Blackhawk

No I don't see a way out. I liked that thing about the basket. I don't know what supplies I need. Oh okay, I haven't noticed that thing about 2 months. I don't think there's something triggering it. When I was very young I had several friends. But then we moved because my mom got a job, I lost all my friends then. In the same process I also switched from a finnish school to a swedish school. Ever since I have been lonely. (With the exception that I did get one new friend, but after some years I lost him too.) That was a bit funny.

Because I'm unlikable and unlovable. Hahahah "just do the work and accept yourself, that will solve everything", just stop.

Another big aspect of the hell is that no one understands you, they even deny that you are in hell/that you have a problem. It makes the loneliness even worse. That's the main reason why I don't even reply to you guys. You disagree with me about everything. And believe things that aren't true.

Sure my problem is just that I have a victim mindset and I deliberately choose all this, *sighs*. See, I'm alone even here in this matter, because no one understands me even here about this matter.

Imagine how it would be like to always be permanently alone. And no one wants to be friend or anything with you even online. That's my life.

Very funny.

It's much worse for me. Yes.

I don't know. No.

I don't know. No I can't give it to myself.

I'm lonely in general, and also kind of just went through a break up, but it wasn't a irl relationship.

Probably a gf, someone who loves me. This comment will probably make people think that I'm not actually suffering that much, but I am. Lonely as in being single and unlovable.

I don't think so. Not really. There's no help and nothing helps, like I said. Shitty (unlovable) personality> total loneliness> hell.

Yes I guess. Then nothing changes.

I guess they all mix together and cause a constant state of deep misery and suffering.

I don't know. There's the uncertainty again which makes it even worse. Birth led me to this place. It's all unknown.

Completely powerless. Helpless. Hopeless. Worthless. Sad. Lonely. Unloved. Abandoned. Hated. No energy. No motivation. No discipline. Jealous. Pain and suffering everywhere. It's a psychological turmoil. I don't know if it's some kind of actual Hell. The uncertainty just makes the Hell even worse. At least in the real Hell which you are talking about they would let you know that you are actually in the real Hell.

About 1 hour before the power outage happened I started to think about a power outage, and what to do when it haopens. Sitting here in the dark now. Coincidence? Maybe.. But they don't happen often here.

Normal. A bit cold, about 36 fahrenheit (2 celsius). We don't usually get power outages here no matter what the weather is, so it can't be that. I see.

No.

Power is back on.

And I think I started to charge my phone thanks to the premonition. It had just finished charging when the power outage happened. Without the premonition I would have low on battery now. Convenient to predict stuff.

After death there will be more experience.

Yes.

Yes.