Blackhawk

Intuition, logic, common sense. "It will be just like before you were born" includes getting born. “If you want to know the future, look at the past.” - Albert Einstein

Yes.

I feel that if enlightenment is the truth, then it shouldn't be so damn difficult to get enlightened. I know there's some teachers who say: "it's not difficult, it's the most simple and obvious thing". But no it's not. It seems to be impossible to attain. I think that maybe 1 or 2 of you who reply are enlightened. But probably none of you are enlightened, if enlightenment even exists. Before even Leo said that he isn't enlightened, but I don't know if he has recently became enlightened. Especially for me it should be easy to attain because I wouldn't mind dying. I have nothing to live for. I'm already done with this life. Some of you will say: "you have to spend billions of hours of hard work to achieve it". There's several problems with that. 1. I don't have the energy for that. 2. I don't have the time for that. 3. I hate doing it. 4. I don't have the discipline for it. 5. I don't want to waste so much effort into something which might not even be true. 6. Psychedelics fucks up my psyche. They make me experience absolutely horrific things which traumatize me for years or possibly for life. I only get bad trips from everything. Even from weed I get bad "trips". I risk getting permanently mentally ill from psychedelics.

I see..

@Leo Gura I have been trying. I'm frustrated.

Is it because I don't have free will? So it's the real I who has free will, not this body/mind? So where is this damn real I? I can't find that bastard.

So the revelation should be easy to get. But it isn't easy. And it's frustrating.

Then it's a achievement.

@impulse9 Why does everyone recommend practices then.

The colors. No. I felt good. Kinda. A bit. Maybe. I don't know how to do it.

I guess I have, it was nice.

You yourself said that doing something specific instead of something else increases the chance of or gets you closer to enlightenment: @snowyowl I don't have suicidal thoughts or plans.

Going to a park and watch birds with a calm and clear mind will totally cause enlightenment. Not.

I don't have any fucking ideas of enlightenment. I don't know anything whatsoever.

I already know all that. I just want something to happen, anything, make it happen, anyone, in any way. How difficult is it to understand?

I just changed the title to: "If enlightenment is the truth, then why is it so damn difficult to happen?" Are you happy now? Can you all stop obsessing about the words achieve/attain now? My thoughts immediately goes to physical suicide again. It's weird that not more seekers committ suicide thanks to all this constant talk about death, beyond survival, etc.

@Moksha Okay thanks. What other word than achievement should I use then? Clearly enlightenment must be something which happens to this body/mind. Even just disidentification with this body/mind would be something that happens to this body/mind, or "death" of the separate self. Yes I understand that enlightenment isn't a better version of my egoic self, but again, obviously enlightenment should cause something for this body/mind, even if it's just a disidentification or end of a separate self.

@Breakingthewall I see.. @snowyowl Hi. I have meditated, contemplated, educated myself with the theoretical stuff, tried psychedelics one time, done self-inquiry, I also tried kriya yoga a bit. I have experienced horrific things, both on the one trip and many times sober. One time it was a blissful experience. But I think they were probably just delusions.

Well, give me the understanding and death and all that stuff then. Or how do I get it?

I think that's what they call enlightenment?

No not low doses. Haven't touched psychedelics after a bad trip.

So magically somehow my real Me is supposed to do it? Ok, 1 sec.. let the real Me somehow do it.. Nope, nothing happened.

In other words: it's impossible. I wish I could do that, but I can't.

No, I guess I think it probably isn't. But how else could I phrase it? I'm currently reading this book, and I like it: https://www.perfectbrilliantstillness.org/book/

@ZzzleepingBear @Marcel Thanks. It's provocative to tell someone who is suffering that he/she likes the suffering. For example imagine telling it to someone who has lost a child or something, you would never do it. I guess the answer will be "yeah the ego doesn't like to hear it". Sigh..