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@Michael Jackson Thank you! This forum is such a gem. But to see 70% of popular posts showing how someone masturbates about Leos teachings, is just frustrating. Especially if you really know how far actual truth is away from "intellectual bla bla truth". Someone should set up PornHub for mental masturbation. He will get rich in no time.

Super interesting. I wonder if you can experience memories from your friends or relatives and ask them about it. After all, if you awaken to yourself as God, there are no memories or perspectives of others. You just sense how you imagine, that they have their own perspective and memories. Omnipotence is far more radical. There is no room for doubt, that you actually were omnipotent.

I think a big role in what you call awkwardness plays the fact, that spirituality is really the only topic that CANNOT find reality through talk. For example the topic "math" can be experienced in thoughts, because math is just a certain architecture of thought forms and mental constructs. On the other side, spiritual truths can only and ever be experienced through direct consciousness. Talking is living in thoughts and mental constructs, which is the direct opposite of you being conscious of what directly is. That's the whole dilemma.

Actually, if your are doing this logic circling about infinity, always contradicting and correcting the last sentence, your egoic mind tastes what its like to be infinite. That's exactly the reason why our egoic minds feels uncomfortable doing that. They are designed to negate infinity.

Yeah that's the amazing think about infinity (reality) its always both: absolute certain and also absolute uncertain. The rule of thumb is: Infinity can never conserved in some kind of law. Infinity is every law and no law. Also this description is also not complete, because the description is finite.

You say that with a lot of "certainty"

You spent so much time here. Chances are high you will benefit from connecting with different people and teachings. Actualized.org can be a trap as well.

@Someone hereYour words are wise on paper, but I can smell your unsatisfactory within your speech. If the content of your words became actual reality, the last thing you would want to do is to flood this forum with mental pictures. This does not provide any value to serious seekers.

The unleashing of physical and mental finiteness. OR. The moment you know and feel your true nature as absolute indistinguishability.

No its far crazier than that Do you know the "FaceApp"? It's a software, which changes your face into a fat face, old face, young face, female face, male face, long hair or short hair. And because its trained with self-learning artificial intelligence it looks realistic as fuck. Try it out, you will laugh at or fear what you see. Exactly this happened to me. An ever changing face appearance. I could force to myself to see my "ordinary face", but if I let myself into the experience every kind of face appeared. Even female or "extra-male" features appeared where the face area would be. Super interesting!

Hey folks, I spare you with endless philosophysing about awakening to absolute infinity and love. However, yesterday day after taking a solid dose of LSD I noticed that God could not hold the image of my face in the mirror. Instead my face shifted and morphed into infinitely many face forms. At first I was shocked and in fear. But after realizing my true infinite nature again I embraced all my faces in the mirror and felt in love with them. The ugly ones, the old ones, hairy or not hairy faces - all mine - all Love! That's some deep love work for ya :))

Embrace the creepiness Notice that this feeling of fear never manifests into something actual. If you allow it completely, you see how fear (resistance) and acceptance are going hand in hand, always changing. This knowing about impermanence results in wisdom and love

@nutlow That's why it is so powerful. Accepting yourself as whatever you seem to be is what God is doing all the time. Your face right now is just one out of infinite faces God chooses to experience what it's like to be a human. There is no need to be attached to this specific form you are right now, when ultimately you are ever changing infinity. Scary stuff for the ego

Nowadays there are more apps for language learning than languages. The best online learning program is by far "Rosetta Stone". It costs like 10-20 dollars per month and is made just like a child would learn a language from its mother. No grammar, no vocabularies, no bullshit. Just pictures, text, spoken word and writing. And the best part, it makes a ton of fun, especially when you can try out the learned stuff in real life

Session Nine: 40 minutes Had 8 tabs of LSD the day before, so that might have influenced this session. Either way, it was a strong determination session, without any significant breaks. Tabbed into enormous creativity and Gods Love at the end. For example I contemplated for the perfect name of my brand. Now I think I have it This time the bondages of my muscles were huge. But I could let go of my urge to resist quite well. I even had crazy colorful fractal vision during and especially after the work. One of the best sessions so far.

If you really think this rabbit hole has an end, you are have not awakened ? Don't bullshit yourself in believing infinity can be understood to some "end". Thats the ultimate paradox and beauty of ultimate truth. Love ya

However, we are all abusing these basic needs. The need for food turns into endless binging of sweets and fast food. The need for sex turns into marathons of porn consumption. Your brain is not wired to health, your brain is wired to multiplication of every dopamine hit it can get. If you give certain dogs an endless supply of food, they will eat themselves to death. Metaphorically thats happening with humans as well. So water fasting or NoFap can actually give you a new perspective on your needs. At the end there is a huge spectrum of how you fulfill your needs in healthy and unhealthy ways.

