Blackhawk

She isn't smart or conscious. It should be obvious now thanks to her belief in horseshit. It's convenient to have things like Trump, conspiracy theories, and NATO-haters, because whoever supports Trump, believes in conspiracy theories, or is against a membership in NATO is an idiot. Btw, Sweden and Finland should join NATO.

Dude, you rather kill yourself than at least try a psychologist? Yes maybe they would give you medication and hospitalize you, so you get well. You rather die because of your false belief about some kundalini and demon nonsense than get medication and treatment which surely would cure you? That would be so unnecessary.

Beauty implies the existence of ugly.

Well said. Before you edited your message with adding the thing about parents controlling the child I was thinking the same thing. ?

Wrong. It's ugliness, misery/suffering, dispassion, artlessness and hate.

But.. supposedly also these thoughts comes from "the controller" (God). So.. I don't know..

If I don't have free will, then who does? If you say "God" does.. that doesn't tell me much. So there's a invisible man with white beard controlling me or what? Where is this damn God you're talking about? I'm God? Well, obviously not since I'm completely powerless. Anyway.. Then that means: whatever is controlling me, also controls everyone else. So whatever is controlling me, it could suddenly decide to do something completely unexpected, and it could also apply that stuff to everyone else too. So suddenly everyone, including me, would act in whatever way the controller wants. For example one time "the controller" literally forced me to yell out loud: "God is good". It was really scary stuff.

Stop being so paranoid and just take the damn vaccine.

@Alysssa I see. I have never had a gf.. It's not really normal that someone at my age have never had a partner. I get sad every time I see a attractive woman. If I could choose between 100 million dollar or a partner, I would choose a partner. There's nothing else in the entire existence than I desire more than women. So maybe you can imagine how nervous women make me. I don't see them as humans, I see them as something much better than humans. And I don't understand how it's possible that something can be so beautiful, such beauty shouldn't be possible, it makes no sense.

Because of stupidity and fear.

@Alysssa I think I just have bad memory, that's why I don't remember much from my childhood. If we would dig a bit I think we would find out that you still have more social life than I do. And you probably at least have hope of getting a friend or partner or something. The importance of hope can't be overestimated. You probably subconsciously even know that you will get a friend, boyfriend or something. And also you're a woman so you know that you are desired by all men, also that should increase your happiness level even when you are alone. Me on the other hand, since I'm a man I'm not desired by anyone. But yes ok, maybe you have a stronger psyche then, I'm happy for you. I seriously can't imagine how I could be happy alone. There's absolutely nothing to be happy about, nada, even if I would love myself. But I do get more happy when I communicate with someone and feel that the person likes me. I never think in terms of whether something has any use or not. I only think whether it's true or not. I have noticed that people want some kind of use of everything. For example they only care about the ultimate truth of reality if it has some kind of use for them. If it isn't useful then they say: "fuck truth, I don't care about it." Or even worse: they create their own delusional belief about the truth which is useful for them. I'm not denying that I have some worth on some areas. For example for my employer (but my employer could easily replace me) and for my parents. But I'm worthless in pretty much everything else, especially worthless as a friend and bf.

I think I have always been depressed. Or maybe I wasn't depressed when I was a kid, but I don't remember much from my childhood. Easy for you to say that it's not important to have any social life whatsoever, since you have a huge social life. It pisses me off a bit when people who have a big social life say "you don't need a social life". We are social animals, I think loneliness is the biggest contributing factor to depression, and loneliness is also bad for the physical health. Studies have been made about this. Anyone who would be in my shoes would be depressed. I can guarantee that. Actually probably most people would've committed suicide.

@Alysssa 32.

Or your children getting assraped by 20 dirty homeless people with AIDS for 12 hours non-stop, and after that they torture your children to death. @4201 Do you really think that that burning monk didn't have pain and wasn't suffering. Or Peter Ralston when he did the root canal thing. Ok so you still think that pain and suffering is a belief and has nothing to do with reality. I have to say I'm a bit disappointed in you. I don't want to discuss this specific topic about pain and suffering being a belief anymore. Clearly I am right and you are wrong so there's nothing more to discuss here.

@4201 Saying "pain and suffering is a belief and has nothing to do with reality" is a very easy thing to say for someone who at the moment of saying it is comfortable. But there's ways how you could investigate whether that idea is true or not. For example someone could pull all your teeth out with pliers, pull your fingernails off, and drill holes on your knee-caps and on your skull (shallow ones so the brain doesn't get damaged which would most likely lead to unconsciousness.) Would you at that moment still think that pain and suffering is a belief and has nothing to do with reality? Or if you just meant psychological pain: If your biggest love ever (wife and soulmate) has been having foursome gangbangs with 3 of your best friends several times per week for 7 years. Would you still think that pain and suffering is a belief and has nothing to do with reality? Or like in my case: total loneliness for life, not a single friend or anything, not even online, not liked by anyone, forget everything about romance and love, no one to communicate with, no hope of it ever getting better. Prayed to God and angels and what not for any kind of company or for a sign or just anything, but nothing. And tried all help and have tried to improve etc. but nothing has worked. Completely abandoned by everyone and everything, even by God. (Not abandoned by parents though, but that doesn't count, the parents are just annoying.) Note that you cannot understand how it feels unless you have actually been in exactly that situation, which you haven't, none of you have. Would you still think that pain and suffering is a belief and has nothing to do with reality? Sorry if I sounded rude, vulgar or something but I like to investigate every claim in depth. Does it really hold water?

I don't know about USA, but the country where I live.. If you tell the hospital staff that you have taken drugs, they wont report it to the police. And one time when I had a bad trip, the police came inside my home while I was tripping balls, and my home was full of drugs, and they knew it, but since it was a medical emergency they didn't care about the drugs at all, they just drove me to the psych ward.

@snowyowl The thing is that those who say things like "happiness comes from within" and "you don't need anyone if you just love yourself" aren't as lonely as I am. So they are just talking shit, imo. It's extra ridiculous when Leo says it. Because he's a freaking celebrity, with hundreds of thousands of worshippers and a million women who want to marry him etc. etc. Some music can make me cry a bit. And women can make me cry a lot, but that's only during online chatting, and it was a long time ago when it happened last time, because I haven't chatted seriously with anyone in a long time. I don't meet people so I don't know if I could cry infront of people.

@Alysssa Because it's true that I will be alone, because I'm worthless. I would have to somehow lie to myself that I wont be alone. I don't think I can do that. Yes.

I care about your problems, but unfortunately I probably can't help you because I lack the required skills. I don't know about that. We'll never find out whether your hypothesis is true or not since I will be alone as long as I live, and then I might also be alone after death. But I've heard that everyone gets a spirit guide helper when one dies, but it's just a temporary helper who helps during the death process. Yes you're probably right about the thing about selfishness.

@Preety_India I'm sorry to hear about your problem. You're not unworthy. I wish I could help, but unfortunately I can't. I lack the ability.

@Matthi I'm sorry to hear about your problem. I wish I could help, but unfortunately I can't. I lack the ability.

@PepperBlossoms I'm sorry to hear about your problem. I wish I could help, but unfortunately I can't. I lack the ability.

@Travisty I'm sorry to hear about your problem. I wish I could help, but unfortunately I can't. I lack the ability.

@4201 I understand.

People only like the fancy stuff. The Consciousness/Nothingness gets ignored. They go for nice experiences..