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Some people are so afraid of death that they even deny that the body will die. Such utter and complete nonsense is triggering, it's so insane that it's painful to read.

That's a nice idea but I'm not sure it's true.

If anything, it's your ideas about death which are pure fantasy. See, even the Upanishads say that our bodies will die and that something will happen. I think reports about near death experiences are interesting.

I saw the posts, but I don't know what to answer.

Here we go again.. People telling me what would and wouldn't make me happy. And people thinking that they know me and my situation better than I do. And people dismissing my likes and what I want.

But it has got worse. It keeps getting worse all the time. Thanks, that's kind of you You are all kind.

Unfortunately no. I feel that reality is mind-boggling, mysterious, fascinating, etc, but it doesn't alleviate my pain.

Your 2 replies in this thread doesn't mean that I have someone to talk/write with. I'm already noticing what I like and want, and I don't have what I like and want. It can always get worse.

The whole problem is that I don't have anyone to talk (or write) with. No. In my case I'm against it. Would medication solve my loneliness? No. So it wouldn't solve anything.

I don't need to talk with a good therapist. What I need is:

About a week ago or something, just before work, I suddenly got a conviction that life here is hell. The same day, at work, I saw this written on a thing (you can't tell by the picture, but it's a container which you put frozen food inside and it keeps it cold): And then the day after, I saw it again, in a different warehouse at work. At work we have hundreds of those things, the probability that I would see the exact same container two days in a row is extremely small. So it was a double super-mega coincidence (if it was a coincidence). I don't know.. 6 years maybe or something. What I need is someone to talk with. Yes.

Take it easy with your delusions. Even all spiritual teachers like Adyashanti, Rupert Spira, Eckhart Tolle, Mooji, Ramana Maharshi, etc. etc. say that we have bodies and that the bodies will die.

Billions of people can tell you different things about what will happen after death. But you can't know if what they believe is true. Obviously the body will die. Obviously the body will die. I think there will be more consciousness after death.

@Gili Trawangan Hi. Thanks.

No I don't see a way out. I liked that thing about the basket. I don't know what supplies I need. Oh okay, I haven't noticed that thing about 2 months. I don't think there's something triggering it. When I was very young I had several friends. But then we moved because my mom got a job, I lost all my friends then. In the same process I also switched from a finnish school to a swedish school. Ever since I have been lonely. (With the exception that I did get one new friend, but after some years I lost him too.) That was a bit funny.

Because I'm unlikable and unlovable. Hahahah "just do the work and accept yourself, that will solve everything", just stop.

Another big aspect of the hell is that no one understands you, they even deny that you are in hell/that you have a problem. It makes the loneliness even worse. That's the main reason why I don't even reply to you guys. You disagree with me about everything. And believe things that aren't true.

Sure my problem is just that I have a victim mindset and I deliberately choose all this, *sighs*. See, I'm alone even here in this matter, because no one understands me even here about this matter.

Imagine how it would be like to always be permanently alone. And no one wants to be friend or anything with you even online. That's my life.

Very funny.

It's much worse for me. Yes.

I don't know. No.

I don't know. No I can't give it to myself.

I'm lonely in general, and also kind of just went through a break up, but it wasn't a irl relationship.

Probably a gf, someone who loves me. This comment will probably make people think that I'm not actually suffering that much, but I am. Lonely as in being single and unlovable.