

Infinity is never "That". If you say it's this or that you are in the finite realm. It's hopeless to point towards actual Infinity with some finite stupid words. So compared to actual Infinity the words of Ralston, Leo, me, you are just distraction from direct, actual experience aka infinity. And yes infinity has no problem to grow faster for ever. There is no limit to anything.

Here are some of my mystical art works of the last days. This website would not allow more than 3 pictures, so just the measly screenshot. But I think the potential of this technology is shown quite good. Experimenting with this is pure heaven for everyone who is into art and paints by themself.

I think 5-meo takes it to another level, but I think I recently had a glimpse into what sex with God might feels like. I was having sex with the figment of my girlfriend mixing up with figments of my friends, parents, sisters, people I hate, people I have only seen once, people I don't even know and so on. It was amazing, I loved to be intimate with all kinds of people in one act. That's what God is after all.

Wow man this insight is just cocaine laced gold. It TO-TA-LLY makes sense. How did you got to it? Via psychedelics or communication with women? Because in my experience women could never articulate their deep desire packed in a sharp sentence like this. Or maybe because you yourself found out about the woman Leo I side you the later is something I really appreciate about myself now.

A future Leo is laughing at your pathetic image of god realization. Wasn't it always like that

Just order 5-meo. No need to lick toads.

I think many, myself included, have this common picture of God as a loving mother nurturing us with endless love, forgiveness and hope. Which is often called the "feminine quality" of God. However there is the masculine side of God, which feels harsh, rejecting and why we say "life is tough". During God realization both side are equally important and necessary. Both part of ultimate and necessary perfection. But here in the relative domain it begs the question, how embodying Gods perspective would make us seem harsh and rejecting. In that sense it is God-like to deliberately make others life's tough. In the end, it makes them stronger, wiser and more in tune with reality. You can think about how a wise parent would decide if the toddler cries for unhealthy sweet stuff and would hate you for not getting it. In this scenario you are literally God to the kid. What will you, as a wise, God-emboying parent do? Keeping with that theme, you could say that all your relatives, friends and strangers are little kids crying for your love. How will you act? Feminine or masculine? Especially if you yourself are a lost soul crying in the choir of desperate kids. Right now I would feel criminal if I'd embody the masculine site of God towards others as much as I experience it's masculine love towards me. Pure brutality lately. It makes me hate God so much, yet makes me love it so much more, as soon as I see it's necessity. There is so much to say about this dynamic. Hope for some discussion and insights here.

@Razard86 we are one the same wavelength here. Maybe you have some examples how you experienced reality from its feminine or masculine side? Here is an example how reality switched from feminine to masculine back and forth in my life: Feminine: reality offers me a new job as a fitness trainer with a chance to know hundreds of new personalities and step closer to self-actualization of my highest values. I feel hope, gratitude, new love and appreciation. Masculine: the reality as a fitness trainer feels boring, dreadful, lots of repetitive work, dry personalities with 98% smalltalk. Almost no money and terrible work times. Feminine: I learn a lot of new stuff about fitness techniques, learn what behavior to avoid with fearful and boring personalities. Learn about wage slavery and what drives ordinary people in their everyday life. Get the chance to do promotion and marketing content, which in itself is way more fun that the actual job. Masculine: the realization how even the good stuff in this job holds me back from my true life purpose and that every cool little technique I learn is just distraction from my ultimate goal. Feminine: learn that there is no future with some ultimate goal - this moment right here offers everything that has to be experienced in all of reality. This right here is the perfect playground the for the ultimate game, which stands far above any egoic goal. And then the masculine side takes over and switched back to feminine. Over and over and over and over again. I hate/love being human/God.

@Someone here Have you actually read the post? Why do you bring gender identification into it? This is different topic. My decision how I treat others has little to do with my sexual identification. Paradoxical the more I discover my feminine side, the more I want to live from a father-like perspective to my girlfriend let's say. Please be precise and sharp in your speech, and please listen to your heart if your speech can enhance the present moment even more or not. - This reply was written with masculine love btw. If it sounds harsh to you (The last sentence was written with feminine love )

Yeah Whatever held them back, to talk over money is the only problem I see here.

Wow unbelievable quote. Thank you Tristan for sharing

If analyzing a casual problem and elevating/integrating its core dynamic to the metaphysical perspective was a muscle, you'd beat Mr. Schwarzenegger on stage without even flexing. Excuse for the ass licking, some things just have to be said.

@Leo Gura's take about this topic could be extra relevant, because he is not purely brainwashed into the common american "Anti-Putin" politics. His russian background and understanding of political decisions could be worth making a video about it.

@something_else I know sourcing is banned here, but can you give me a hint, where to find a good protocol or place for more advice in regards of exploring the deep web for trustworthy vendors? I researched for about 2-3 hours and only got headaches and frustration. For now, the deep web feels like an online mental hospital.

This is what happens when you meditate correctly. You are on a good course. Your egoic mind, the inner voice, which identifies with "mine" and "I" struggles to let you be in "no mind" and "non-egoic presence", because it fears its own annihilation. This is one of the first big waves every meditator has to face. You will soon see how ridiculous this fear is. Your ego will always come back with different strategies. Get used to it If the routine of sitting down and meditating for a specific time stirs havoc and resistance in you, add or change to other mediations techniques. Body scans are great. Or just becoming super still to notice all the auditice sensations in you surroundings. In the presence itself, every thought is gone, you cannot think and be present at the same time. Thats the only thing that matters in every kind of meditation. Replacing thoughts with presence.

No, but also through a substance, which in my case sharpens and opens consciousness like thousands of micrograms of LSD. Just for a brief moment though.

My last awakening gave me some deep insights how what we call will is created. The notion of free will only comes into being, because you believe you can decide and change however you want. So this here is your current decision, maybe to read this text, which is surrounded in your mind by all sorts of alternatives. You could read something else, listen to music, go eat something. Also, if you chose to eat something the possibility of reading this text comes up again as an alternative scenario. So you never trapped in an decision you can always decide back. That's what is meant with infinite free will. However, the line of decision throughout your entire life follows an ultimate path of perfection. That's why there is no absolute free will. But because this line follow infinite love, every dot in this line is surrounded by infinite alternatives, which you can explore. But regardless where you explore, you will follow absolute perfection. So No free will and infinite free will are absolutely the same.

It only does to the degree of you not thinking. Thats the reason sunsets can feel "mystical", because your thinking stops at the beauty of such events. Your post also reminded me about an insight, which came up about why spiritual growth is often associated with being in nature. That is, because just like with the Mandelbrot set, plants and animals also growth and behave in non-rational, fractal-like pattern, which cannot be comprehended by the mind if you look closely. So looking at astonishing landscapes and flowers will stop the mind, if not for some seconds. Meanwhile an accurately shaped room can be comprehended super easily, so your can produce toxic thoughts and stories again without hindrance.