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@RickyFitts @Gianna Can you take that stuff somewhere else. Anywhere but in this thread. It's just that it makes me sad. This is exactly the kind of stuff I don't want to see.

I don't know. Thanks.

Or in other words: the best thing with life is that it wont last forever.

Death. (Death is a part of life. The moment you have life then you also have a death-guarantee. They go together. It wouldn't be nice to live forever.) Or in other words: the best thing with life is that it wont last forever.

Sometimes I do think about whether I should kill myself or not. I know that the smart and rational thing for me would be to kill myself. It would most likely in an instant solve all my suffering and problems. But when you take also others into the equation, then it's not such a easy decision anymore. What I would gain in stopping to suffer, would be lost on my parents suffering more. About 4 years ago I was very close to killing myself. I had everything ready, the rope, suicide letter, etc, but when I was about to do it, I couldn't do it.

Because my problem is so deep roted. So the problem would follow me everywhere. Sorry for writing short answers, I'm trying to write longer answers but nothing comes to my mind.

Thanks. No I don't have a cat. I don't know what to say. Thanks.

I don't think that a new fresh start would help.

Yeah none of it helped. Hehe, well, thanks for trying.

Thanks..

I have tried medication, therapy, etc.. Good that you're out of it now. I have shyness, introversion, and self-doubt. And I don't know what to say. I see. Oh My favorite animal is cats. What is yours?

Some people are so afraid of death that they even deny that the body will die. Such utter and complete nonsense is triggering, it's so insane that it's painful to read.

That's a nice idea but I'm not sure it's true.

If anything, it's your ideas about death which are pure fantasy. See, even the Upanishads say that our bodies will die and that something will happen. I think reports about near death experiences are interesting.

I saw the posts, but I don't know what to answer.

Here we go again.. People telling me what would and wouldn't make me happy. And people thinking that they know me and my situation better than I do. And people dismissing my likes and what I want.

But it has got worse. It keeps getting worse all the time. Thanks, that's kind of you You are all kind.

Unfortunately no. I feel that reality is mind-boggling, mysterious, fascinating, etc, but it doesn't alleviate my pain.

Your 2 replies in this thread doesn't mean that I have someone to talk/write with. I'm already noticing what I like and want, and I don't have what I like and want. It can always get worse.

The whole problem is that I don't have anyone to talk (or write) with. No. In my case I'm against it. Would medication solve my loneliness? No. So it wouldn't solve anything.

I don't need to talk with a good therapist. What I need is:

About a week ago or something, just before work, I suddenly got a conviction that life here is hell. The same day, at work, I saw this written on a thing (you can't tell by the picture, but it's a container which you put frozen food inside and it keeps it cold): And then the day after, I saw it again, in a different warehouse at work. At work we have hundreds of those things, the probability that I would see the exact same container two days in a row is extremely small. So it was a double super-mega coincidence (if it was a coincidence). I don't know.. 6 years maybe or something. What I need is someone to talk with. Yes.

Take it easy with your delusions. Even all spiritual teachers like Adyashanti, Rupert Spira, Eckhart Tolle, Mooji, Ramana Maharshi, etc. etc. say that we have bodies and that the bodies will die.

Billions of people can tell you different things about what will happen after death. But you can't know if what they believe is true. Obviously the body will die. Obviously the body will die. I think there will be more consciousness after death.

@Gili Trawangan Hi. Thanks.