Tomorrow? Complete awakening does not leave any fantasies about something like tomorrow, its complete direct experience of this right here. And you know everything about it. There is no question mark. If someone asks you what the birthday of your neighbor is, you cannot give an answer, because the universe has to create the birthday, when you ask the neighbor. However, omniscience means, that you completely know why this questions got asked, and how you imagine the one asking. So yes, even detailed omniscience is possible. Your scientific, egoic projection lets it seem contradictory.

@Raze Try out both. See what offers more benefits. It seems that there is this rule to the structure of reality, that everything great occurs when you feel selfless in working for it. And since nobody knows what selflessness feels like for you, nobody but you can figure that out. I know guys, who watch porn daily and still remain confident and energetic. They have their weak points somewhere else. This is a DIY projects. Personally porn consumption is a massive energy killer for me.

@LostStudent The terms is used differently at different places. Most stick with the hardest form. No Fap = No masturbation, No porn, No orgasm. However, the real benefit comes from the deprivation of easily accessed dopamine. Thats what it is all about. So if masturbation gives you pleasure, cut it out. If watching porn does, cut it out. If sexual thoughts do, cut them out. If I forgot something sexual that gives you easy pleasure, cut it out. This mechanism forces your mind-matter construct to search for new ways of getting gratification, which usually results in more motivation, creativity and liveliness. Note that there are many more techniques to enter this "higher energy", like: Water fasting, meditation retreats, social media detox, abstaining from eating greasy, salty or sweet food, ect. The structure remains the same. No easy dopamine = More motivation to attain profound, deeper gratification

In every case you have the advantage of more experience in your body. Every experiment adds to this self-consciousness. So I really recommend trying it for 30 days.

Hopefully the second integrity episode

After many unsuccessful attempts of registration I finally was allowed to do my first 10 days of strict Vipassana meditation in Austria on behalf on S. N. Goenka. The course was laid out straight forward and really out of comfort. No media, nothing to write, no communication with others, waking up at 4 am, simple food twice a day and no contact to the "outside world". Basically perfect conditions for deep meditative work. The meditation techniques were just Anapana (observing breath) and Vipassana (observing sensations in the whole body). Anapana for sharpening the mind and Vipassana to develop direct wisdom on the nature of mind and body. I could go into that intellectually, but this will probably just bore you. In the following I want to give a personal overview how the course felt for me; what benefits it brought and what not to expect if I attend it again: So already during the first days I could clearly see how my emotions and thought patterns behave without distractions from outside. From joyful creativity to blank depressive episode multiple facets of the mind revealed themself over the course of the day. This made it crystal clear to me, how subjective experience is over changing and fascinating if you just give it enough consciousness. Then, on day 3-6 I really got intense day dreaming experiences, where my mind would play high resolution dreamed up realities. These scenarios could not be distinguished from "waking reality". Beautiful pictures and fascinating stories, but all imagined within seconds of closed eyes. This stopped after 6 days or so. Then there was this phase of kneading through childhood memories and old forgotten mental activities. Tedious, but revealing. Also intense physical sensation, like warm flowing energy movements and "pleasure explosions" inside the gut came to life occasionally. But craving for them made the mediation worse, so there "worth" was relative. However, my biggest achievement was to see the true mechanism of craving (and vice versa aversion). And that is, that you never crave the object of desire itself, but you actually you crave the craving. So for example if you are a guy and thinking about a super attractive woman there is craving happening in form of a bodily sensation. (For me its somewhere in the stomach area, as well as the upper neck.) And the more this idea of "you winning the woman" gets reality (in your mind or in reality), the more your craving will increase. Ultimately this craving must stop, because the woman left or you had sex with her. In either case, you want you still want to crave. So a new woman has to be found or a new car, new haircut, new carrier achievement and so on. The bottom line is, you think you want a specific object, but you actually want the wanting itself. Try to see this truth in your body right now. It's fascinating how simple it sounds, but no one really cared to explain. On the other hand this kind of meditation practice won't give you non-dual experiences or no-mind as effectively as psychedelics or holotropic breathwork do. So don't go with any related expectations into the course. Overall a great opportunity to learn about oneness in a clean non-dogmatic environment. Big recommendation.

Except the non-dual nature of reality does not give you any other perspective than your own. Why would you need other perspectives if you can just geniusly imagine them. There is nothing stopping infinite consciousness from doing exactly that.

@Nivsch Desire is something the ego does. You really need a reference experience, what No-mind (no ego) is. Realizing absolute truth is only possible in levels of consciousness, which make thought constructed ego patterns completely unable to persist. In fact, you will find out that this moment right here is your highest desire. But again, believing that thought will answer metaphysical questions, will result in logical loops and paradox. More consciousness is all we need.